Eat

Music Request

Niji by Aqua Timez


I'll never be able to go on a conventional diet. You know, where you cut down on your food intake, or you eat less meat and carbohydrates? Yup. It'll never work for me. I simply love the food available in my home way too much. Its justified. My mom just prepared charsiew and pork ribs. baked to oven perfection, it was sweet, succulent, tender, super juicy... Great. I did have some spinach and peas to go along with it, but... Yummy! After that was ice cream. Equally sinful. Argh. Tiramisu flavoured. Absolutely sinful. I mean, my home doesn't have all the various snacks and drinks that kaen's house those, but boy, do we have nice meals. Imagine what I would miss out if I went on a diet! No way! My mom did go for a whole bunch of cooking and baking lessons, and she's pretty good at experimenting with food. Thats why I think I'll never be able to be lazy if I'm trying to lose weight... no idea if it is a good thing or a bad thing. Sigh.


Now, why do I need to lose weight? Simple. I've signed for too many characters that require a body-type that I currently do not possess. An excellent example is this:





See? I so totally have my work cut out for me! This is Kan'u or Guanyu from Koihime Musou. Yup. The female version of Guanyu from Three Kingdoms. her hair is so long. Wonder if mine can grow to this length... Cause you can't tie a wig, unless its specially ordered and customised for her. That will cost a bomb, which I'm not willing to spend as I have to make her saber and costume as well... You totally have to hand it to the Japanese people for thinking of such things. They combined all the big shots from Chinese Literature and History, to make a game and anime, with practically a 100 percent gender reversal. So you have people like Cao Cao, Lu Bu, Gongsun Zan, Zhuge kongming... Yup. mixed and match. oh yeah. Diao Chan is totally worth a laugh. Go to the official website for details. Just read the Traditional Chinese words and navigate. They grabbed practically all the seiyuus that they could find for the enoermous cast they have, with one little difference. None of the seiyuus are the really big names. Amusing.


Ah. It feels so good not to have to go to school tomorrow. I am absolutely in the lets-have-fun-and-play kind of mood. Not a good thing considering the fact that my exam is barely a couple of months away. I guess I can blame the school for the current state I am in. Still, I have tried to motivate myself by arranging study seesions with friends. Anything as long as i am not left to my own devices at home. Otherwise I'll end up using the computer excessively. Honest. I need to be self-aware and face up to my weaknesses. Yup.

Kaen, this is all your fault!





" Kids should remain as kids; adults should just buzz off."

Plans

Music Request

Tokyo Diamond by Kato Kazuki

Saw the list on Kaen's blog and me, being the competitively organised person that I am, decided to make one of my own too. As everyone knows that I'm a lazy bum when it comes to stuff that doesn't impact me in the long term eg. technology-related stuff, I'm just going to type everything down. Like this:

Photoshoot December 2008 ~ JunJou Romantica - Nowaki

Cosplay - All Minor Events ~ Ludwig Kakumei - Dorothea

Cosplay - Cosfest 2009 ~ D. Gray-man - Jasdebi

Cosplay - EOY 2009 ~ Rekka no Honoo - Aoi

... Koihime Musou?

I never thought I would say this, but I can almost understand why some, if not most, guys like moe. I came across this photo shoot feeler for Koihime Musou in SGcafe, and the characters just totally blew me away. It is so uber cute! So what if the characters were created with horny and perverted males in mind? So what if the weapons will most likely take near forever to make? The costume design is simply AMAZING and the characters look so cool, I think I'll do it regardless of how fetish-ish it appears to be. No sorry, how fetish-ish it is. Serious. I'll lose the next 2 kilograms and I'll work out and act cute for the camera. Koihime is absolutely gorgeous. Completely sold on the characters already. Haha. Lost cause.

Outing with the D.Gray team on Monday. Needed to wash my cupcake dress, but I didn't know how exactly to programme to new, stupid, technologically-way-too-advanced washing machine, so I asked my Mom for help. Let the cat out of the bag, but I don't really regret it. At least now that its in the open, I can stop destroying my brain cells by thinking of ways not to get caught. Able to spend more time and effort on the entire thing in itself. Oh. I have three now, three of my black darlings. Silver, cupcake and smelly. Yes, smelly, cause it came stinking of the clothing factory. Yuck. Quite a wardrobe that I'm building up. Three dresses, a black pannier, a pair of punk boots, a pair of lolita shoes, three types of stockings, a pair of black gloves, a few pitiful acessories... I'm now interested in this.

Should I get it? Its a waloli, which I don't have. I'm unsure if I'll look good in this though. The price is reasonable, $75, inclusive of shipping. Yup, shall I buy this? Polling you guys. Would like your opinion. Note that it doesn't come with the pink petticoat (innermost pink underskirt thats peeking out form under the dress for all the ignorant). Sighx. What shall I do?

