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Two Hurt By Deluhi
RULES:
1. Post the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal.
4. Go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5. NO TAG BACKS
1) I like to talk to inanimate objects. Among them are, in no particular order, :
a. My Bento (I really like talking to computers. I like scolding them too.)
b) My darling (Yes, I snuggle and talk to it. So bite me.)
c) My Chocolate (Especially when the earpiece cable refuses to be detected.)
d) My clothes. (Yes. I do.)
If I say anymore you'll start laughing, so I shan't continue.
2) I like dark chocolate. I really really really like dark chocolate. 'Nuff said.
3) I'm very particular about my choice of words. Stop automatically elevating your status to 'friend' when you're only an 'acquaintance'.
4) The longest I've ever waited for someone is 4 hours. Wanna know who has that dubious honour?
5) My favourite subject is English Literature.
6) Which is why I have no idea why I'm studying Business.
7)I need to be fed to be kept happy. I particularly like Famous Amos and Japanese food as bribes.
8) I think this is a waste of time, but I did it any way.
Tagged:
Anyone and everyone who reads this?
Saturday, 29 August 2009
Friday, 28 August 2009
幸せの為に
プァーイリスト
リヴィングデッド Deluhi 製
よかった！
あの人は全然知らない。
知ったら、私たちの友情。。。私の世界。。。意味がない。
あの時の幸せ感じ、私は忘れたない。
私たち幸せの為に、私は絶対に言いない。。。
有難う。
全部破壊くても。。。
私は幸せですよ！
寂しいの時、
落ち込んだの時、
怒っているの時。。。
あなたは常に私の重要力。
有難う。
“醒めぬ眠りに落ちても。。。怯えることはないから。。。思い出せない”
リヴィングデッド Deluhi 製
よかった！
あの人は全然知らない。
知ったら、私たちの友情。。。私の世界。。。意味がない。
あの時の幸せ感じ、私は忘れたない。
私たち幸せの為に、私は絶対に言いない。。。
有難う。
全部破壊くても。。。
私は幸せですよ！
寂しいの時、
落ち込んだの時、
怒っているの時。。。
あなたは常に私の重要力。
有難う。
“醒めぬ眠りに落ちても。。。怯えることはないから。。。思い出せない”
Monday, 24 August 2009
Claws
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Ajisai by SID
I bet she took me for a fool. Sauntering up to me and pretending to be all nice and familiar. As if we were long lost best friends. DAMN YOU BITCH. You're an affront to my senses. I wouldn't even bother trying to regurgitate what I ate. I mean, its only going to hurt my body. Sorry darling, but you are so totally not worth it. Not like you can tell though. I'm always smiling and polite. I'd never ever tell you that you're that scheming fat bitch who ruined a good two years of my life. I mean, whats the point? You'd most probably win people to your side with your wealth and looks. And I'm not bothered enough to try and convince the whole world that you're bloody shit. Heck, no way am I going to compete when I'm all set out to lose to you! I'm not stupid. I'll bide my time. You don't have to physically torture people. You don't have to plant a stupid flag in the middle of the room and draw a line demarcing territories. We aren't animals sugah. We'll claw each other where no one can see the wounds and continue with our stage faces. Yeah. I'm a bitch too. All thanks to you, I'm slightly vindictive, cynical, skeptical and oh-so-very mean. In short, I'm a bitch too. Oh no, not a full time Mean Girls type. Rather, I'm the type who's a closet bitch. You know, the type that does you little favours and throws you headfirst into the well with a rock attached when its high tide? Yeah. I'm that type that you cant really tell if its friend or foe. Isnt that wonderful? Life just got so much more exciting. I promise to stab you in the back when you're not looking. I'll even dispose of you while you're down and out. Yeah. I learnt this from you. Aren't you glad? You're the reason why I'm like this. Be honoured.
Oh. Shall I stop here? I shan't let the whole wide world see what an awful person I am. Then again... I'm what you make of me no?
