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First post of the year! Wow, I know I got started pretty late into the year, but hey, better late than never! Lots of things have happened, cosplayed as Suzumiya Haruhi during CCA carnival for Genshiken, I know its pretty shocking as I don't precisely resemble her, but whats done is done, and they said it wasn't half-bad. New timetable, which gives me 2 free periods, but I have PE every Monday and Thursday at the unearthly hour of *gasp* 3pm. Utterly disgusting. Have to run in the hot sun... And the PE teacher's this crazy woman who wanted us to run... *GASP* 6 rounds! On the first PE session! After slacking for the entire holidays! Evil! Evil! I'm now the Economics rep for Ms Lee, did it because I need motivation to stay wawke ALL the time. I mean, you can't possibly be nodding off in class if you happen to be the rep right? So yup, must be exam-focused and exam smart! lessons are centered around A02, which is more boring than I thought. Wait, I thought it would be fun to see your classmates all the time! I guess I'm used to talking to different people all the time, so now that I'm restricted, its sort of weird. I miss my GP classmates and Mr Whitby especially, followed by the A01 students. Its actually weird to see so many A02 students in my lessons. I suppose I was usedto only seeing them during meals and after school...

Watching Saiunkoku still, as well as a bit of the usual HYDE stuff. No longer particularly interested though. I guess its because school has started officially, and all the school stuff cancels out the LAraku stuff. Sighx. Talk about temporal. Still having problems extracting myself from real nice songs, but I'm now mainly only interested in the TV talk shows where there are more interesting things. I mean, we all know that HYDE changes his hair style the way some people change their clothes, but whatever. Now its no longer a must, more like a would-be-good. Yup. Not sure what picture to use already, nothing new nowadays. Wait, I take that back. there are lots of new things, but none that I'm particularly interested in, nor easy for me to post it up here. There's this sense of dread in the atmosphere, and the fact that I'm doing Heart of Darkness for Literature is sort of a sympathetic background. I don't know.A sense of loss? Gloom? I'm not even sure why, but I do know that I'm not happy. Its that simple. I doubt its because I'm not in the Aristal 3 dance, although that certainly has a role to play. It shouldn't be the fact that I'm taking both the SAT as well as the A Levels this year, with lots of research for registration needed for the SAT. I'm not sure if its the knowledge that this will jolly well be the last time I'll be able to be a kid, and sheltered from reality. All? None? What do we know, and what do we think we know? What is important, and what is merely some label, some conceived idea of importance? What is real, and what is a pre-conceived misconception? When people are given the same instructions, different results are achieved, so what does that tell us about the reality that we see? So many questions, some with no answers available, some with answers we will only receive at the very end. Its so amusing that our existence is so short, weak, frail and negligible, yet the things created, things destroyed, things untouched are so minor to us. Who are we?

Maybe I should do KI... Or maybe philosophy...



"I want to be able to create something, to affect something, to change something... I want to be the center of someone's existence..."