From the list, it seems I'll need to work my socks off during the holidays. I need to tailor the costumes, which means I need around a hundred dollars per costume. Haha. I think the Koihime photoshoot will need even more as there are weapons as well. Nowaki and Aoi will be the more economical costumes; Nowaki as I'm borrowing the pants and maybe, the wig while I have the shirt, and Aoi as I can make the lower skirt and beret on my own while borrowing boots from my brother. Still its not really very cheap. I think Jasdebi will cost around hundred and fifty, minimum, while Koihime is likely to go into two hundred. And these two are merely for costume! Expensive hobby that I have... This is on top of my penchance for buying Japanese music and Lolita fashion! Anyone wants to donate to Yukino???

"Money doesn't grow on trees, so thats why I need a sugar daddy!"

Teacher

Music Request:

Gekidou by Uverworld


There is cause for celebration. My preliminary examinations are over! Haha. Nope I didn't go home straight like I hinted I would. Instead, I went to Hub to collect my socks from Kaen, that was previously lost in the black hole of her home and now found. I call in willpower. I wanted to get my woolen socks so badly that it re-appeared in her home out of its own free will. Haha. Nonsensical, but who cares?


Today was both Math Paper 2 as well as Literature Paper 3. Bad. I sort of just gave away even more marks during the Math paper while in Literature? Haha. I was too busy reading the text. Yup. There was just this sudden desire to read Heart of Darkness again, and I, being the stupid idiot that I so obviously am, READ IT. A bit. Still, I'm an idiot cause I did it. Sighx. The good news is that my writing speed has increased without compromising on the legibility, so now, I can, without TOO much of a strain, complete 2 sides of the foolscap paper. Yippee! I consider this important, as those who know me can testify, I write slower than a snail can crawl. Honest.


Tomorrow is Teacher's Day. It started as something of an obligation, but I actually just realised that I have HONESTLY GOOD things to say to my teachers. All of them. Including Head Monster. Say what you will, but she really did teach me things. Not necessarily academic stuff, which I did pick up, but also life skills. Values. That sort of thing. So, yeah, I started out hating her guts, but although I wouldn't sign up to join her fan club, if she has one, anytime soon, I respect her as a teacher. Which is more then can be said for many of my previous, and even some current teachers. Talking about Teacher's Day, I'm not going back tomorrow to neither Cedar nor SMPS. Instead, I'm heading out with Kaen and WinterS. Its the tailor and Alice88th. Yup. The only regret is that I will not be able to see Miss Joyce Tan, but other then that... Nope. Cedar and SMPS has changed too much for me to feel a real sense of attachment to the school anymore. Its a sad fact of life.



Tired. the adrenaline of ending my examinations has drained away. Shall recharge now.




"Goodnight world. Tomorrow, will you still remain the same?"

Why

Music Request:

Endless Story by Yuna Ito

Koizora by Yui Aragaki


Everyone dies. Everything ends. Its only a matter of whether its sooner or later. So why do I hold onto the trivialities of this life? Why do I force myself to confront that which only serves to bring me pain? It would be so much easier, so much better to just live and let live. Why do I pick at old wounds? Why do I try to analyse myself? It will all end all too soon anyway. In terms of this time, the eternity, what is the short 85 years of my life? This is even assuming that I'm not prevented by others from dying at age 40.


What is love? What is it to cause all of us such pain? Even lab rats learn to avoid the electric shock. Yet for human beings, who are suppose to be more intelligent, how many times to we try the same path? How many times must we get hurt, cry, console ourselves and binge on chocolate before we learn that its meaningless? Why do we plunge head first in, and leave others to clean up after us when we emerge and emotional wreck? Why do we torture ourselves in this way? Due to our bio-illogical clock? Addicted to pain, addicted to the momentary happiness, one would think we are a species of masochistic drug addicts...


I have never been to the edge; I have never truly loved anyone, nor have I truly hated anyone. I have never devoted my all to anything. Nothing. Not anime, not cosplay, not Lolita, not my studies. The only thing that ever came remotely close to devotion was dance. Still, it was far from true passion. No one has ever made me want to love them forever, nor hate them forever. It all fades into nothingness after a while. It doesn't matter at all in the larger scheme of things. Am I emotionally handicapped? Unable to love? Not even knowing how to hate? I say the words, but its all empty inside. Like it happened to someone else far too long ago to matter to me anymore. Did it come true after all? Of the winter snow...

Kaen, you should go read this. Quite true, but remember, we are in between. So nothing really applies completely. Why am I like this? I think I'm schizophrenic. My personality just changes everytime. So I am whiny, serious, blunt, shary, lack initiative and is too proactive. I'm loud, rough, a bitch and like to dress up. So who am I? Did part of you become part of me? I never intended it to become this way. It was all for that moment of fun.


