Saturday, 29 August 2009

Tagged

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Two Hurt By Deluhi

RULES:
1. Post the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal.
4. Go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5. NO TAG BACKS

1) I like to talk to inanimate objects. Among them are, in no particular order, :

a. My Bento (I really like talking to computers. I like scolding them too.)
b) My darling (Yes, I snuggle and talk to it. So bite me.)
c) My Chocolate (Especially when the earpiece cable refuses to be detected.)
d) My clothes. (Yes. I do.)
If I say anymore you'll start laughing, so I shan't continue.

2) I like dark chocolate. I really really really like dark chocolate. 'Nuff said.

3) I'm very particular about my choice of words. Stop automatically elevating your status to 'friend' when you're only an 'acquaintance'.

4) The longest I've ever waited for someone is 4 hours. Wanna know who has that dubious honour?

5) My favourite subject is English Literature.

6) Which is why I have no idea why I'm studying Business.

7)I need to be fed to be kept happy. I particularly like Famous Amos and Japanese food as bribes.

8) I think this is a waste of time, but I did it any way.

Tagged:

Anyone and everyone who reads this?

Friday, 28 August 2009

幸せの為に

プァーイリスト

リヴィングデッド Deluhi 製

よかった!

あの人は全然知らない。

知ったら、私たちの友情。。。私の世界。。。意味がない。

あの時の幸せ感じ、私は忘れたない。

私たち幸せの為に、私は絶対に言いない。。。


有難う。

全部破壊くても。。。

私は幸せですよ!

寂しいの時、

落ち込んだの時、

怒っているの時。。。

あなたは常に私の重要力。

有難う。


“醒めぬ眠りに落ちても。。。怯えることはないから。。。思い出せない”

Monday, 24 August 2009

Claws

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Ajisai by SID

I bet she took me for a fool. Sauntering up to me and pretending to be all nice and familiar. As if we were long lost best friends. DAMN YOU BITCH. You're an affront to my senses. I wouldn't even bother trying to regurgitate what I ate. I mean, its only going to hurt my body. Sorry darling, but you are so totally not worth it. Not like you can tell though. I'm always smiling and polite. I'd never ever tell you that you're that scheming fat bitch who ruined a good two years of my life. I mean, whats the point? You'd most probably win people to your side with your wealth and looks. And I'm not bothered enough to try and convince the whole world that you're bloody shit. Heck, no way am I going to compete when I'm all set out to lose to you! I'm not stupid. I'll bide my time. You don't have to physically torture people. You don't have to plant a stupid flag in the middle of the room and draw a line demarcing territories. We aren't animals sugah. We'll claw each other where no one can see the wounds and continue with our stage faces. Yeah. I'm a bitch too. All thanks to you, I'm slightly vindictive, cynical, skeptical and oh-so-very mean. In short, I'm a bitch too. Oh no, not a full time Mean Girls type. Rather, I'm the type who's a closet bitch. You know, the type that does you little favours and throws you headfirst into the well with a rock attached when its high tide? Yeah. I'm that type that you cant really tell if its friend or foe. Isnt that wonderful? Life just got so much more exciting. I promise to stab you in the back when you're not looking. I'll even dispose of you while you're down and out. Yeah. I learnt this from you. Aren't you glad? You're the reason why I'm like this. Be honoured.

Oh. Shall I stop here? I shan't let the whole wide world see what an awful person I am. Then again... I'm what you make of me no?

"If you want loyalty, get a dog."

Thursday, 13 August 2009

Hyotei MeMe

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Drive Me Wild by Kato Kazuki

This is the amazing meme that I stumbled upon. Hyotel love banzai! 100 questions! Took me near an hour, but BOY, was it worth every single minute I spent typing. I love Atobe-sama. Its a fact. HAHA. So here goes... Meet the hot boys of Hyotei Gakuen!

