Smile

Music Request:
Mirrorcle World (Its not a spelling error on my part!) by Ayumi
Gardenia by Malice Mizer

Kohei Uchimura.
(click for his interview... in Japanese.)

I know, I know. It goes completely against the general trend, but still... I can't help it! I mean... There's talent, a generally amiable personality, and it seriously doesn't hurt that he's totally ADORABLE. His smile is that of a little boy! Haha. Irresistible. For those who have absolutely no idea who I'm talking about, it just goes to show that you've been living under a remote rock for the past week or so. Ok. Maybe not. For the past day? Haha. Uchimura-san is of the Japanese team to the 2008 Beijing Olympics. Specifically of the Men's Artistic Gymnastics team. Individual 2nd!

Okie. I know I'm super biased. First and foremost, I really like Gymnastics. That alone is sufficient for me to stay up until 2AM in the morining, secretly watching TV. In Gymnastics, my favourite is Artistic, for the sheer power and grace. All these, coupled with my personality should cause my current preference to be relatively expected. Uchimura-san rocks!

Lets evaluate this more rationally. Or not. Oh forget it. I'll just list down WHY I like him:

1) His smile is SOOO cute! (This shows how superficial I am.)
2) He kept at the apparatus even though his wrist was badly injured. (Duh, this is to be expected. ALL of them continued despite injuries!)
3) He's only 19! ( Reinforces concept of my shallow nature.)
4) He was placed 2nd! ( Wait. I liked him BEFORE I found out about the result...)
5) He is NOT that cocky Yang Wei! ( UH. Right.)

I have no idea why I like Uchimura-san. Although for point 5), its not that I don't like the Chinese team (hey, I like the Chinese girls! Talented and dedicated. Although tops will always be Catalina Ponor from Romania...), rather, I don't like Yang Wei. Indeed, he's good and completely entitled to brag. Still, the fact that he does deducts brownie points.

Wait. Some of you, not you Kaen, may realise that I sound like I'm contradicting myself. I'm not. Atobe is in a totally different league. He isn't cocky, ok, maybe he is, but his charisma makes it all a-ok. Haha. I'm just so biased that I think I'm insufferable. Haha. I guess, we all have our exceptions. Arrogance isn't an attractive quality in anyone, save those cool bad guys eg. Sephiroth (He has a choir singing his name! Imagine!), and really random and unique individuals, like Atobe-sama. Haha. I rest my case. I'm a gone case. See? Repetition. A sure sign of madness...



"Do not do unto other what you want others to do unto you; others may have different tastes."

Think

Music Request:
Love Addict by VAMPS
Drink It Down by Larc~en~Ciel
Instinctive Love by Kato Kazuki

Haha. Apparently, people do read my blog, and respond! Love ya! You know full well who you are! :) There's this really warm and fuzzy feeling that I get when I open my Gmail Inbox and see mail from Blogger, telling me that someone commented. I feel even happier when I see an email with an ATTACHMENT sent to me from my friends! Yippe!

Yeah. Some will conclude from this that I am easily satisfied, easily contented. Yet, is this even accurate? I know arrive at the main content of today's post, courtesy of my current state of Literature poisoning.

What is the truth? We see things from our perspectives; there is no other way. Hence, through our individual experiences, which cannot be replicated, based upon the expectations, treatment and influence of others on us, we are aware of what is our truth. Nothing else. Yet, is truth really all that we can see? Obviously there is more. Hence, we go around collecting the truth as perceive by others, in order to arrive at what we may consider the true face of Truth. These different pictures of the same thing by different people... How do we know it is accurate? We cannot. We assume they do not lie. Nevertheless, there are often conflicting viewpoints - some things simply does not add up nicely. What then do we do? The normal reaction is to reject the information that does not seem to tally with the majority of our data. It is this which I wish to question. Does an anomaly equate to an untruth? What if it was another side of the Truth, like the other face of the Moon? Just because we are unable to see the other face of the Moon does not mean that the Moon has only one side. In this way, our physical self thus limits the mind. We are unable to think out of the figurative box as we are inside the box. Never able to look outside, how will you be able to surpass the boundaries? Those who continuously advocate creativity in a vacuum are trying to create life from nothingness. Unless you are God, which they are not, it is impossible. We are defined by our physical selves, perceive through our physical selves and thus, are, more or less, our physical selves. Our human experiences, which are beyond our self, which is in turn, beyond thought, that extends past language, is not something that can be grasped by our mortal definitions. Some things are just not meant to be caught and trapped, to be restricted by our narrow understanding...

Heavy stuff? Haha. In a way, it sounds as if I'm trying to be deliberately profound. Oh well. I'm just trying to voice out my thoughts from this afternoon's lesson. Everything is in a mess, discussions are meant to mess things up, and putting it all down in words, regardless of its inadequacy, is still better then nothing. I hope you understand...

Oh. Translating a Japanese music interview is tough. Too much katakana, although the kanji helps. I really need to go learn Japanese. At the same time, to brush up my hiragana... Seriously atrocious. Takes me near an hour to translate simple sentences. Tiring as the font is teeny tiny too. Still, the picture of HYDE makes it all worthwhile... :)





"A sadist is a masochist who follows the golden rule of 'Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.'."

Chase

Music Request:
Do Me More by Namie Amuro
Illuminati by Malice Mizer

Okay. I know I owe you this much - an update. Here goes:

1) 9 days to my GCE 'A' Level prelimnary examinations, and I am completely unprepared. Intend to spend the whole of tomorrow studying economics in the library. Anyone and everyone is free to join me. Most probably in Toa Payoh. Sms me if you wanna study too, I might change my mind at the eleventh hour, as I am prone to do.

2) Listening to the songs by Gackt that Duck uploaded for me. Love Diablos. So nice...

3) Went out with Duck, her Benj and Kaen on Friday. Had lunch at my regular joint in Lucky Plaza, before we went to Kinokuniya. Realised that her Benj cant read Chinese to save his life. Sad. No, more like disappointed. Though I suppose on the account that he's Peranakan, I can cut him some slack. Went bersek at Kinokiniya. They were having a sale, so I signed up for a three-year membership, bought the US edition of GLB, What's In, the Japanese music magazine, and Cosmode. Should have made use of the additional discount and gotten Cat Street and Venus Cappricino as well. Oh well. Spent a lot yeah? And that's not all...

4) On Friday, I too went shopping for Clare's birthaday present. Bought her a bracelet and earrings. Sharing with Viv, HF and most probably, Angie, I hope. HF is a great friend, seriously. I hope she gets what she really deserves in life. I mean, it'll be really unfortunate otherwise. Haha. I don't think she realises it yet, but she's something special :)

5) Oh. This is something pretty big. I signed up to do Nowaki from JunJou Romantica in a photoshoot in December this year. With Kaen as Hiroki. Amazing yeah? I'm starting to mentally prepare myself for all the likely poses. Still, its not too bad. I can think of worst things. Way worse... like 'A' Levels... Wait. For all you people who are still nice and innocent and uninitiated, ITS YAOI. You don't know what it means? Go Google it, and prepare for an amazing aesthetic feast. No Kaen, don't say I'm evil...

5) Kaen is going to Japan, namely Tokyo and Kyoto at the end of the year. I want to go Japan too, I mean, Sherracoon and XW are going for TeniMyu stuff, with Soph most probably heading there early next year. Thats practically my friends in this circle. Sad. If I could go, I'll spend 3 days in Harajuku. After all, there's so much to shop and see. Although I'll most probably need near a thousand dollars to fulfill my thirst for the stuff. More money will be needed if I want to head to a host club to look-see... Ok. Anyone willing to sponsor me? I promise I'll be really nice to you for the rest of my life/ your life, depending on who dies first. Haha.

