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Some People by Kurt Hummel (Chris Coulfer) from Glee

I am superbly annoyed with so many people. If I was to list everyone here, it will look something like a list of people to assasinate. If killing people was not a crime, I'd do it. Make life easier for everyone in the whole wide world. Ok, maybe it is just me who wants to kill three hundred people. Maybe. I'm honest. Who knows, there might be three hundred other people who want to kill the people on my bucket list. Whatever. Annoy me more and I'll be mean. I don't like burning bridges, but I'd do it if I have to.

I like Glee. They sing nice songs and make me happy. They have cute characters. They have decent character development. Of course, I feel that Season 1 is way better than Season 2. But I still like how Tina and Santana and Brittany and Kurt have their romp in the sun? Rachel and Finn is a bit too much. Overkill and getting boring with their silly love pentagon with Quinn. And the transformation of Sue is annoying. Its like trying to de-stereotype someone you set up as a stereotype to explore the complexities of the various relationships. Ridiculous. And bring terri back is just plain dumb. She doesn't do anything to the plot! And I am terribly depressed that I only have one more episode to the end of Season 2. And that I have to wait to August to get Season 3. The good news is Blaine and Sam are now permanent. Cannot wait! Meanwhile I think I will check out Vampire Diaries and Lie to Me. I know none of them are going to be as epic as Glee but I guess I need to get myself exposed to more stuff. If I get bored I will probably rewatch Glee. Totally worth it.

Right now, I am about 10 days away from going to Osaka. Yes, I have just realised it. I have yet to decide on what to bring. I have yet to change money. I have yet to brush up on my Japanese. I have yet to meet up with all my friends in Singapore. I have yet to plan the stuff I want to do in Osaka. I have yet to write my Japanese self-introduction. I am so screwed. Someone punch me out of my Glee craze and make me start mugging Japanese. Else I will go there and get a huge culture shock. And just gesture at anything and everything in the hopes that someone will understand. Or just resort to English or Mandarin. I am so scared. Can you see my despearation? Its seeping through my language. All the short phrases and sentences. I ramble when I am confident in written text.

So many things that are not working out in my life. Grades are not that great. I feel disillusioned by the things I am learning. CCA is kinda starting to suck as people get depressed and are no longer as motivated. In general I feel a bit lonely and it really does not help that my friends are everywhere and busy with their own lives. I guess I'm just down and kinda on my way out. Not that I am proud of this, but if there is one thing I have come to realise, it is that acknowledging the situation makes things easier for myself. Face up to my fears and understand that I am not perfect. Yes my grades are lousy. Yes my path ahead is nearly all thorns and no fluffy clouds. Yes I have no real idea of what I want to do and how I am even supposed to get anywhere. Yes just slap me upside down with my track shoes.

There are so many things that are going wrong, but I want to take this short paragraph to be appreciative of everything that went well. Like how I'm actually going to Osaka. Like how Taiwan was rather enjoyable. Like how trainings are killer tough and my body seems to be bouncing back into shape. Like how my brother seems to be feeling slightly happier recently. Like how the weather is improving in Singapore, from bloddy hot to warm and wet. So many more things could go wrong, so I need to be happy. So what if things are bad? Its okay. I can deal with it. Things have been worse. I'll do my best and hopefully, be able to laugh at everything I went through someday.

"Here we go againn.../ I kinda wanna be more than friends.../ So take it easy on me... /I"m afraid you're never satisfied..."

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Somewhere Only We Know by Warblers

I am absolutely in love with Glee. For someone who usually does not have the patience to watch American television programmes, Glee has been surprisingly addictive. I kinda like virtually every character in Glee? Although I am very partial to Kurt, Blaine (like who wouldn't love Klaine?!), Santana, Brittany (again superbly hilarious together) and Sue. All are amazing actors/performers and I think Glee is probably one of the best things to ever happen to television. I am addicted to the songs and I love the performances. Snarky lines are fantastic as well. Its a really empowering show, and I think it deals with issues of today's world very well. I would recommend everyone to watch the show. Don't just watch the performances! There is some really good story-telling, especially in Season One. Like nothing you have ever seen.