01- Atobe- "Aa~n? Say your name before me, at least." Yukino! *faints*

02- Oshitari- "Oh~ That's your name? Nice meeting you." Nice to meet you toooo~! *OMG!*

03- Akutagawa-"Oshi~ you look really perverted. You should be careful of him!" Ah~ Its ok! *Oshitari can be as perverted as he wants... JIROUUUUU~*

04- Mukahi- "100 questions seems tough for you..." Its ok, I've done more. *Wanna glomp Gakutoooo~*

05- Ootori- "We are happy to meet you. It may seem strange, but good luck." AWWW~ Thank you!

06- Kabaji- "Usu." Hello to you too :)

07- Hiyoshi- "...well, let us start the questions. Are you ready?" Sure!

08- Shishido- "Ready or not, we'll just start." No problems! *So eager nyah~*

09- Atobe- "Geez. And, say what your birthday is. I can think of a present for you maybe." November 24th!

10- Ootori- "Then do you know my birthday?" Valentine's Day. Lovely nyah~

11- Shishido- "Then what is your zodiac symbol? Oh, it's not like I have any interest or anything, ok?!" Saggitaurus. *Not your type no? BWAHAHAHA*

12- Oshitari- "Hey, how old are you going to be? If you don't want to say it out loud, you can tell me privately." 19! *I cant believe I'm older then them~*

13- Hiyoshi- "What's your blood type?" B+

14- Atobe- "There are some people out there who says my perfect hair style was ripped off Kikumaru but, you don't think so, right?" NO WAY! Atobe-sama is the MOST AWESOME!

15- Kabaji- "Do you like tall people?" You...You're TALKING???? Err. Yes.

16- Mukahi- "So, is your name real? If it has any meaning behind it, can you tell me?" It means... Err. Its a really really long story... You sure you have the patience to listen?

17- Akutagawa- "Oh~ Well, real name or fake name it doesn't change who you are~" *hugs*

18- Atobe- "Of course, I highly doubt you won't choose anyone besides me for this response, but who do you like in Hyotei?" ATOBE-SAMA OF COURSE! I kinda like Oshitari too... But Atobe-sama is Number One!

19- Ootori- "Do you have a website?" Yes!

20- Shishido- "Then, if it won't be a bother, will you put our questions on your site? Then you know...we seem more loved..." *blush*SURE! I will definitely share the Hyotei Love!

21- Oshitari-"What's wrong, Shishido? You're blushing. By the way, do you have costumes you would like for us to wear?" Huh? I like the Hyotei tennis attire just fine!

22- Oshitari- "I see, I see. : looking satisfied : I personally would like to wear a doctor's coat. And you can be my patient. I'll do your personal checkup." It isnt good to be too forward nyah~

23- Hiyoshi- "Oshitari-senpai, I'll seriously punch you...Hey, do you have anything you like to eat?" I love anything without chilli, bittergourd and with minimal fried onions and ginger.

24- Hiyoshi- "Then would you like to drop by after this? I know a good restaurant." Sure thing! We can go with everyone! *I wanna go with Atobe-sama!*

25- Akutagawa- "Woah~...we can't keep Waka on the side...Then, next time I'll nap with you! Can I?" Sure! *Jirou is like some cuddly cat or dog....*

26- Kabaji- " Usu!" ( translation- Probably a "no" ) Huh? Why not?

27- Atobe- "What? You understand Kabaji-language too? That's pretty good. Why don't you become Hyotei's manager? I'll welcome you here." I'm lousy at tennis you know... But I'm a schedule-freak, so SURE! *KYAH~!*

28- Atobe- "It's decided now. There're a lot of jobs, you know?" : grin : *faints at the grin*

29- Mukahi- "So, yea. Do you like other schools or something too?" Not really... Rikkai?

30- Mukahi- "...no! If you mingle with them, I don't know what will happen to you...Don't go anywhere, ok?" Rikkai cant be THAT bad... But I'd gladly stay with you guys!

31- Ootori- "By the way, what kind of clothes do you usually wear? For instance, at home?" T-shirt and shorts? *What are you implying, you naughty chouta-kun~*

32- Ootori- "Hyotei's school uniform is nice, but I like women who wear simple stuff. Next time, may I visit your house?" If you want to, I dont mind. *I wanna go Atobe-sama's house~*

33- Kabaji- "Usu..." Sure, Kabaji can come too~ *Cause then Atobe-sama will come!*

34- Shishido- "So, how did you find out about Tenipuri? Can you tell me?" Through Tezuka's seiyuu.