"If you want loyalty, get a dog."
Ajisai by SID
I bet she took me for a fool. Sauntering up to me and pretending to be all nice and familiar. As if we were long lost best friends. DAMN YOU BITCH. You're an affront to my senses. I wouldn't even bother trying to regurgitate what I ate. I mean, its only going to hurt my body. Sorry darling, but you are so totally not worth it. Not like you can tell though. I'm always smiling and polite. I'd never ever tell you that you're that scheming fat bitch who ruined a good two years of my life. I mean, whats the point? You'd most probably win people to your side with your wealth and looks. And I'm not bothered enough to try and convince the whole world that you're bloody shit. Heck, no way am I going to compete when I'm all set out to lose to you! I'm not stupid. I'll bide my time. You don't have to physically torture people. You don't have to plant a stupid flag in the middle of the room and draw a line demarcing territories. We aren't animals sugah. We'll claw each other where no one can see the wounds and continue with our stage faces. Yeah. I'm a bitch too. All thanks to you, I'm slightly vindictive, cynical, skeptical and oh-so-very mean. In short, I'm a bitch too. Oh no, not a full time Mean Girls type. Rather, I'm the type who's a closet bitch. You know, the type that does you little favours and throws you headfirst into the well with a rock attached when its high tide? Yeah. I'm that type that you cant really tell if its friend or foe. Isnt that wonderful? Life just got so much more exciting. I promise to stab you in the back when you're not looking. I'll even dispose of you while you're down and out. Yeah. I learnt this from you. Aren't you glad? You're the reason why I'm like this. Be honoured.
Oh. Shall I stop here? I shan't let the whole wide world see what an awful person I am. Then again... I'm what you make of me no?
"If you want loyalty, get a dog."
Thursday, 13 August 2009
Hyotei MeMe
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Drive Me Wild by Kato Kazuki
This is the amazing meme that I stumbled upon. Hyotel love banzai! 100 questions! Took me near an hour, but BOY, was it worth every single minute I spent typing. I love Atobe-sama. Its a fact. HAHA. So here goes... Meet the hot boys of Hyotei Gakuen!
01- Atobe- "Aa~n? Say your name before me, at least." Yukino! *faints*
02- Oshitari- "Oh~ That's your name? Nice meeting you." Nice to meet you toooo~! *OMG!*
03- Akutagawa-"Oshi~ you look really perverted. You should be careful of him!" Ah~ Its ok! *Oshitari can be as perverted as he wants... JIROUUUUU~*
04- Mukahi- "100 questions seems tough for you..." Its ok, I've done more. *Wanna glomp Gakutoooo~*
05- Ootori- "We are happy to meet you. It may seem strange, but good luck." AWWW~ Thank you!
06- Kabaji- "Usu." Hello to you too :)
07- Hiyoshi- "...well, let us start the questions. Are you ready?" Sure!
08- Shishido- "Ready or not, we'll just start." No problems! *So eager nyah~*
09- Atobe- "Geez. And, say what your birthday is. I can think of a present for you maybe." November 24th!
10- Ootori- "Then do you know my birthday?" Valentine's Day. Lovely nyah~
11- Shishido- "Then what is your zodiac symbol? Oh, it's not like I have any interest or anything, ok?!" Saggitaurus. *Not your type no? BWAHAHAHA*
12- Oshitari- "Hey, how old are you going to be? If you don't want to say it out loud, you can tell me privately." 19! *I cant believe I'm older then them~*
13- Hiyoshi- "What's your blood type?" B+
14- Atobe- "There are some people out there who says my perfect hair style was ripped off Kikumaru but, you don't think so, right?" NO WAY! Atobe-sama is the MOST AWESOME!
15- Kabaji- "Do you like tall people?" You...You're TALKING???? Err. Yes.
16- Mukahi- "So, is your name real? If it has any meaning behind it, can you tell me?" It means... Err. Its a really really long story... You sure you have the patience to listen?