6) I wonder how Hyde smokes and sings at the same time. So obvious that I diasgree with smoking yeah? Not my life. Shall not interfere with choices of people I'll never meet in my life *shrugs*. See the PV of his latest song LOVE ADDICT in his band VAMPS with KAZ. Nice and violent, with a cool twist at the back. Funny too, but in a black, situational hunour kind of way. I like Hyde's voice, and I think he's a seriously interesting guy, but I'm not sure about the direction he is heading. Yeah he looks cool, and absolutely unlike a typical middle-aged guy. Still... I think he was more impressive in Laruku. He's still short though. Haha. His height won't change regardless of where he stands. So what if he's at the front? It wouldn't work. Stop kidding yourself Hyde-sama. The only reason why he gets away with it is cause he's so adorable... An adorable 39 year old man. I'm screwed.

7) I'm itching to dance. I have no idea why, considering my apparent lack of regard for dance when I was in the CCA. Maybe it was because of the system and the atmosphere. I have no grudge against dancing itself, in fact, it seems that I like it a lot. Miss it. Was watching Namie Amuro's PV Do Me More. I actually got of my seat to copy her routine. This only goes to show how much I need to dance. I suppose I'll sign up for dance lessons again after 'A' Levels.

8) Bought Hyde's 666. Companion album to Roentgen. I like. Nice guitar... Favourite is Words of Love, Sweet Vanilla... Like most of the album :)

9) Happy birthday! This goes out to Kor, Lavi, Dhilshad, Kailing, Shiying and all the people I don't know born on this day :)



"I'm not a diary! I'm a person! No one cooks chicken with beancurd juice! Madness!"

Real

I wonder what most people do to cope with rough patches? Why I wonder? I'm going through an awful period of time now. I'm so depressed I eat a bar of chocolate everyday. Not exaggerating. Its like this:

Mathematics D
Economics D (barely)
General Paper D (the first!!)
Geography E

Horrendous. I was so stunned by my grades that I was numb on the bus home for the past 2 days. Just stared out of the window blankly, hearing music but not listening. Its like there's this tough thick shell around me that keeping me from flipping. With such grades, I think I will qualify as a retainee. Honest. Yet, if I do a careful analysis of the entire affair, its GP and Geography that's affecting me. Why?

First and foremost, until this year, I have NEVER failed English. NEVER. I have no idea if its the teacher, as I performed well in Mr Whitby's class last year, or me. Serious. I"M SCARED. There. I've gone and said the name of the evil bogeyman living deep inside me. Grades like this, when people around you are getting A's and B's are no joke. Its frightening. Doubt creeps in, and you begin to question everything. Lifestyle, effort, ability, mood... it all goes under the microscope. And I have had enough of the numerous sickening comments on my handwriting. Just because it can't be seen from the moon doesn't make it microscopic. Furthermore, I have one of the most legible handwriting on the face of this planet, so those who write in teeny scrawls have ABSOLUTELY no right to criticise. The limit to my patience is a very real boundary. Three strikes and you're out. Don't say I don't give sufficient warning.

If I were to force a more positive outlook, I suppose I can say that there was an improvement for Economics. During Promotional Examinations last year, it was a sub-pass, so at least I improved by 2 grades. My Mathematics was never excellent, although its a huge fall in my grades (from a high B to a D!), so i suppose its not too disappointing. All that is left is my Literature, which is off to a poor start already. I have resigned myself to my grades. All i can do is to put in more effort, which I am for Hypothesis Testing. Economics... I suppose I can go back to writing more essays. I will definitely study hard for Geography, I'm now actively trying to make sure I do a good job in the topic of floods. Sigh. A wake up call of the most brutal nature. I suppose there is a reason for having the exams after the holidays. It really gives us more time to study. Now all I feel is that I have totally wasted an entire month in frivolous pursuit.

Ok. Cosfest will be the last. I'll wrap everything else up for this year. Start studying. No more self-questioning. No room for errors. Lets end it all with no regrets.




" Meaning? What meaning do you seek? Adding your own interpretation to completely meaningless reality is the epitome of futility."

Young and Over Indulging ~ YaOI

Okay. I so don't have time to put in the necessary effort to write a proper post. Its simple. I'm too busy watching Jun Jou Romantica! Haha. Its the first time that I'm really watching yaoi. Like pretty... intense yaoi. Okay. I like Usami and his bears! So kawaii! Yup. I know as a fangirl, its sort of wrong to be in love with Suzuki-bear, but still... Its so KAWAII!!!! I mean, Misaki is adorable (when he's not making out with Usami) and Usami is ubercool ( when he isn't making out with Misaki), but Suzuki-bear ROCKS! Hmm. The other pair, of Hisaki and Nowaki (I think their names are spelled like this...) is awfully sweet. The seme and uke is less obvious, unlike Misaki-Usagi, and there's more of a connection. I guess its because, I a) do not have an elder brother, b) I don't know anyone who's earning tons of money as an author, and c) I'm not in any kind of relationship with anyone. Therefore, the sweetness appeals more to me. That, and the kawaii factor of Suzuki-bear! Man, if only I had a bear as cute as Suzuki-bear. Ok. Sorry. Couldn't find a nice Junjou picture without any words, Japanese or otherwise. So you'll just have to make do with Kaori Yuki. Haha. Not like its BAD. I love her art...


On to a more objective perspective! The plot's pretty good, but the music is terrible. I sort of fast-forward the entire introduction. No point listening if it grates on my ears. Talking about music... I bought Hyde's Roentgen! For only 20 dollars! At HMV! Haha! Its only so cheap because its one of the special collections. I saw Gackt's and Malice Mizer albums retailing at an earth-shattering price of some 60 dollars! Per album! Daylight robbery. I mean, is the price justified? I think not. I have this nagging suspicion that buying from overseas will be cheaper at the rate prices are increasing so outrageously. Sigh. Now the only problem left is finding some way to pay. That is a really big issue.


Regarding money, I need someone to find me a pot of gold. Or to teach me where to get a treasure map. I'm considering a new pair of shoes and another black Lolita dress. Which needs money. That I don't have. I have just outlined the problem. Tada! So yup. The shoes and dress cost $90 each, bringing it to a total of $180. Argh. I should just forget about it eh? Hah. As if that is remotely possible. Well. I suppose I'm going to save up for it. Just like I'm going to save up for my iPod. Shoot. The total amount is equivalent to about... One and a half month's worth of pocket money! Plus additional for cleaning the house... I so totally have to get a job to finance my super expensive hobby. This stinks. I detest being constantly broke. AHH! I give up!

"At the beginning of an addiction, you're happy. Its later that you die."

Laundry

Its officially the school vacation now, but it doesn't really feel like it. I mean, there are loads of things which are all piled up waiting for me to comp[lete, most of which I have yet to feel bothered enough to actually complete. Sigh. It seems to me like the older I get, the more irresponsible I become as i know how to squirm through all the various loopholes. This is NOT a good thing. The undisciplined side of me is ruining all the careful plans and resolutions I made to work hard. Which Is awful when I realise that this is already in the second week of my month long holidays... And I have yet to start on ANYTHING! Well, I did complete half a comprehension exercise, not that its anything to boast of. Okay. I shall exercise self-restraint once and for all. Today, I promise to finish all of the comprehension and 2 questions of my Math Hypothesis Testing tutorial. This is on top of repairing my Goth dress and washing all the irritating bits of stuff around the house.