35- Oshitari- "Most people say that their first impression of us was pretty bad, but what did you think?" No way! I fell in love with Hyotei the moment I saw you guys!

36- Mukahi- "Don't tell me you cheered for other schools besides Hyotei at that time?" Eh. Rikkai. Fudomine. Fuji-kun... SORRY!

37- Hiyoshi- "Gekokujou (Supplanting one's superior). Shall we try that some time?" My tennis is AWFUL. So yeah, more practice would be ideal...

38- Atobe- "You, what kind of flower do you like?" Any flower thats still attached to a pot or the ground. I'm against cutting flowers.

39- Akutagawa- "You seem to ask similar questions, Atobe. During your birthday, she's (you're) going to spend time with me~"*I'm so sorry Jirou, but I dont think soooo*

40- Akutagawa- "Oh! What do you think we will become in the future? Personally, I want to be your husband." Eh?! *NO WAY. Being my pet is ok. I want Atobe-sama~!*

41- Oshitari- "What are you saying, Jiro? My future will be her (your) personal doctor!" If you want to~ Its not against the law or anything...

42- Shishido- "Are you guys having fun saying stuff like that...Anyway, going back to what I was saying, what do you do on your website anyway?" Its a personal blog plus an archive of my cosplay stuff...

43- Hiyoshi- "Seems like there are stuff like Seme, Uke, and dream novels out there."*HOW THE HELL DID YOU KNOW OF MY DRAFTS?*

44- Hiyoshi- "I don't have anything against it, but if you like it I don't mind." I see. Sure. Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. Yeah. *ATOBE-SAMA!!*

45- Ootori- "Are you getting a bit tired? I'm sorry. We're kind of excited having you join us." I'm not tired! I'm really happy to be doing this too!

46- Atobe- "Let's take a break. If you're tired, you should say so. Kabaji, bring tea." Thank you... *OMG! Atobe-sama~~~~*

47- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks!

48- Shishido- "Don't you think Atobe is really nice for some odd reason? It's so strange, it gives me the creeps..." Weird? I think its really sweet... *ATOBE-SAMA!~*

49- Mukahi- "Here's a question! Right in front of you is English Tea, Green Tea, and juice." Juice please. or English Tea.

50- Akutagawa- "Ah! Gakkun, that's not fair! Me too!" Do you want some?

51- Oshitari- "Hey, you guys are the most drunk right now...don't you think so?" Drunk on tea?

52- Atobe- "Besides, the only one who can say "drunk" in a sentence is me. Hey, get drunk at my beautiful skills." *faints internally!*

53- Hiyoshi- "Weren't we supposed to let her (you) take a break? Sorry, but feel free to relax." I'm fine... Thank you.

54- All- "Phew"*smiles*

55- Ootori- "Well, did you relax? Can we continue with the questions?" Of course!

56- Shishido- "Ok. Well, let's start. Do you have any favorite subjects in school?" Literature. Geography. I love learning languages...

57- Atobe- "I'm good at English, German, French, and almost anything. Want me to whisper something by your ear?"S-sure? *OMG!!!!! whisper A LOT of somethings please! Someone kill me! KYAH~!*

58- Akutagawa- "Do you cook? I would be happy trying something you make~ Can you make me something next time?" Sure! I like making desserts and pastries...

59- Hiyoshi- "What are your hobbies?" Reading. Listening to music. Translating. Cosplay...

60- Shishido- "Then, do you have any special talents? Like Choutarou's scud serve, which is pretty good." Special talent? Hmm. I'm really flexible, but I dont think thats a talent...

61- Mukahi- "What about something you just hate? I am rather weak on stuff that's bad for your heart." I hate being bored. And being lonely... *hints*

62- Kabaji- "Is there a reason why you like Hyotei?" Because you you guys!

63- Oshitari- "Got any habits?" HAHA. Many!

64- Hiyoshi- "Do you have a favorite season? Any reason why?" Winter! I get to wear different clothes!