17- Akutagawa- "Oh~ Well, real name or fake name it doesn't change who you are~" *hugs*
18- Atobe- "Of course, I highly doubt you won't choose anyone besides me for this response, but who do you like in Hyotei?" ATOBE-SAMA OF COURSE! I kinda like Oshitari too... But Atobe-sama is Number One!
19- Ootori- "Do you have a website?" Yes!
20- Shishido- "Then, if it won't be a bother, will you put our questions on your site? Then you know...we seem more loved..." *blush*SURE! I will definitely share the Hyotei Love!
21- Oshitari-"What's wrong, Shishido? You're blushing. By the way, do you have costumes you would like for us to wear?" Huh? I like the Hyotei tennis attire just fine!
22- Oshitari- "I see, I see. : looking satisfied : I personally would like to wear a doctor's coat. And you can be my patient. I'll do your personal checkup." It isnt good to be too forward nyah~
23- Hiyoshi- "Oshitari-senpai, I'll seriously punch you...Hey, do you have anything you like to eat?" I love anything without chilli, bittergourd and with minimal fried onions and ginger.
24- Hiyoshi- "Then would you like to drop by after this? I know a good restaurant." Sure thing! We can go with everyone! *I wanna go with Atobe-sama!*
25- Akutagawa- "Woah~...we can't keep Waka on the side...Then, next time I'll nap with you! Can I?" Sure! *Jirou is like some cuddly cat or dog....*
26- Kabaji- " Usu!" ( translation- Probably a "no" ) Huh? Why not?
27- Atobe- "What? You understand Kabaji-language too? That's pretty good. Why don't you become Hyotei's manager? I'll welcome you here." I'm lousy at tennis you know... But I'm a schedule-freak, so SURE! *KYAH~!*
28- Atobe- "It's decided now. There're a lot of jobs, you know?" : grin : *faints at the grin*
29- Mukahi- "So, yea. Do you like other schools or something too?" Not really... Rikkai?
30- Mukahi- "...no! If you mingle with them, I don't know what will happen to you...Don't go anywhere, ok?" Rikkai cant be THAT bad... But I'd gladly stay with you guys!
31- Ootori- "By the way, what kind of clothes do you usually wear? For instance, at home?" T-shirt and shorts? *What are you implying, you naughty chouta-kun~*
32- Ootori- "Hyotei's school uniform is nice, but I like women who wear simple stuff. Next time, may I visit your house?" If you want to, I dont mind. *I wanna go Atobe-sama's house~*
33- Kabaji- "Usu..." Sure, Kabaji can come too~ *Cause then Atobe-sama will come!*
34- Shishido- "So, how did you find out about Tenipuri? Can you tell me?" Through Tezuka's seiyuu.
35- Oshitari- "Most people say that their first impression of us was pretty bad, but what did you think?" No way! I fell in love with Hyotei the moment I saw you guys!
36- Mukahi- "Don't tell me you cheered for other schools besides Hyotei at that time?" Eh. Rikkai. Fudomine. Fuji-kun... SORRY!
37- Hiyoshi- "Gekokujou (Supplanting one's superior). Shall we try that some time?" My tennis is AWFUL. So yeah, more practice would be ideal...
38- Atobe- "You, what kind of flower do you like?" Any flower thats still attached to a pot or the ground. I'm against cutting flowers.
39- Akutagawa- "You seem to ask similar questions, Atobe. During your birthday, she's (you're) going to spend time with me~"*I'm so sorry Jirou, but I dont think soooo*
40- Akutagawa- "Oh! What do you think we will become in the future? Personally, I want to be your husband." Eh?! *NO WAY. Being my pet is ok. I want Atobe-sama~!*
41- Oshitari- "What are you saying, Jiro? My future will be her (your) personal doctor!" If you want to~ Its not against the law or anything...