Yeah, I do household chores, but its not like I like doing it. More like I don't have any choice nor say in the matter. Its so repetitive, and stuff like laundry and washing the floor never ends. see, the wind blows, and all the dusts comes floating in again. You have to wear clothes everyday, so its an endless cycle of washing, drying, folding/ironing, keeping. And its not one set, its like, four people, and different clothes require varying treatments based on colour, material, cutting etcetra. A complete pain. The worst part is that it rains often in this tropical monsoon climate, so yeah, I have to note the weather... Urgh. These are only CLOTHES. There are shoes, blankets, rugs, bedsheets, towels and more to be washed. Laundry is a pain. The first thing I would do if I had a rich sugar daddy will be to hire a laundry person. Serious. I will not be constrained by these irritating triflings which MATTER for a moment longer than I have to. It sucks up all your time, ruins your mood, needs you to note 20 different factors at once and absolutely spoils concentration and train of thought. I think its quite obvious I hate laundry. Like its any surprise. Haha.



Love my phone. Rather, I think I should say I love having a 2GB external memory disk in my phone. Thats cause I can squeeze some 150 over songs into my phone, and the battery of my phone, although it seems to be unable to let me make calls for longer than an hour, I can listen to some 6 hours of music with excess battery to spare! Wowie! The wonders of technology, music on the go, anywhere. Well, as long as you have battery. Oh, just remebered, my earphones have some problem... Sheesh, will have to change it...




" Love is blind, not senseless nor stupid!"

Sad

Okie. First and foremost, Stella, you are definitely an Ah Po... Who else can be my Ah Po? Haha. Next, thank you bemygodday for leaving a comment which stirs up such complex feelings, I knew Hyde was working on some new project called Vamps but... I mean, thanks for the offer of songs, I'm gonna keep you to it *grins*. Yet... Why are they going to go on hiatus?! I'm going to cry. Serious. WHY?! They are making such amazing music, I knew I should have skipped school to go to their concert in Hong Kong. I could have, but my morals reined me in. Sheesh. Now I'm going to regret it until I'm 2011, which means I'll be an adult officially. Hey, maybe its a good thing. After all, I'll be able to follow them to the ends of the earth at that point of time with no parental consideration. Haha. I'm so depressed I'm trying to forrce something positive out of this cause for grief. At least I still have Gackt. Like its any consideration. I love Larcon! They are my favourite! How can one Gackt substitute all of four members of Larcon? How...

My exams are all over. I've been to Malaysia, Kuantan and Kuala Lumpur, for my scholl's Geography and back. Aristal 2008 is over and done with. My life in JC is, at this moment, seventy-five percent over. I shall freely admit it. I cried when the curtain went down after the finale of Aristal. It was a curtain call for more than my time as a dance; it was the end of carefree youthfulness as well. Why do I say this? I have to really get down to studying for my 'A' Levels. I have to concentrate on what I want to do in the near future. I need to source for possible options. I need to decide on my stand on anime, manga and cosplay. All these seems inconsequential, like little bits. Yet, altogether, they define who I am and what I'm going to be, what I'm going to do. How can I ignore all these parts that make up me? Sighx. Its like how music is a part of me, how dance is another part of me, studying makes up anothe section... Argh. Now there's pressure to perform in all these areas, it really tires me out. I do have a limit, and its a very really real limit. Mayhap I consider it a transfered epithet that Larcon is going on hiatus. After all, I mean, I'm in need of a mental vacation.

This song, Orenji no Taiyo, from Moon Child, is an absolute complement to my current mood. Sung and written by both Hyde and Gackt, the song is from Gackt's album Crescent, and is a song I really want. Its so sad, and so sweet, and the movie was heart-wrenching. Ahh. I'm going to cry already, due to both the news and the song. Argh! Shan't care already!

Sayonara...

" Shall I give up? Shall I cry? Shall I despair?"

Addiction

Wowie. I just realised that I'm a fool thirteen times over. Why? Cause I got myself addicted to Gackt. I'm now desperately searching for his songs. Really sad if you realise that Singapore isn't exactly the best place to get alternative music. Yes, Gackt is considered 'Alternative Music'. Why? Simple, the medium is Japanese. Anything other than mainstream English and Chinese pop goes under alternative. Yuck. If anyone knows of any kind souls who have Gackt stuffies to share or sell, please do contact me. I'm going bersek.



On to Gackt-less stuff, but still regarding obsessions... Tetsu can SING!!! I have his song, Tightrope, and the vocals rocks! This is despite the poor recording quality of downloaded songs. If i can't find substantial Gackt albums, Tetsu's album is even more likely to be available only via the Internet. Unfortunately, I don't have so much spare dough. So I'll just have to withhold my cravings until I chance upon a pot of gold and go on a spending spree at CDJapan. What a sad life. Tetsu's voice is seriously great. I recommend going to YouTube to listen to his amazing voice. I have no idea why Hyde laughed at his voice! Its great! The quality is more of the mainstream kind, not as flexible as Hyde's, but its clear and has a distinct character. Overall? Go listen, and judge by yourself. I promise you an awesome audio experience. It doesn't hurt that Tetsu is adorable either :) Haha. The leader of Larcon is talented. Although he isn't able to connect with the audience as well as Hyde, he has substance.



Regarding Hyde, I had absolutely no idea that Cape of Storms is an English song. I thought it was in Japanese! With parts in English! Am I stupid or what?! I guess its because I was too taken with the tune. Beautiful, soothing. Almost haunting, not quite there, but not bad as a whole. The PV is dissappointing. I suppose it does fit in with the entire theme of spiritually lost and hopelessness, but still... Was expecting more.



It seems like Larcon is really amazing and absolutely talented. After all, they've been in the industry for 16 years. I suppose it takes lots of ability to have such staying power. American bands tend to fade out after a couple of years, even those who are really popular stop relaesing so many albums and are unable to suitably attract the younger audience. Haha. I love my Larcon!


Here's a gorgeous picture of the band's new look for Kiss. Notice Hyde's hair? Really suits him. Much better than the hairstyle he sported at the starting of Larcon. He really looks better with age. Hmm. I wonder what this suggests about me...



"Dancing in the wind without a care, both hands outstretched... What bliss!"

Up

Well, I can now safely say that I'm nuts. I mean, which normal person who has yet to finish studying will be gallivanting around online? Sigh. I just can't exercise self-control. Urgh. At least now I'm keeping close watch of the time. Wow. Gackt is an amazing pianist. All I can say is that he's pretty talented; I heard he plays 8 instruments! Interestingly enough, although I like Gackt's voice, I somehow find Klaha's voice more suited to Malice Mizer. Don't know. Maybe its because I knew Gackt as an individual singer before as a member of Malice Mizer. Haha. Like I said, i'm pretty slow. Or rather, I got the order wrong. Much like my Economics essay T_T. Imagine, I started with balance of payment, went to long-run impacts, before talking about short-run! I so totally hope I didn't discuss the AS stuff before AD for the fiscal policy question that I did! Otherwise... Conceptual error. Argh! That would mean I let my hand suffer for nothing...


Watching Neo Angelique Abyss now. Its so... high pitched. Yup. Angelique is so whiny. I can't stand it... The only reason why I'm watching it is for the guys. Woohoo. All the seiyuus are great! The men I mean. It reminds me of Pretear. I was only sitting thriugh the entire thing to listen to Sasame and for the kids. The last episode was utterly unbearable. I laughed so hard my brother asked if it was supposed to be a comedy. You know, the part where everything gets destroyed, people are screaming and dying. Its not that i'm heartless, rather, the portrayal was simply hilarious. Haha. Oh, but I sort empathise with the younger step-sister. I mean, I think we all have our inner problems, all have our pain. in a way, the portrayal and acknowledgement of this was more than what I would have expected from a 'silly reverse harem' anime. Yup. Its wonderful how the smallest things can actually have really deep ideas.



