Thin Line

I just realised that I'm in REALLY deep waters. I went online, typed in Princess Princess D into the search engine, and WHAM! There seems to be LOADS of fans of KenKen online. It seemed as if I'd fallen into this whole new world dominated by KenKen, and Takumi. Honest. I guess its the in thing now, but I'm the kind who's dedicated to great singers. So from Okiayu, I chanced upon JunJun, which led to Kazu-chan, to KenKen... and now PPd. So forgive me if I'd never heard of this anime beforehand. I mean, if Okiayu or JunJun voiced one of the guys, and I happen to realise he sounds good, I would have pursued the anime with the fervour of a devout fangirl. Since they don't, and I'm only interested in PPd due to KenKen... Too bad. *shrugs*

I don't know if I want to watch Kazu-chan's Live GIG 2006. I mean, whats after Live GIG? Nothing. Well, except Girl From Hell Live-Action, where Kazu-chan only appears for a brief one or two minutes. Its as if the screen would start flickering and fade if he were to be present on screen for any longer period of time. Which is so not true. I could easily do with a larger dosage of Kazu-chan.

Ok. I shall now plunge head first into the Kazu-chan world of Live GIG 2006. The worst case scenario is that I'll start watching Kamen Rider to see Kazu-chan. Oh yeah. There's still Dreamlive 4! Thank goodness for Hyotei! Anyone knows where to find Koori no Emperor the song?

Koori no Emperor...

Fangirl Alert

KYAAAH! I was just watching Dream Live 3RD... And Kazu-chan is TOTALLY HOT! I mean, he was wearing this grey shirt, a white jacket, and... and... BLACK SKINTIGHT LEATHER PANTS! OMG! As he was singing, strutting, posing... someone kill me! He kept posing with his back to the audience and showing only his side profile... DAMN HOT! He also danced with his hands in his pockets, flipping his hair towars the crowd, spinning, his jacket whipping around him... The crowd totally screamed whenever he pointed at them, or even gestured towards them. AND That Scene! Kazu-chan was like within an inch of Tezzie, they were like... practically KISSING! Scandalous! So close! Kazu-chan and Tezzie are such teasers! Oh! Aiba Hiroki (Fuji) and Aoyagi Ruito (Mukahi) can dance! As in they can't really sing, but they can absolutely dance! I prefer Kimeru as Fuji as Kimeru can sing better and looks cuter, but Aiba can really dance! I guess some of them are dancers by profession. I sort of think that the actor who does Echizen Nanjiroh and some of the three 'stooges' have ballet background. The twists, turns, cartwheels, handstands, flying kicks... I mean, there is bound to be some training involved!



Oh yeah. I watched the backstage videos. Their dressing room is kinda small. So poor thing. Small dressing rooms suck as its very cluttered and there's no way you can find your stuff. And OMG. The amount of make-up the guys put on! As in, I thought NDP was bad enough, but... OMG. Kazu-chan and the others were WHITE! As in their foundation is thick and white and EEK! Poor Kazu-chan! Lots of make-up make me feel as if my skin can't breathe, and I find smiling a chore. But... sighx. Professionals are professionals. Oh. Backstage is damn cool. Although I usually don't understand a word that they are saying. Its sort of like throwing about 20 kid-like adults into one area. Imagine all the chaos, though it would be lots of fun. I guess you get pretty close after a while, stuck on the same movie set, same musical dressing room, same trainings. Loads of jokes... sighx. I really need to pick up Japanese. Loads of yummy stuff on YouTube. Loads of MV. Sighx. How can it be so funny...

Katsu no wa Hyotei, Makeru no Seigaku!

Half

Aristal (the dance concert my school has), had just ended. And immediately after I fell ill for 2 whole days. My mother claims that its due to late night bathing and the little sleep I had, and I can't help but agree that the primary reason is from exhaustion. Its strange, during the training you really want to go home and complete your assignments, yet when you have the time, all you want to do is anything but study. Irony and situational paradox. I have no idea what dancers do after both the SYF and concerts. I mean in tennis you have to keep training amd PT as you HAVE to keep in shape, besides the tournament is in July/August, so after the competition, you only train for another month or so beforethe EYE hit you and you study... Forget it, I guess I'll just mug this June holidays away.

I was talking to Hualin and Tianruo the other day, and chanced upon part of the reason why I'm flunking. I'm not mugging hard enough. My seniors and peers would most probably stare at me in wonderment as I totally look and behave like a mugger, but the truth is, those in Meridian, Victoria and Hwa Chong ALL mug WAY more than I. And the group of friends I have are not the exceptionally mugger type. Honest. Compared to them, I'm slacking my butt off. I seriously think that passing my Common Test when school reopens is going to be difficult. My Math sucks, and has been terrible since Secondary 2, I have no background in Physical Geography to rely on to help me ace my Common Test, I have absolutely no idea what are the literary terms required as my secondary school did not cover it, I write WAAYYY too slowly to EVER complete my Econs essay... the list goes on. I think I'm doomed. Oh yeah. Just received my General Paper essay from my teacher. 25 upon 50. Wow. I passed. Pop the champagne. Whatever.