42- Shishido- "Are you guys having fun saying stuff like that...Anyway, going back to what I was saying, what do you do on your website anyway?" Its a personal blog plus an archive of my cosplay stuff...
43- Hiyoshi- "Seems like there are stuff like Seme, Uke, and dream novels out there."*HOW THE HELL DID YOU KNOW OF MY DRAFTS?*
44- Hiyoshi- "I don't have anything against it, but if you like it I don't mind." I see. Sure. Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. Yeah. *ATOBE-SAMA!!*
45- Ootori- "Are you getting a bit tired? I'm sorry. We're kind of excited having you join us." I'm not tired! I'm really happy to be doing this too!
46- Atobe- "Let's take a break. If you're tired, you should say so. Kabaji, bring tea." Thank you... *OMG! Atobe-sama~~~~*
47- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks!
48- Shishido- "Don't you think Atobe is really nice for some odd reason? It's so strange, it gives me the creeps..." Weird? I think its really sweet... *ATOBE-SAMA!~*
49- Mukahi- "Here's a question! Right in front of you is English Tea, Green Tea, and juice." Juice please. or English Tea.
50- Akutagawa- "Ah! Gakkun, that's not fair! Me too!" Do you want some?
51- Oshitari- "Hey, you guys are the most drunk right now...don't you think so?" Drunk on tea?
52- Atobe- "Besides, the only one who can say "drunk" in a sentence is me. Hey, get drunk at my beautiful skills." *faints internally!*
53- Hiyoshi- "Weren't we supposed to let her (you) take a break? Sorry, but feel free to relax." I'm fine... Thank you.
54- All- "Phew"*smiles*
55- Ootori- "Well, did you relax? Can we continue with the questions?" Of course!
56- Shishido- "Ok. Well, let's start. Do you have any favorite subjects in school?" Literature. Geography. I love learning languages...
57- Atobe- "I'm good at English, German, French, and almost anything. Want me to whisper something by your ear?"S-sure? *OMG!!!!! whisper A LOT of somethings please! Someone kill me! KYAH~!*
58- Akutagawa- "Do you cook? I would be happy trying something you make~ Can you make me something next time?" Sure! I like making desserts and pastries...
59- Hiyoshi- "What are your hobbies?" Reading. Listening to music. Translating. Cosplay...
60- Shishido- "Then, do you have any special talents? Like Choutarou's scud serve, which is pretty good." Special talent? Hmm. I'm really flexible, but I dont think thats a talent...
61- Mukahi- "What about something you just hate? I am rather weak on stuff that's bad for your heart." I hate being bored. And being lonely... *hints*
62- Kabaji- "Is there a reason why you like Hyotei?" Because you you guys!
63- Oshitari- "Got any habits?" HAHA. Many!
64- Hiyoshi- "Do you have a favorite season? Any reason why?" Winter! I get to wear different clothes!
65- Akutagawa- "Hey hey, have you cut class before?" Yes. A few times. SHHH!
66- Akutagawa- "Ohh~ Well, I cut a lot...I'm at the roof of the school usually so come over sometime!" Sure!
67- Atobe- "Do you have any pets?" Used to have fishes. I want a cat... *Jirou would be a nice pet tooo~*
68- Atobe- "I can make you my pet. There's no reason for you to reject."*OMG. I totally will agree to this! Like he said, no reason to object!* Ah~ *blush*
69- Ootori- "Then which do you like better, dogs or cats? I'm usually treated like a dog so it's kind of tough." I love cats more than dogs. But Chouta-kun is kawaii... *smiles*
70- Shishido- "Kind of hard to ask but, I'll ask. When was your first love?" Hmm. Shall I say this?
71- Kabaji- "Then...you've dated before?" You're talking! Nopes.
72- Hiyoshi- "From now on, please don't look at any males besides me?"Eh~ ?*NO WAY! I WANNA LOOK AT ATOBE-SAMA!*
73- Mukahi- "Ah. I don't like girls who wear a lot of make up. You're fine like this so don't do anything, ok?!" Sure!