Eh. I seem to be talking about pretty random topics. Like an analysis of my own Economics essay in my blog. Dear me. I need a brain overhaul!





" To what purpose do we struggle? Life is short; a mere instant. What more can a moment do?"

Oops

Just realised that my second favourite song by Gackt is... seriously hentai. OMG. Here's the link. Its subtitled. Sometimes, its really better not to know what the song means. Serious. Some parts subtitled in English seems to be wrong, but its correct. I have the lyrics, so I know. I didn't bother to translate it by myself, so yeah, now I'm sorta glad I didn't, so I can go on deluding myself that the person translated it wrongly. NOT. On a less... explicit note, his hair in the PV is cool. No wonder people use him as inspiration for anime and game characters. Sighx.Thank goodness Redemption is not as... specialised. Yeah. Thank goodness. Link. Its more rugged, cool. His microphone stand is one of a kind. The bird is a nice touch. Go watch. Subtitled as well. Aren't I considerate? But here's a warning for the innocent, naive souls out there. Don't watched the subbed Vanilla. Don't. Just watch it in its original form, enjoy the music... his voice... enjoy ignorance.



Shall leave now. I already spent half a day on fandom. So going to fail my exams...




"A feeling that has no equal, a pain that surpasses time; why do I even bother staying alive?"

Instability

After a month long hiatus (well, its almost a month...) I'm back. Temporarily. Haha. You know how the worst things all occur at the same time? Well, for me, whenever I'm expected to study, my Mid Year Exam is some... 2 days away... I happen to have the weirdest cravings. Currently reading a manhwa, Model by Lee So Young, blogging (duh) and wanting to scream. Yup. In that order. Life sucks when you have limited time, I'm suppose to be studying for Economics, but its clear that I have given up. I mean, I know I'm going to fail. After all, I have studied for only, what? One day? Its not even a full day as I've been frolicking around for the past 2 hours. Precious, precious time when you have yet to even complete the first round of revision. I am so totally screwed. I should have stayed in school. Or gone out. Anywhere without the computer. Now only on the essay outlines of my essays. I still have to study the lecture notes and write out one of the essays. Wow. I must be blessed if I even get an S grade this time around. Byebye to any dream of improvement. Macroeconomics is SUPPOSED to be EASIER. Looks like I'm either too stupid or too lazy to be able to do well.



Watching the online videos of Laraku's 2008 World Tour. OMG. Hyde and Tetsu speaking CHINESE!!!! And French!!! Oh boy. Its soooo kawaiii to see Hyde and Tetsu doing synchronised HOPPING!!! The best part was Hyde blowing a gazillion kisses at the audience, sticking out his tongue at the camera... ANNNND.... Tetsu throwing the audience his banana!!!! Does he even know the hundred and one conotations?! OH... What I would do to go Seoul or Hong Kong to catch the last two-fifths of their Asia tour... I think its quite obvious, from the number of capitalised words that I'm a lost cause. Oh. Here's the Devil May Cry 4 game trailer. Totally fitting. Imagine, Laraku + Tyki... Heaven. The theme song is Laraku's latest single, Drink It Down. The PV is here, as in, the original. Note how lucky the Caucasian girls in the PV are to cosy up to the band members. I can't help but be jealous. Oh well. Hyde's hair lokks like mine on a seriously goood hair day after I add tons of gel. Haha. Is it me or does Hyde looks hotter as he ages? Someone online commented that he looks more rugged as he ages. Sort of growing old gracefully, or in his situation, in a more manly way. After all, he started as a half-crossdressing singer in a visual kei band. I mean, go look at the old Blurry Eyes and Vivid Colours PVs. Hyde looked effeminate. Definitely. In interviews in the 90s, he looked gawky and geeky, yet, now... Hot siah. Oh boy!!! Tetsu has the same birthday as Kei-chan!!! My darling Atobe and Tetsu are both October 3rd Libra babies!!! Wow. What a wonderful world. Like I said earlier, my dad and Hyde, Yukihiro and I, my maternal grandmother, Eiji and Ken all share the same birthday. Now even Tetsu and Atobe! I love L'Arc~en~Ciel!!!



Next, I shall part of my grades, life, and heart to malice Mizer. yes, Iknow I'm really slow on the uptake. Gackt sounds heavenly. Serious. Just watched the old PVs. Dear me. Its soooo... amazing, the stuff people can think of with no predecessors. I have concluded that Mana is damn pretty, Gackt just needs to sit there to make me swoon, Klaha voice rocks, AND WHAT KIND OF BAND FEATURES A VIOLIN!!! Illuminati is *faints*, awfully twisted, Au Revoir is so sweet (it doesn't hurt that Gackt looks delicious and Mana's dress is absolutely pretty!), Baroque is nice.... Argh. Its official. I'm now a Malice Mizer fan!




"Why did the girl kill her sister? So she could see her hot cousin again..."

Pretend

This is more like an update for my glaring absence and the previously contracted posts. I've been pretty involved in school, on the forum , and at home (duh) recently, so there hasn't been much time to really blog. I do have lots of things to say, but I want to be able to type it all out properly, construct sentences... You get what I mean? I don't really see the point in dumping words onto a website without construction. No thought process = don't blog. We can't all be totally reactionary all the time. Blogging requires reflection, well, for me at least. If I was to just to just chuck whatever occurred to me onto my blog, there's a high possibility of getting into serious trouble. Thoes who know me well will understand. I happen to be tempermental, cynical, blunt, sarcastic and sharp - these being some of the main features which people who get into trouble possess. Fortunately, I happen to have common sense, and its something I treasure.

Enough of all the pretentious self-explaining. Going off tangent. Here, I want to politely DEMAND for Dir En Grey's Raison d'Etre. As well as ALL of Oshitari's songs. Please do remember to include the 3 songs you found the other day. You could include any other yummy songs, and the drama cd of Vampire Knight. Hmm. Well, that is about it.

My mood has now soured. Was pretty happy just now, but yup. Mood swing I guess. As normal as anything when you're acting everyday. There's bound to be a certain period of time where you lose it. Haha. So not funny. I detest being interrupted when I blog, especially by reasons which are excuses in disguise. I need to be able to express myself periodically. It used to be ok as I had GP ( now is soo not possible). Argh! Can't stand pests!



"People are resources. They are limited. Finite. And very very disposable."

Splurge

I have done something... impulsively. A black gothic lolita dress sits in my cupboard. I bought it from Alice88. Cheated by her, I forked out an excess of about 20 dollars. I have no idea why I did what I did. Honest. Maybe it was the shop, the atmosphere, mood, whatever. The fact remains that I practically threw money away. This, coupled with the fact that I fell ill ( unnecessary late nights ) is making my plan to save and diet seem like I NEED to do so, instead of WANTING to do so. Terrible. I'll need shoes and accessories to go with the dress, so I desperately need to sell the white lolita dress that I bought with Sophia. It would give me a bit more money to manuevre about. Anyhow, whats done is done, so all I can do is try to maximise it all. Oh yeah. Just realised, I have nothing to wear on the first day, unless I wear the same costume... Which is kind of tacky...