Sorry.







" Questions? Some should have never been asked."

Smile

Music Request:
Mirrorcle World (Its not a spelling error on my part!) by Ayumi
Gardenia by Malice Mizer

Kohei Uchimura.
(click for his interview... in Japanese.)

I know, I know. It goes completely against the general trend, but still... I can't help it! I mean... There's talent, a generally amiable personality, and it seriously doesn't hurt that he's totally ADORABLE. His smile is that of a little boy! Haha. Irresistible. For those who have absolutely no idea who I'm talking about, it just goes to show that you've been living under a remote rock for the past week or so. Ok. Maybe not. For the past day? Haha. Uchimura-san is of the Japanese team to the 2008 Beijing Olympics. Specifically of the Men's Artistic Gymnastics team. Individual 2nd!

Okie. I know I'm super biased. First and foremost, I really like Gymnastics. That alone is sufficient for me to stay up until 2AM in the morining, secretly watching TV. In Gymnastics, my favourite is Artistic, for the sheer power and grace. All these, coupled with my personality should cause my current preference to be relatively expected. Uchimura-san rocks!

Lets evaluate this more rationally. Or not. Oh forget it. I'll just list down WHY I like him:

1) His smile is SOOO cute! (This shows how superficial I am.)
2) He kept at the apparatus even though his wrist was badly injured. (Duh, this is to be expected. ALL of them continued despite injuries!)
3) He's only 19! ( Reinforces concept of my shallow nature.)
4) He was placed 2nd! ( Wait. I liked him BEFORE I found out about the result...)
5) He is NOT that cocky Yang Wei! ( UH. Right.)

I have no idea why I like Uchimura-san. Although for point 5), its not that I don't like the Chinese team (hey, I like the Chinese girls! Talented and dedicated. Although tops will always be Catalina Ponor from Romania...), rather, I don't like Yang Wei. Indeed, he's good and completely entitled to brag. Still, the fact that he does deducts brownie points.

Wait. Some of you, not you Kaen, may realise that I sound like I'm contradicting myself. I'm not. Atobe is in a totally different league. He isn't cocky, ok, maybe he is, but his charisma makes it all a-ok. Haha. I'm just so biased that I think I'm insufferable. Haha. I guess, we all have our exceptions. Arrogance isn't an attractive quality in anyone, save those cool bad guys eg. Sephiroth (He has a choir singing his name! Imagine!), and really random and unique individuals, like Atobe-sama. Haha. I rest my case. I'm a gone case. See? Repetition. A sure sign of madness...



"Do not do unto other what you want others to do unto you; others may have different tastes."

Think

Music Request:
Love Addict by VAMPS
Drink It Down by Larc~en~Ciel
Instinctive Love by Kato Kazuki

Haha. Apparently, people do read my blog, and respond! Love ya! You know full well who you are! :) There's this really warm and fuzzy feeling that I get when I open my Gmail Inbox and see mail from Blogger, telling me that someone commented. I feel even happier when I see an email with an ATTACHMENT sent to me from my friends! Yippe!

Yeah. Some will conclude from this that I am easily satisfied, easily contented. Yet, is this even accurate? I know arrive at the main content of today's post, courtesy of my current state of Literature poisoning.

What is the truth? We see things from our perspectives; there is no other way. Hence, through our individual experiences, which cannot be replicated, based upon the expectations, treatment and influence of others on us, we are aware of what is our truth. Nothing else. Yet, is truth really all that we can see? Obviously there is more. Hence, we go around collecting the truth as perceive by others, in order to arrive at what we may consider the true face of Truth. These different pictures of the same thing by different people... How do we know it is accurate? We cannot. We assume they do not lie. Nevertheless, there are often conflicting viewpoints - some things simply does not add up nicely. What then do we do? The normal reaction is to reject the information that does not seem to tally with the majority of our data. It is this which I wish to question. Does an anomaly equate to an untruth? What if it was another side of the Truth, like the other face of the Moon? Just because we are unable to see the other face of the Moon does not mean that the Moon has only one side. In this way, our physical self thus limits the mind. We are unable to think out of the figurative box as we are inside the box. Never able to look outside, how will you be able to surpass the boundaries? Those who continuously advocate creativity in a vacuum are trying to create life from nothingness. Unless you are God, which they are not, it is impossible. We are defined by our physical selves, perceive through our physical selves and thus, are, more or less, our physical selves. Our human experiences, which are beyond our self, which is in turn, beyond thought, that extends past language, is not something that can be grasped by our mortal definitions. Some things are just not meant to be caught and trapped, to be restricted by our narrow understanding...

