This is more like an update for my glaring absence and the previously contracted posts. I've been pretty involved in school, on the forum , and at home (duh) recently, so there hasn't been much time to really blog. I do have lots of things to say, but I want to be able to type it all out properly, construct sentences... You get what I mean? I don't really see the point in dumping words onto a website without construction. No thought process = don't blog. We can't all be totally reactionary all the time. Blogging requires reflection, well, for me at least. If I was to just to just chuck whatever occurred to me onto my blog, there's a high possibility of getting into serious trouble. Thoes who know me well will understand. I happen to be tempermental, cynical, blunt, sarcastic and sharp - these being some of the main features which people who get into trouble possess. Fortunately, I happen to have common sense, and its something I treasure.
Enough of all the pretentious self-explaining. Going off tangent. Here, I want to politely DEMAND for Dir En Grey's Raison d'Etre. As well as ALL of Oshitari's songs. Please do remember to include the 3 songs you found the other day. You could include any other yummy songs, and the drama cd of Vampire Knight. Hmm. Well, that is about it. My mood has now soured. Was pretty happy just now, but yup. Mood swing I guess. As normal as anything when you're acting everyday. There's bound to be a certain period of time where you lose it. Haha. So not funny. I detest being interrupted when I blog, especially by reasons which are excuses in disguise. I need to be able to express myself periodically. It used to be ok as I had GP ( now is soo not possible). Argh! Can't stand pests!
"People are resources. They are limited. Finite. And very very disposable."
I have done something... impulsively. A black gothic lolita dress sits in my cupboard. I bought it from Alice88. Cheated by her, I forked out an excess of about 20 dollars. I have no idea why I did what I did. Honest. Maybe it was the shop, the atmosphere, mood, whatever. The fact remains that I practically threw money away. This, coupled with the fact that I fell ill ( unnecessary late nights ) is making my plan to save and diet seem like I NEED to do so, instead of WANTING to do so. Terrible. I'll need shoes and accessories to go with the dress, so I desperately need to sell the white lolita dress that I bought with Sophia. It would give me a bit more money to manuevre about. Anyhow, whats done is done, so all I can do is try to maximise it all. Oh yeah. Just realised, I have nothing to wear on the first day, unless I wear the same costume... Which is kind of tacky...Okay. So I bought a pair of boots from Atsuki. Yeah. More wastage. Its to go with the dress. So now... I need to get gloves, haedpiece... among others. Yup. More wastage. I don't know what I'm doing. Lets see, wasting money, trying unsuccessfully to lose weight. Haha. Right. My life is in chaos. Again. As usual due to whimsical reasons. Im totally screwed. Should start praying. Sighx.
" Time is inconsequential when your life doesn't matter."