Okay. So I bought a pair of boots from Atsuki. Yeah. More wastage. Its to go with the dress. So now... I need to get gloves, haedpiece... among others. Yup. More wastage. I don't know what I'm doing. Lets see, wasting money, trying unsuccessfully to lose weight. Haha. Right. My life is in chaos. Again. As usual due to whimsical reasons. Im totally screwed. Should start praying. Sighx.




" Time is inconsequential when your life doesn't matter."

Oaf

Was struck on the head by the umbrella of a clumsy oaf on the bus. It just occurred on bus service 151, right outside the side gate of the boy's school. It was utterly embarrasing. Not because I was smacked on the head by a kid, but because I swore some real colourful language. The bus was full of people, and I was in my school uniform. Until now, I am still dreading the moment where the MOP aka member of public complains. Urgh. The horror. Loads of people have told me that I look like an absolutely adorable dolly... right up to the moment I open my mouth. yeah, I get it, I'm a cynical, sadistic, violent old woman stuck in an 18 year old body. Right.



Anyway, back to what happened, the kid, cause he's definitely younger than me, struck me on the head with his black umbrella, I have absolutely why he was holding an umbrella in his hand given the striking absence of rain. Maybe he wanted to morph into Umbrella Man or something. Still. Urgh.



Interestingly, I have not much to say today. The boarding house is awfully quiet. I'm in a state of, I know it sounds absolutely hilarious, but I'm in a state of Zen. Right. Just waiting for disaster to befall...



Shall squirm under a rock...




" Shepherd's pie isn't made of shepherds.Unfortunately."

Friday

Its both Mrs Ong and Jacqueline Jie's birthday today. Happy Birthday! Yup.

Now that birthday wishes are settled, lets get on to the good stuff, ie. me ranting, raving and complaining about my own existence. What?!You're not interested? Haha. Ok. Its a Friday, so I'm in Lalaland already. Somehow, my brain functions in the most peculiar fashion on Fridays. I slept through one-third of Economics lecture, while I spent a good portion of Mathematics lecture staring into space. Yup. An absolutely productive way of engaging myself. I forgot to bring Whitby's stuff during Literature, which was unexpected, but he didn't really scold or make any too sarcastic comments. Was really fun, as usual. Geography was enlightening, as usual also, as Miss Ting is a wonderful teacher who can make people actually learn. That's the similarity between Whitby as well Miss Ting, they tend to motivate more than regurgitate information from the textbooks. Which is yeah, good, duh.

Hah. Just realised that my command of English is deplorable. I'm using ungrammatical sentences, with little sentence variation as well as convolution. This is all thanks to my esteemed General Paper teacher, who employs every available opportunity criticising the class. Like I told Boonie, I came most probably start a Zen meditation class at the end of the academic year. My certification? Surviving my General Paper teacher. Serious. Its an accolade of the highest order. Maybe, say, two stages away from attaining Nirvana. Amazing, isn't it? Haha. Oh, mustn't forget the use of semi-colons to vary my sentence structure.

Yet, I must admit that she is good for me. My General Paper teacher I mean. I'm now making a conscientious effort to shorten my sentences, as well the use of semi-colons. All I wish for is an A grade at the end of the year. Some may say that its difficult to achieve, but I have faith in my ability, as well as the various English teachers I've had since infancy. Especially my Dad. Yup. Can't let them down now, can I? Just realised what I can say for the URA scholarship interview, if I ever get there. Not telling. *sticks out tongue*

I'm bored... ...



"Don't bother trying to be like me; I'm already beyond the natural boundaries of a human being..."

Set

Its been a rather strange day today. I have no idea why. The weather is sweltering, there were loads of people on the bus, was almost late for assembly as we strolled form the grandstand to the parade square via the canteen route... It all seems pretty normal, but the fact is that there is this surreal feeling, like I'm not really in school, but more like drifting from place to place. Nothing particularly eventful occurred today, unless by eventful, we can consider the absence of Benzie Dio and me forgetting my Math lecture notes for normal distribution. Really. Oh, and I was supposed to attend the make-up dance session. Other than that... Its as if I'm not really alive. More like, a presence. Yup. I don't mean this in a negative sort of way, rather, there's this... quality. I can't seem to be able to identify a single apt word or phrase to describe the true depth of the experience. Its like trying to explain the concept of happiness or the colour blue to a person born blind. What is it? Its a sensory feast thats on a very basic, instinctive level that is derived from our experience of the human world. maybe happiness feels different to everyone, I would never know, and we are unable to transfer this awareness to another person. Its that simple, yet so utterly complex.

Did CIP at KK Hospital today. Played board games with the children. It was an enriching experience, how all children, regardless of race, language and religion, we all have a similar understanding of play. This may seem contradictory to what I have just typed, but honestly speaking, I find that paradoxes are an integral part of our lives. The most ironic thing is often the most common, most applicable truth to our reality. Why is this the case? I'm not some philosopher like Socrates. I'm just an ordinary person on the street. Haha. Didn't go for Genshiken, although I did set work for the juniors. Told them to sketch out their costume, with all the movable parts attached. Haha. Shall check out their work, I seriously hope they did it.

Seems to me that this year's Cosfest will be early. Dang it, clashes with Kaen's camp stuff. Irritating. I wanna go with her. With her around, there's never a dull moment. I'm not sure if I mean it in a good way or a bad way. Serious. Not sure what kind of effect she has on people, but thats the kind of feeling I get from Kaen. Am I weird? Cause I just realised that there is absolutely no real guy that I like. Honest. I'm mad over anime/manga characters, male duh, yet in the real world... Some people say that I'm lesbian. Which is so untrue. I like girls in a purely platonic, friendly, gal-pal kind of way. Not the... yeah. Not in that that way. Oh. My boarding house expanded. There are now 4 people, namely Atobe, Hyde, Kaname and, yes, Kurei. I know. He hasn't left. I really tried. I did. But he wouldn't go. Wait. More like I kinda wouldn't let him go. Haha.

Right. I need to mug for a Human Geography test tomorrow. See ya.



"Its better to regret having done something than to have regret not having done it."

Hurt

Its weird how every time school starts after the holidays, the first day back is bound to totally suck. I'm serious. Today is an excellent example. GP was simply awful. The teacher, whom I shall not name, slammed all Arts stream students. I mean, she said, not once, nor twice, but four times, that she was 'horror-struck" to discover that her class consisted of near fifty percent Arts students. After that, she went on to 'assert' her argument by stating how Science students are logical, rational, methodical... Implicitly implying that Arts students are not. In colloquial terms, she was implying, not so subtly, that Arts students 'anyhow whack' without consideration of structure. Wow. How completely thoughtless. I suppose we can sue her for making discriminatory comments. I understand its normal to have a preference, but to the point where you address your class, half of which are from the Arts, making statements like these, is asking for trouble. Serious. An added motivation to prove her wrong, all to spite her...

I'm awfully sleepy. the medication prescribed by the sinseh was supposed to help me sleep better, yet... I'm not. I fall asleep way faster, but thats the only benefit so far. I still wake at the weirdest hour, and still combat fatigue in class. Sighx. I still have the bruises from the treatment on Saturday. it was pretty freaky to hear from the sinseh that I'm slightly anemic, have low blood pressure and back problems. She said I have a 65-year-old old woman's back! Argh. So I need treatment now if I don't want to suffer terribly in the last 40 years of my life. It made me feel really insecure. i mean, I'm not a really enthusiastic, professional dancer, yet my back is... poorly. What about dancers like my seniors, friends etc., who have been dancing since they were toddlers? Its inevitable to sustain injuries, so whats the status of their body? Hmm.