65- Akutagawa- "Hey hey, have you cut class before?" Yes. A few times. SHHH!

66- Akutagawa- "Ohh~ Well, I cut a lot...I'm at the roof of the school usually so come over sometime!" Sure!

67- Atobe- "Do you have any pets?" Used to have fishes. I want a cat... *Jirou would be a nice pet tooo~*

68- Atobe- "I can make you my pet. There's no reason for you to reject."*OMG. I totally will agree to this! Like he said, no reason to object!* Ah~ *blush*

69- Ootori- "Then which do you like better, dogs or cats? I'm usually treated like a dog so it's kind of tough." I love cats more than dogs. But Chouta-kun is kawaii... *smiles*

70- Shishido- "Kind of hard to ask but, I'll ask. When was your first love?" Hmm. Shall I say this?

71- Kabaji- "Then...you've dated before?" You're talking! Nopes.

72- Hiyoshi- "From now on, please don't look at any males besides me?"Eh~ ?*NO WAY! I WANNA LOOK AT ATOBE-SAMA!*

73- Mukahi- "Ah. I don't like girls who wear a lot of make up. You're fine like this so don't do anything, ok?!" Sure!

74- Oshitari- "Yeah yeah...You know, I wanted to ask this question the most~" Sure!

75- Oshitari- "Here we go. Tell me your height, weight and 3 sizes~" Height is 167cm. Im now around 53kg... 3 sizes... Hmm. Shant tell you! ^^

76- Mukahi- "Yuushi, you have an eyes of a pervert..." *laughs* Its ok.

77- Atobe- "You shouldn't tell your 3 sizes to that idiot. The beast will end up returning to the his true form." I know... *Atobe-sama~~~~*

78- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks for the concern~

79- Ootori- "Let's leave these people aside, and let's have fun here." : smile : *I wanna stay with Atobe-sama~~~*

80- Ootori- "By the way, how do you spend your days off?" Blogging. Chatting online. Reading. Household chores. Out with friends...

81- Ootori- "Then if you're bored, will you go out with me? We can go anywhere you want." Okay!

82- Shishido- "Which do you like more? Anipuri or the manga?" Eh. EH. I CANT CHOOOSE!

83- Akutagawa- "Hey~ what do you think about Sakaki director?" One word. Cool.

84- Akutagawa- "He's a music teacher~ It may seem kinda strange, but he's a pretty good director. He teaches us well too. So, don't hate him, ok?" I like him actually.

85- Hiyoshi- "Do you think there're other sports besides Tennis that might suit us?" Sports? Not really. You guys can join Drama though.

86- Oshitari- "Do you think there's some one in here that might have a dark sided hobby?" You? *smiles* *closet PERVERT* * But I dont mind~~*

87- Mukahi- "What do you think Jiro dreams of when he's sleeping?" Of sleeping more?

88- Shishido- "Oh, I nearly forgot...it's almost time." Time for?

89- Ootori- "...It's a pity but, we had a lot of fun." Its over? *Atobe~~~~*

90- Akutagawa- "It's a promise, we're going to nap together!" Sure!

91- Oshitari- "If you don't want to be my patient, I can have you in a nurse's outfit." Hmm. I'll consider. ^^

92- Hiyoshi- "I would be happy if we can speak one to one some time. I would like to know about you more." Same here!

93- Mukahi- "You know...Um, nevermind. Come again anytime." Heehee. Sure!

94- Kabaji- "Usu." Usu too :D

95- Atobe- "Aa~n? What do you want from me?" Can I have a goodbye hug? *gets bricked the one million and one other fangirls*

96- Atobe- "...Sorry for making you stick around with us all the way here. Go home and sleep. Or you can't sleep alone?" : grin : *blush* I sometimes cant... *blush*

97- Atobe- "Uh huh, yeah yeah. Well, I'll see you...Ah? You're already the manager here." I'm hired? Woah!

98- Atobe- "I won't let you complain, got it?" Yes! Thank you Atobe-sama!

99- Sakaki- "You may go!" Woah! *where did he appear from?* Yes sir!