Kazu-chan's photo. He can sing. He can dance. He looks good. I think drooling is the only reaction I have to him. Sighx. Life is sooo unfair. Ok. I admit his voice is only about half of JunJun's ability, but he is easily 10 times hotter. I mean, I'd rather listen to JunJun anytime, anyday over Kazu-chan (SORRY!), but I would prefer to watch Kazu-chan's MV anytime and anyday over JunJun, thats provided he actually has an MV in the first place. As in the only song of JunJun I would WILLINGLY skip is Wild Soul. This is out of the some 50 songs I have. In Kazu-chan's case, I confess that I only listen to 4 or 5 out of his Face album. I'm a really picky listener, and I get bored really quickly with one type of voice, so Kazu-chan is actually above-average, but nowhere near JunJun in voice quality. I mean, who is? JunJun can do this amazing range of voices, from the sexy baritone he's famous for as a seiyuu, to the melodious, angelic... Ahh. Omg. He is damn good. I won't get tired of his voice, like ever. and there seems to be a song for every mood, emotion, time period, situation... Ahh. I can't think too well in the presence of his voice. If I mixed Kazu-chan's face with JunJun's voice... if such a person existed, I'll most probably pursue them to the bowels of the earth. Serious. I think God is fair. And unfair. For not creating such a person. Oops. Just realised that there is such a person. KEIGO ATOBE! KYAAAH!

Uh-oh. My concious is pricking me. What happened to Okiayuu?! Dear me. It seems like he has been banished to Lala-land. My bad. *grins*. Kaen's half-brother seems to have mysteriously diappeared from my blog. Not that he has disappeared from my mind. Oh no. He is very much alive in my imagination alright. *bwahaha*. Fanfict Time!

Forcing

My school enjoys driving its students nuts. From frustration, no less. Its as if they just can't make anything purely fun, with no strings attached. But NO. They have to add a hundred and one different quirky terms to ruin a perfectly good thing. I mean Enrichment Week should be an enjoyable kind of thing, but there are so many terms, and its a random selection system, and the time table for the activities suck. Argh. Like I said, ruining a perfectly good thing. There is also the case of half-days. The school board gives these to us as a reward for good CCA and any other accolades that the school receives. The concept is great, but we ALWAYS have CCA or make-up lessons whenever there is a half-day. This is on top of the fact that the half-day officially starts only at 12.30pm. Crappy. I know of more then 20 people who have classes which end way earlier than 12.30pm, who laugh and say that the execution is stupid. I can't help but agree. Why not end at break instaed of lunch? Must you squeeze out every single minute possible, gingerly stepping on the line between a break and a normal day? If you don't want your students to go to town, not that we do and can go out often, resulting in a school of boring muggers, you could always start school later, as in 10am? Let us poor, growing children sleep more after working until 12am on some stupid project which the teachers don't even bother collecting. We need the rest, in case you forgot that we are youths and TIRED.

Sigh. Kazu is killing me with his amazing voice. I wonder how does who go to school everyday without hearing his voice function. Never mind. Ignore the rest of the human population. Most of them aren't even worthy of the thought I sometime waste on them. The fools who can't accept those who don't agree with them that the sea can ONLY be blue. poor souls who had never seen it green, infants who had never felt the power when it sings black. An oceanic metaphor. Thinking of Kazu and KenKen on the beach...

Kazu-chan...

I'm supposed to be doing my VA of Physical Geography, and I stumbled across a completely drool worthy video of Kazu-chan. Its here, so go see it and tell me what you think. I was grinning and laughing for ages. I mean, its something for everyone who likes Kazu-chan or even KenKen. Serious. Although I think anyone with aesthetic sense would most probably be speechless after watching. I felt that God is really cruel. Men aren't supposed to look THIS good. I mean, isn't it against the law or something... Imagine never being able to come within speaking distance of Ken Ken and Kazu-chan...

Excuse me, I think I'll go hide in a corner and cry for a bit. *sniff* KAZU_CHAN...

Breaking Point

I just saw my dance schedule for May. For a brief moment I thought I was daydreaming, before it really hit me. My dance schedule is so packed, it makes sleeping seems like a luxury item. I would be having dance everyday in the last week of May, from Monday all the way to Sunday. This is on top of all the Varied Assessments I have. It means I'm suppose to make the 24 hours magically turn into some 48 hours. Sorry, I'm not the girl from Harry Potter who creates divisions of herself to rush to classes. I don't even have that device which she uses.

Sighx. I'm so busy I have yet to watch more episodes of Prince Of Tennis OVA, have yet to watch the Live Action and the Musical, yet to hunt for more of my darling Atobe, JunJun and Kazu-chan... sighx. What am I doing? My time is all going down the drain, and all I seem to be accomplishing is wearing myself out, dancing until aching muscle are the norm, and struggling with my work. I often wonder, in 20 years time, would all these which I had invested my time and effort into pay off? Would I have just wasted my time, diverging resources to areas I could have ignored while ignoring those I should have paid more attention to? Its scary when I reflect, because there is the fear of the unknown, the regret that comes with a near miss, the pain of knowing you made a wrong decision, the heartbreak when you can't do what you wish... All these are factors which assail me at night when I lie in bed, their relentless assault making me sometimes resort to medicated sleep. I know, I know, I shouldn't be doing this to myself, but fear and guilt are two of the best motivators, are the things which would drive you to break your own boundaries, which changes your principales...

I'm exhausted. Really want to lie down for a day or two. I can cope, but it requires massive amounts of sacrifice. I'll take the loan, and pay freaky interest rates later. I'll pay in eyebags and headaches and crappy mornings for the things I forgoed when I chose this path, and the opportunity cost is considerable. And I'll still do it anyway, because I can't tolerate the look of betrayal, of disappointment, the dashed hopes, the lost expectations. I'll do it, because as Kyoya Ootari would have found out, some things you do so that it gives you a momentary sense of satisfaction, for the elusive sense of gratification and purpose and achievement, no matter what you suffer when you go home, no matter the pain you bear in silence as you fork out your debt... For some people, the payment is their happiness, for others, I'll come aknocking for the $8.10 which you still owe me and I think the 3% interest along with it...