On a way lighter, more superficial note, my current favourite Laraku song is twinkle,twinkle and My Dear. Ok. I know its 2 songs. But its really AMAZING! Hyde can totally sing! The depth and range... Sighx. I'm intoxicated and drunk on it already. The really sad thing... which I think everyone knows by now, is that I can't possibly attend their concert! ARGH! Heart-broken... Oh well. I want more of their songs! There seems to be quite a number which I have yet to listen to. Yup. All I have heard are the more recent, more popular ones. The quest is now on for ALL songs! Haix. My brother is so going to scream at me for flooding iTunes with Japanese songs. Haha. I, however much yelled at, is fully aware of the fact that he listens to my songs, in secret of course. despite all his claims that I have horrible music taste, the truth is he doesn't really mind Laraku. in fact, I think he likes a few of their songs. Heehee. Oh. Duck. I want the song. I'm serious. I'm totally in love with Dir En Grey's Raison D'etre! I want! I want! Please? Arigatou!

I need to lose weight. No, its I need to lose fat. I have some 25.5% body fat, which is too much for my lifestyle. A cosplayer has to be lithe, not carting chunks of spare tyre, wobbly humps and other fat-related excess around. Have to get into shape for Tyki and Aoi. Both are like, lean and charismatic (I know, I know, why the hell am I doing such tough characters?! I'm not even remotely cool...), which equates to fat loss and more muscles. I'm so totally trying to make my life way more difficult... Haha. Oh well...

Shall leave to suffer in the hands of sadistic PE teachers...



"Pain in temporal, honour is forever...'

Screech

I like peanut butter. I like the nutty taste, the cloying texture, the way its really yummy... Ahh, sheer bliss. Its one of the few things in life that I truly enjoy, ranking among them reading manga, sleeping, listening to good music. Peanut butter is a form of earthly paradise. Haha.

I'm kinda exhausted. Had a rather hectic-ly boring day. There's dance tomorrow - at RGPS as our school hall is unable to be used, so we have to report at 8.15am. Urgh. The school is so concerned about the 'facilities', that the administration is sacrificing the study environment of the students to get the performing arts theatre ready for 'our enjoyment'. What a load of nonsense. We all know its for showing off during College Day, so why bother? Making a good impression on the various big shots is important, but what about the students? Those at the back of the Hall can hardly see the screen due to the flat surface. There's a reason why lectures are held in elevated theatres. I'm totally disappointed. All these are after the mention of the mainstream students as 'late-developers' during mass assembly. Hello? In the 'outside world', late developers is an euphemism for people with learning disabilities, usually due to genetics. Its an open secret that we are 'second-class', but could they at least be more subtle? Its extremely irritating, considering the fact that in quite a few ways, we are no worse than the 'kids', rather, we are as good, if not better, due to our added exposure to the big bad world. Urgh.

Shall not bother. I love AWAKE. Really listened to it. Laraku is simply amazing. Now, if all music was like that, I'll be spoilt for choice. Really really spoilt for choice. Haha. Its soothing, erratic, new, vibrant... Wait, I'm like practically stringing words together. Lousy adjectives. Its insufficient to describe the plethora of emotions, sensations all engulfing me. As you can see, I'm mugging for SAT vocabulary, haha. I really want to attend their concert...

Why do I bother? I'm sick and tired of it. Its pointless, irritating, infuriating, and does not contribute to my sense of accomplishment, personal fulfilment... I'm not talking about the SATs. Nor JRock. Yup. Its not your fault, its just that sometimes, I get upset over things that should have ceased to matter. Looks like I've yet to emerge anew from the experience. Ok. This is becoming an extremely random paragraph. There's something wrong with iTunes in my computer. Error every time I try to play a song, which is driving me up the wall. how in the world am I suppose to listen to Hyde... *cries*. Oh well. CD player. Ah. I think I'm tired. This paragraph has practically zero cohesion. All the random, unconnected thoughts are just being inserted into the box. This is bad. Umm. Need to go to bed soon. Is being tired a recurring theme here? Cause for concern. Shall have to consider. Breakfast at Shunfu tomorrow. Towel has to be hanged to dry. I seriously need to log off. Ophelia is now playing in my head, the strains of Hyde's voice lulling, seducing me to sleep. Gosh.

Laughing my little head of in Lalaland...



"Up or down, it doesn't matter, what matters is that you actually MOVE."

Wrong

Damn it. I'm looking for Dir En Grey's Raison D'etre, but I can't seem to find it online. I can't buy music, duh, I don't have a credit card, and the only bloody place that seems to stock a respectable JRock collection in Singapore is HMV. The Humongous Money-sucking Villain. Yup, that's because the prices of the CDs are so expensive, they make shipping from Japan seem really tempting. I really want to support my artists, but not the bloody middleman! I completely understand that firms are trying to profit maximise, duh, I take Economics, although my grades kind of suck, but that does not mean you earn some 75% of the CD! Its immoral! I will gladly attend the concerts of the band, cause I know they make money out of it. Hey, they entertain me, provide me with comfort, give me something to talk to people about... I don't mind paying them. Serious. If there was a viable solution to borrowing CDs, I'll gladly subscribe to it.



Laraku has a couple of new songs. I Wish, Drink It Down and some other remix. The Drink It Down MV seems really interesting, I previewed it from their site, and Hyde has a new hairstyle. Again. Longer, wavy hair now. Similar to Kamidjo, from Versialles, hair, but more low maintenance, more conventional. Will be out on April 2nd. Guess Ist April is a bad day, being April's Fool and all. Oh. Realised that Laraku really likes to use Caucasians in their MVs. Its as if I've never seen MVs that are filmed with traditional Japanese influences. Its kinda sad, but strangely fits them. Oh yeah. I like Tetsu. He is totally adorable. His smile is the kind of smile little boys give. So irresistable. Still can't believe that Hyde has the same birthday as Dad, I have the same birthday as Yukihiro, Tetsu and Atobe are born on the same day (yes, I know they are practically from two different planets) and Ken and my maternal grandmother share the same birthday. What a total coincidence! The HYDE Live tour will be from August to October this year, which is like, only 2 months after Trans Asia Via Paris Tour. Their Theatre of Kiss Tour just ended sometime 2 weeks ago. Dang, I really wanna go see them. It would be completely enjoyable...



Its pretty late now. I actually have loads of stuff to say, and photos of Matsuri to upload, but I'm seriously too lazy, tired, and bored, to do it. Will most probably upload them on Friday, Good Friday. Public holiday to catch up on sleep, homework, blog etc... It is a serious affair.



In a weird mood now. Think its the hour. Late. Or early, depending on how you look at it. Sleepy.

Shall leave... I have no idea why I just put up photos of Byakuya. The last picture is the poster in my room. I really have no idea, its not like he's remotely near my internal boarding house. Really. And so many... something is seriously wrong with me today. Shall leave, take medicine, check into Woodbridge...



"An exercise in futility... So why do you bother?"

Laugh

Should I apologise for leaving this site to fester in cyberspace for the past 2 months? Oh well. At least I have returned. Cue evil laughter. Its kind of interesting how being a second-year student still feels so freakingly similar to being a first-year. Other than the very obvious fact that the 'A'- Levels AND SAT is this year, both of which I have yet to really sit down and study, the rest is the same. Still have a hectic schedule, a lousy CCA, wait, make that one and a half, flunking Economics, hating Physical Education... Yup. Same old. Same old. Its the March holidays, although judging by the amount of homework, coupled with the tests lined up immediately after, you would think the teachers all thought that students have 48 hours in a day. I'm serious. The amount of Literature homework I have is astounding. Its freaky what they can make you do without having to slog their guts out to mark it. Urgh. I have to finish the Mthematics tutorial package, now thicker as we have covered more topics, a mountain of Literature homework which I am too lazy to describe, studying for Physical Geography test and SAT, SAT application details, 2 Economics essays and 2 case studies. Yuck. Is this going to become a homework journal?