100- Before you go...Any final comments after finishing this? HYOTEI BANZAI!

OMG. I LOVE THE HYOTEI BOYS~ My face would be red if I could blush! I love Atobe. Seriously. I do. He's so amazing. And cute. And talented. What with the extremely aggressive natural play-style and all. I wanna meet his family actually. Maybe the manga can have sides about his family? It should be mind-blowing awesome-ness!

"HYOTEI!"

Kazuki-san

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What Can Tonight bt Kato Kazuki

WOOHOO! I have Kato Kazuki's new album GLAMOROUS BEAT. I love the Internet. Ok. I'll dish the dirt. Kazuki-san is getting GOOD. I dont like using Kato-san, so he's Kazuki-san until I decide on his nickname. His name is too long. Back to the topic... Yeah. I'm serious. His vocal range has improved by quite a bit. You used to be able to hear him straining during the songs that required more range changes, but now he tackles it with ease. And he looks so cute on the album cover too! Yummy eye candy nyah~ Anyway! I like Mera Mera, What Can Tonight, Surreal na Beat de Nemuritai and Venom. Not bad, 4 songs in one album that I keep playing over and over again. What I truly liked about this album was the thought put into the sound and the lyrics. Not one song sounds like another song available in the music industry. And his lyrics were an awesome play on words. A prime example is What Can Tonight. The lyrics are available here. It is mostly a play on the sound and the meaning of the words. For example, 'what can tonight' when Japan-ised, sounds a whole lot like 'wakattanai', 'Don't say' sounds like 'douse' and 'Don't cry' sounds like 'don kurai'. In the context of the song, the actual lyrics are can easily be replaced by what is misheard. So cool huh? Oh yeah. Kazuki-san is now on his Drastic Glamour Tour. I am so absolutely jealous of the Japanes fans. They get him all to themselves.

Crashed a Japanese lecture on Wednesday. It was fantastic! I loved the lecturer, she was funny and very experienced. I now want the Japanese books and notes. Simply because I think I need the practice in order to be able to score for JLPT in December. I need the vocabulary too. And I think I need the confidence doing all those practices will give me. Yes, I signed up for JLPT yesterday. Submitting the form and making payment made me kind of depressed actually. I could hear and feel the chain I just attached to myself until the test. I can't fail. I can't I already failed my driving test. I failed myself during A Levels by doing so badly. I'm not doing particularly well in my Japanese class either. Its like, I'm being held back by something. I can read and understand, but I cannot construct my own sentences. Its a pressing problem. Its also a kind of failure. Which brings the total count to a lot of failures. No more. I won't fail. I can't afford it. Back to something more positive... I went to Viv's room in Eusoff. WOW. Your own place. I could feel it the moment I stepped in. Freedom. From the self that you were at home. From the self that you were created to fulfil by your parents. It was a moment, but I could feel it. Be it one semester, one term or an hour, I think it might have been worthed it. It might be painful when its taken away, but I feel that someone who gets a taste of paradise is better off than the person who has never experienced it.

I'm not sure if I'm in the right frame of mind. Things seem so... Strange recently. I think the problem lies in the perspective. Aka. Me. Its like. The things that mattered to me a while back no longer does. And those that still matter are now less important. The decisions that I thought were for the best seems like huge mistakes now. Was I being impulsive when I thought I was being all rational and logical? I think the self-doubt is one of the most terrible emtions out there. It creeps abehind you. Stalks your shadows. It makes you look back, makes you afraid of what you left behind. The worst part? It makes you fearful of that which lies ahead as well. Its crippling, to say the least. Twirling round and round, coiling around you. It isnt aggressive. Oh no. It makes you kill yourself. You die from the stress, the fear, the worries... You die from yourself. I try to drown it in music. In activities. In my friends... But it persists. Besides, how much can all these external help? The sense that you will never be free persists. The sense that every breathe you take is more shallow than the last... Until you finally collasped from suffocation. It isnt physical. Not something the doctor can just give medication for. They will treat the symptoms. Not the cause. The cause is there. In my skull. Where not even I can reach all the time... Sigh. I'm so useless.

"I can't believe in your love..."