Heavy stuff? Haha. In a way, it sounds as if I'm trying to be deliberately profound. Oh well. I'm just trying to voice out my thoughts from this afternoon's lesson. Everything is in a mess, discussions are meant to mess things up, and putting it all down in words, regardless of its inadequacy, is still better then nothing. I hope you understand...

Oh. Translating a Japanese music interview is tough. Too much katakana, although the kanji helps. I really need to go learn Japanese. At the same time, to brush up my hiragana... Seriously atrocious. Takes me near an hour to translate simple sentences. Tiring as the font is teeny tiny too. Still, the picture of HYDE makes it all worthwhile... :)





"A sadist is a masochist who follows the golden rule of 'Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.'."

Chase

Music Request:
Do Me More by Namie Amuro
Illuminati by Malice Mizer

Okay. I know I owe you this much - an update. Here goes:

1) 9 days to my GCE 'A' Level prelimnary examinations, and I am completely unprepared. Intend to spend the whole of tomorrow studying economics in the library. Anyone and everyone is free to join me. Most probably in Toa Payoh. Sms me if you wanna study too, I might change my mind at the eleventh hour, as I am prone to do.

2) Listening to the songs by Gackt that Duck uploaded for me. Love Diablos. So nice...

3) Went out with Duck, her Benj and Kaen on Friday. Had lunch at my regular joint in Lucky Plaza, before we went to Kinokuniya. Realised that her Benj cant read Chinese to save his life. Sad. No, more like disappointed. Though I suppose on the account that he's Peranakan, I can cut him some slack. Went bersek at Kinokiniya. They were having a sale, so I signed up for a three-year membership, bought the US edition of GLB, What's In, the Japanese music magazine, and Cosmode. Should have made use of the additional discount and gotten Cat Street and Venus Cappricino as well. Oh well. Spent a lot yeah? And that's not all...

4) On Friday, I too went shopping for Clare's birthaday present. Bought her a bracelet and earrings. Sharing with Viv, HF and most probably, Angie, I hope. HF is a great friend, seriously. I hope she gets what she really deserves in life. I mean, it'll be really unfortunate otherwise. Haha. I don't think she realises it yet, but she's something special :)

5) Oh. This is something pretty big. I signed up to do Nowaki from JunJou Romantica in a photoshoot in December this year. With Kaen as Hiroki. Amazing yeah? I'm starting to mentally prepare myself for all the likely poses. Still, its not too bad. I can think of worst things. Way worse... like 'A' Levels... Wait. For all you people who are still nice and innocent and uninitiated, ITS YAOI. You don't know what it means? Go Google it, and prepare for an amazing aesthetic feast. No Kaen, don't say I'm evil...

5) Kaen is going to Japan, namely Tokyo and Kyoto at the end of the year. I want to go Japan too, I mean, Sherracoon and XW are going for TeniMyu stuff, with Soph most probably heading there early next year. Thats practically my friends in this circle. Sad. If I could go, I'll spend 3 days in Harajuku. After all, there's so much to shop and see. Although I'll most probably need near a thousand dollars to fulfill my thirst for the stuff. More money will be needed if I want to head to a host club to look-see... Ok. Anyone willing to sponsor me? I promise I'll be really nice to you for the rest of my life/ your life, depending on who dies first. Haha.

6) I wonder how Hyde smokes and sings at the same time. So obvious that I diasgree with smoking yeah? Not my life. Shall not interfere with choices of people I'll never meet in my life *shrugs*. See the PV of his latest song LOVE ADDICT in his band VAMPS with KAZ. Nice and violent, with a cool twist at the back. Funny too, but in a black, situational hunour kind of way. I like Hyde's voice, and I think he's a seriously interesting guy, but I'm not sure about the direction he is heading. Yeah he looks cool, and absolutely unlike a typical middle-aged guy. Still... I think he was more impressive in Laruku. He's still short though. Haha. His height won't change regardless of where he stands. So what if he's at the front? It wouldn't work. Stop kidding yourself Hyde-sama. The only reason why he gets away with it is cause he's so adorable... An adorable 39 year old man. I'm screwed.

7) I'm itching to dance. I have no idea why, considering my apparent lack of regard for dance when I was in the CCA. Maybe it was because of the system and the atmosphere. I have no grudge against dancing itself, in fact, it seems that I like it a lot. Miss it. Was watching Namie Amuro's PV Do Me More. I actually got of my seat to copy her routine. This only goes to show how much I need to dance. I suppose I'll sign up for dance lessons again after 'A' Levels.

8) Bought Hyde's 666. Companion album to Roentgen. I like. Nice guitar... Favourite is Words of Love, Sweet Vanilla... Like most of the album :)

9) Happy birthday! This goes out to Kor, Lavi, Dhilshad, Kailing, Shiying and all the people I don't know born on this day :)



"I'm not a diary! I'm a person! No one cooks chicken with beancurd juice! Madness!"