I'm stuck at part 2/3 of Saiunkoku Monogatari. Yes, go ahead and laugh you evil people. My rate of progress is so amazingly slow that I think I'll be 20 years old by the time I finish watching the bloody series. Did I mention that there's a second series? Yup. Screwed. I realised that in Term 1, you're rushing to complete assignments. In Term 2, you're rushing to complete already late assignments. When Term 3 arrives, you only do assignments which are for the first 2 periods of the day. In Term 4, you ignore all assignments and just revise. Yup. Its comforting to know that there is a semblance, albeit a pathetic one, of a certain pattern of behaviour. How nice. Right. I wanna finish up Devil May Cry. I wanna finish Saiunkoku series 1 and 2. I wanna watch Vampire Knight. I want all the bloody exams to end. NOW. Which is unlikely to happen. Sighx. I shall go back to my suffering.

From my boarding house, I kicked out... Earl Tyki Mikku from D.Gray-Man. Yup, so he needs a home, and anyone who wants him is free to adopt him at zero charge. Similarly, I'm trying to extract Kurei from the boarding house, although he is extremely stubborn and absolutely refuses to move out. So anyone with a forklift (to remove his belongings), a fireman suit (flame caster, remember?), and nerves of steel is welcome to forcibly yank him from said boarding house. I must warn that he has an awful temper, an inability to not communicate with sarcasm, and is devilishly hot. So please, come and adopt him. I'm clearing space simply because its getting overcrowded, I mean, Atobe, Hyde, Kaname, Tyki, Kurei and Teru?! Thats not to mention the occasional extra people who bunk over, like Gackt, Tetsu, Yukimura... You get the drift. How can I possibly deal with so many pets... umm... kids... umm... attention-seeking parasites... whatever, all at one shot? Its simply not good for health. Yup. So I'm giving them away. Well, those that can be evicted. Without too much bloodshed. Tyki left surprisingly easily. He sort of went, grinning, but I'm afraid he'll come back next year. Hopefully, either I've renovated the boarding house to accommodate more people, or I throw... err... send more away. Nagging suspicion that no matter how much I expand the boarding house, it won't be enough. Arghx. Too many unreal guys. Now, why can't I get to know... Damn it. You didn't read anything.

Smiles.



" Love isn't as great as everyone says it is."

New

First post of the year! Wow, I know I got started pretty late into the year, but hey, better late than never! Lots of things have happened, cosplayed as Suzumiya Haruhi during CCA carnival for Genshiken, I know its pretty shocking as I don't precisely resemble her, but whats done is done, and they said it wasn't half-bad. New timetable, which gives me 2 free periods, but I have PE every Monday and Thursday at the unearthly hour of *gasp* 3pm. Utterly disgusting. Have to run in the hot sun... And the PE teacher's this crazy woman who wanted us to run... *GASP* 6 rounds! On the first PE session! After slacking for the entire holidays! Evil! Evil! I'm now the Economics rep for Ms Lee, did it because I need motivation to stay wawke ALL the time. I mean, you can't possibly be nodding off in class if you happen to be the rep right? So yup, must be exam-focused and exam smart! lessons are centered around A02, which is more boring than I thought. Wait, I thought it would be fun to see your classmates all the time! I guess I'm used to talking to different people all the time, so now that I'm restricted, its sort of weird. I miss my GP classmates and Mr Whitby especially, followed by the A01 students. Its actually weird to see so many A02 students in my lessons. I suppose I was usedto only seeing them during meals and after school...

Watching Saiunkoku still, as well as a bit of the usual HYDE stuff. No longer particularly interested though. I guess its because school has started officially, and all the school stuff cancels out the LAraku stuff. Sighx. Talk about temporal. Still having problems extracting myself from real nice songs, but I'm now mainly only interested in the TV talk shows where there are more interesting things. I mean, we all know that HYDE changes his hair style the way some people change their clothes, but whatever. Now its no longer a must, more like a would-be-good. Yup. Not sure what picture to use already, nothing new nowadays. Wait, I take that back. there are lots of new things, but none that I'm particularly interested in, nor easy for me to post it up here. There's this sense of dread in the atmosphere, and the fact that I'm doing Heart of Darkness for Literature is sort of a sympathetic background. I don't know.A sense of loss? Gloom? I'm not even sure why, but I do know that I'm not happy. Its that simple. I doubt its because I'm not in the Aristal 3 dance, although that certainly has a role to play. It shouldn't be the fact that I'm taking both the SAT as well as the A Levels this year, with lots of research for registration needed for the SAT. I'm not sure if its the knowledge that this will jolly well be the last time I'll be able to be a kid, and sheltered from reality. All? None? What do we know, and what do we think we know? What is important, and what is merely some label, some conceived idea of importance? What is real, and what is a pre-conceived misconception? When people are given the same instructions, different results are achieved, so what does that tell us about the reality that we see? So many questions, some with no answers available, some with answers we will only receive at the very end. Its so amusing that our existence is so short, weak, frail and negligible, yet the things created, things destroyed, things untouched are so minor to us. Who are we?

Maybe I should do KI... Or maybe philosophy...



"I want to be able to create something, to affect something, to change something... I want to be the center of someone's existence..."

Gah

Shoot. School starts in 4 days. Gah. So icky! What happened to all my time! My holidays! My junior college days! Out of the window with the bathwater! Ok. I have a ton of school work left, the same culprits, Economics essay, Economics research, General Paper article and the TNC research for Human Geography. Yup. And here I am swooning over the bishounen of Saiunkoku Monogatari! Haha. Indeed. I've dumped Kurei for the Saiunkoku bishies! I know Kaen's shocked that I dumped her 'brother' after the long loong looong period of emotional attachment, but hey, we gotta move on! :) Anyhow, its a really amusing show. Its sorta like the modern Fushigi Yuugi, without the irritating Miaka-like characteristics in the main female lead and the lousy Tamahome-like habits in the main male lead. The lead female's real cool and super smart, like your modern day beauty-and-brains combo in period Chinese attire, while the main male lead's hilarious. Honest. He actually gave the girl a voodoo doll as a present! He said, and I quote, "The straw doll carries my affections for her." LOL. Oh. Did I mention that the guy is bisexual? Yup. He started out as a gay, he's a king by the way... Imagine, a gay king who has public trysts with the officials of his court!... Yet became smitten with the girl (typical shounen-ai, but in this case I like the girl too, so I shall forgive him), so he's bisexual! Goodness. The guy isn't the I-wanna-smack-him nor the hot-bishie kind of male character, but the oh-man-he's-so cuute! type. So the show is definitely must-watch. The side characters totally fill the screen as well. There's the seriously funny to the seriously weird, the playboy to the big brother. You can totally pick and choose, and the best part is, they are all bishies! *KYAAH*

On the topic of bishies, I got my hands on KISS! No, I wasn't kissed by anyone (thank goodness), but I'm now the proud owner of L'Arc-en~Ciel's album, KISS. Yup. It has Seventh Heaven, My Heart Draws A Dream, Daybreak's Bell, Link among other songs, and to make this album even better... *drumroll please*... there's a Laraku sticker! This is on top of a perfectly cool lyrics book, there were loads of photos! Wow. Definitely worth it. Good thing I use a CD player, so I could listen to it immediately. Imagine the agony of those who have to wait to go home, turn on their computers before thye upload it to their iPod to play. I'm not saying that an iPod is lousy, oh no cause i want an iPod as well, but sometimes, a CD player can be plenty useful too. :)

Okie. I'm going to face up to the reality that I'm never really going to blog about the Tianjin trip. I mean, its too much effort for a lazy person like me with super selective, and short memory. So what I'm going to do is just make random references in my blog whenever it suits me or when I remember something which is suitable for the context of my post. Yup. Furthermore, I'll be setting up a Tianjin photo album, there are some kinks that I can't figure out the Shutterfly account, and I'll add the link the way I did with the cosplay photos add the links section of the blog. That should do. So go take a look-see :)



"I am not heartless, I merely gave my heart away to someone who never returned it to me.