Now that I have got the shameless advert out of the way, I need to declare that I AM BACK IN SINGAPORE! Woohoo! Was in the States, New York, and in Canada, Montreal for about 3 weeks before I went to Taipei. I know I am supposed to tell stories about what happened in New York and Montreal but I must admit I was busy (trying to cram a decent reflective essay in 2 days while constantly distracted by Glee and YGE is NOT a good way to do work), and a wee bit lazy. I should get around to doing it sometime in the next three days. If you don't see anything in 3 days, you can expect that I will never type out the entire long drawn retarded story. I would probably list down all the cool/ interesting things that I managed to do in my limited budget and time, but yeah. I need to be in the mood to type an extensive post. And moods, well you know how moods are. They come and they go.

Bought quite a lot of clothes, and was doing laundry. Strangly enough I felt that the clothes from the USA were cheaper than that of Taipei? I have no idea how it came to be so but it is the truth. Quality is better and the price is comparable, if not cheaper. No wonder Americans love shopping. I could too. Anyway, not to sound like a middle-aged housewife but I kinda like to do laundry? As in when I feel in the laundry mood (yes, that word again), I can clear piles of clothes in one washing. It helps when the sun is out so that my clothes dry faster and I can wash more stuff. I am dead serious when I say this. Its hard to get me to wash new clothes usually, and I am very inclined to just toss everything into the washer when I should be hand-washing but... Yeah. When I start washing, its a huge load. Something like 30 pieces at least. Madness but I think it might be hereditary or contagious so I am not completely to blame. HAHA.

Heading to Osaka in early June. Yes I might have been bitten by the travelling bug. Plane flights are not the most pleasant thing, especially when you are doing long haul flights with crazy people or crying infants near you, but I like to get to places. Customs are another nightmare, and I cannot fanthom how people without visa-free nationalities get anywhere. I already feel that it is a pain, what more those who need another ton of paperwork just to get anywhere. A necessary evil to board a plane at 1am in the morning, but hey, its Singapore Air (always fantastic when compared to other airlines, I assure you) and its virtually all expenses paid so why not? Japan. Kansai. Osaka. I am in total disbelief as I type this. You know me, I can keep calm in the weirdest situations BECAUSE I am in disbelief. As if my brain is capable of separating reality form THAT WHICH NEEDS TO BE DONE. The more hysterical I behave, the less hysterical I feel inside. The less I show, the more I feel inside. It is a really strange paradox and I have no idea why I behave in such a manner. Maybe from some stupid past trauma blah blah blah. I have just come to terms with the fact that I might actually be noisier than Hell itself so I am unprepared for more self-discovery. One thing at a time yo~

I can feel myself derailing as I struggle to finish this post in order to go for lunch. So I think I shall conclude here by reiterating the fact that Klaine is superbly adorable and everyone should go watch Glee. 

Oh. And I need to say one more thing!

I am not a child. I freaking hell virtually arranged trips to Hong Kong, Taipei and helped with a gazillion other travel plans. Furthermore, the attitude that you showed me was horrible. You are making a request of me, and that is NOT the tone to use. Unfortunately for me, money does not descend from the sky. Else I would not be hunting high and low for free ways to go to Japan. And in case you have forgotten, I happen to be a full time student. I need to know my schedule before I can make a decision. AND YOU DO NOT FUCKING SPRING THINGS LIKE THIS AND DEMAND AN ANSWER IN TWO DAYS. TWO DAYS. HELLO. INCONSIDERATE MUCH? Leave me out of the discussion and SUDDENLY I HAVE TO TAKE ACTION NOW? The last time I checked, I don't owe you ANYTHING. You did not tell me anything about your plans. You did not ask me for my opinion. I had no idea what was going on and now you make it sound as if it is my fault that I am not giving you an answer immediately? Hello, I CAN WALK THERE IF I MADE UP MY MIND TO DO SO. Do not use that stupid condescending tone on me. One little thing like this and it tires you out? Don't make things to be larger than they really are. I am not amused. I was nice and polite because you are a friend. For now. You might go into the acquaintance category soon if you keep up with such ridiculous behaviour. I have no patience with fools. My life is already filled with them, and I do not need to add to the collection. I am really disappointed in you. And in case you think this is bad? You should see my original reply. And you should have seen the reply SHE wanted to give you. We're not impressed honey, we're really not.

"I walked across an empty land,/ I knew the pathway like the back of my hand..."