Eve

Okay. I admit I'm all out of excuses as to why I have not been blogging recently. I could say that I was buried under a mountain of homework, and I still am, but it wouldn't be the absolute truth. As I discovered while talking to Kaen at Toa Payoh's Koufu the other day, I'm really really good at twisting the truth. I won't ever lie outright, that is so totally passe and reeks of a lack of respect for others, but I don't mind twisting it. Yup. Some people say that twisting the truth is lying, but I don't agree. There is a world of differnce between saying a bowl of hot soup is warm and cold. One is an opinion that depends on how many of your lip cells are dead. The other is lying. Argh. So I shall just admit to being a lazy girl. Ho hum.

Alrighty. I have uploaded most of the cosplay photos! I couldn't bring myself to upload all 20 of the yaoi Ginta-Phantom photos from EOY 2007, but all the Prince Of Tennis Cosfest 2007 photos are up. I have also uploaded a couple of the Tianjin photos, only abot 50 of the 300 odd photos that I took, and these are all in the public album. Yup. So sorry, but I have to lock the cosplay photos. There is absolutely no way I am going to allow my cosplay photos to be accessed publicly. Maybe after a few years I'll unlock them, but for now... I'm not going to let everyone see my lousy first attempt. Its really sad that I only started cosplay this year. Realised that I'm pretty good at pretending to be someone else. Although I don't really look like the character. Sighx.

Frustrated. Next year is A-Levels. Time really flies. Even when you are not having fun. Its the end of the year. Today is Christmas Eve, yet all I feel is this sense that time just ticks away. Really terrible feeling. maybe its because its the end of the year. Sighx. I need to bath. Shall leave...



"Tick-tock... goes the grandfather clock..."

Strike

Yeech. My alimentary canal has been on strike for the entire week. Serious. I came back from China, full of energy, bouncing around, annoying the Hell out of all my relatives, my Dad in particular, with my enthusiasm to be back in Singapore and stories from China. The next day, WHAM! I was vomiting once every 15 minutes, and having diarrhoea at the same time to boot! Considering that I vomited around once every 15 minutes, and made a run for the toilet around once every 20 minutes... I'm sure you can easily calculate that there were a few inconvenient moments where I was doing both at the same time. Super yuck. The stupid doctor gave me medication to swallow when I went to him... When I can't even swallow my own saliva! Can some other more qualified doctor, or one with COMMON SENSE examine HIS HEAD!? I told him, I told him, that I felt an injection would be better, but NOOOO, he couldn't just give me an injection without trying medication first. What nonsense! I had to lose more fluids, suffer for another 5 bloody hours before he gave me the injection. And when you are vomit once every 15 minutes, 5 hours is one heck of a long time. Oh. Did I mention that the opening hours of his clinic is 8am to 12pm, then 3pm to 5.45pm? Hello? Aren't your consultation hours a little bit... umm... short?

I'm still a little ill, overall still abit weak anf flu-ish, while my food intake has been drastically reduced by my now chicken-feed appetite. I'm serious. Those who know me know that I'm forever complaining that I'm hungry, well, now i often feel like puking after eating anything more than 10 mouthfuls, and it can sustain me for about 5 hours. I'm not joking. So now I can no longer dispose large quantities of food into the black hole. Sigh. I miss eating already. Now I feel like one of those girls I always hated, the kind who says she's full after a couple of bites and can't even finish a plate of food. Well, now I'm one of them, not that I want to be like that... *grumbles*

Was suppose to start blogging about my Chaina trip, but I shall procrastinate, with ill health as an excuse *grins*. So please, wait a bit longer. Oh yeah, I'll set up a photobucket account so I can drop the 300 odd photos into it. I know. I went trigger happy. Made friends with 5 new IP kids. Haha. Quite adorable... except CERTAIN habits of theirs. Shall talk about that later...



"Hmm, just because I love you doesn't mean I won't hurt you. In fact, I think I'll enjoy hurting you..."

Anticipation

Oh my mother freaking God. I'm gonna be on the six hour flight back home tomorrow! Yippy! I'm going home to the tropics after being in a dry, breezy, cold climate for two bloody weeks. Ok, I have nothing against the cold, in fact, I LIKE the cold, but the seriously dry weather does loads of bad things to me. Firstly, it gave me a sore throat. Secondly, my arms and legs look scaly... Like fish scales. Terrible. Thirdly, my HAIR! Oh my goodness, my hair is so frizzy, so dry... ARGH. So awful. Okay, can't always dwell on the negative stuff. The only positive thing is that my skin is improving, at snail's pace but still... Thats as the weather's pretty dry, so if I avoid using moisturizer on my face (I know how scary that sounds), the oil is sufficient to give me acceptable skin. Yippy! Although I only realised this about a week into my trip. Yes, yes, I know how stupid that is. Ahh. Good skin. Something pretty difficult to achieve under normal circumstances. Haha.

I miss Daddy, Mummy, Kaen, Duck, Tianruo, Xiao Qiu, Xiao Clare, Huifang... ok, I admit that I miss my pesky little brother even. Argh. I miss lessons, I miss dancing... but I don't miss some people in Chinese Dance. Yup. Sorry, but this is my blog, so I'm not going to censure my dissent of certain members of my estteemed CCA. Displeased? Go read someone else's blog if you want pretty words laced with honey. Who do you think you are? I'm so not going to change because of you. well, unless you happen to be HYDE... KYAH!!!

Kaen... I miss you... Didn't find your pink Victorian brolly. Duh. No yellow wigs. yup. So how's your preparations as Ginta coming along? Well, I'll be back in Singapore tomorrow, so I suppose we can go shopping for Ginta stuff and, touch wood, Alice's stuff either in Monday afternoon or Tuesday. Yup. Thats because I have dance on Monday morning, Wednesday morning and Saturday morning. Yup. Chinese Dance CCa days are increasing because of next year's Aristal. Argh. My HAIR!!! Not long enough for Alice, duh, but its WAY too long for Tyki. How? I can't possibly cut my hair, or my coach will kill me after frying me in hot oil. I doubt I can clip it all up, and there is no way I can get a wig... So I'm sorta out of options. Yax. Help me? Please? Or I can go as your personal assistant... You know, take photos, take your bag, do your hair and make-up... Yup that also a feasible option. Consider?

Can't find a single L'Arc-en~Ciel CD. Its that bad. Urgh. Seems like I'll have to go to CD-RAMA to get HYDE"s Faith CD or, gulps, buy HMV stuff. I so do not think that its worthwhile to pay 70 bucks to buy a couple of songs, while I'm not inclined to ripping works of art. Hmm. So what shall I do to satisfy my craving...

"I'm going home... I'm going back to where it all began... I'm going back to the place where I can be who I am..."