74- Oshitari- "Yeah yeah...You know, I wanted to ask this question the most~" Sure!
75- Oshitari- "Here we go. Tell me your height, weight and 3 sizes~" Height is 167cm. Im now around 53kg... 3 sizes... Hmm. Shant tell you! ^^
76- Mukahi- "Yuushi, you have an eyes of a pervert..." *laughs* Its ok.
77- Atobe- "You shouldn't tell your 3 sizes to that idiot. The beast will end up returning to the his true form." I know... *Atobe-sama~~~~*
78- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks for the concern~
79- Ootori- "Let's leave these people aside, and let's have fun here." : smile : *I wanna stay with Atobe-sama~~~*
80- Ootori- "By the way, how do you spend your days off?" Blogging. Chatting online. Reading. Household chores. Out with friends...
81- Ootori- "Then if you're bored, will you go out with me? We can go anywhere you want." Okay!
82- Shishido- "Which do you like more? Anipuri or the manga?" Eh. EH. I CANT CHOOOSE!
83- Akutagawa- "Hey~ what do you think about Sakaki director?" One word. Cool.
84- Akutagawa- "He's a music teacher~ It may seem kinda strange, but he's a pretty good director. He teaches us well too. So, don't hate him, ok?" I like him actually.
85- Hiyoshi- "Do you think there're other sports besides Tennis that might suit us?" Sports? Not really. You guys can join Drama though.
86- Oshitari- "Do you think there's some one in here that might have a dark sided hobby?" You? *smiles* *closet PERVERT* * But I dont mind~~*
87- Mukahi- "What do you think Jiro dreams of when he's sleeping?" Of sleeping more?
88- Shishido- "Oh, I nearly forgot...it's almost time." Time for?
89- Ootori- "...It's a pity but, we had a lot of fun." Its over? *Atobe~~~~*
90- Akutagawa- "It's a promise, we're going to nap together!" Sure!
91- Oshitari- "If you don't want to be my patient, I can have you in a nurse's outfit." Hmm. I'll consider. ^^
92- Hiyoshi- "I would be happy if we can speak one to one some time. I would like to know about you more." Same here!
93- Mukahi- "You know...Um, nevermind. Come again anytime." Heehee. Sure!
94- Kabaji- "Usu." Usu too :D
95- Atobe- "Aa~n? What do you want from me?" Can I have a goodbye hug? *gets bricked the one million and one other fangirls*
96- Atobe- "...Sorry for making you stick around with us all the way here. Go home and sleep. Or you can't sleep alone?" : grin : *blush* I sometimes cant... *blush*
97- Atobe- "Uh huh, yeah yeah. Well, I'll see you...Ah? You're already the manager here." I'm hired? Woah!
98- Atobe- "I won't let you complain, got it?" Yes! Thank you Atobe-sama!
99- Sakaki- "You may go!" Woah! *where did he appear from?* Yes sir!
100- Before you go...Any final comments after finishing this? HYOTEI BANZAI!
OMG. I LOVE THE HYOTEI BOYS~ My face would be red if I could blush! I love Atobe. Seriously. I do. He's so amazing. And cute. And talented. What with the extremely aggressive natural play-style and all. I wanna meet his family actually. Maybe the manga can have sides about his family? It should be mind-blowing awesome-ness!
"HYOTEI!"
Drive Me Wild by Kato Kazuki
This is the amazing meme that I stumbled upon. Hyotel love banzai! 100 questions! Took me near an hour, but BOY, was it worth every single minute I spent typing. I love Atobe-sama. Its a fact. HAHA. So here goes... Meet the hot boys of Hyotei Gakuen!
01- Atobe- "Aa~n? Say your name before me, at least." Yukino! *faints*
02- Oshitari- "Oh~ That's your name? Nice meeting you." Nice to meet you toooo~! *OMG!*
03- Akutagawa-"Oshi~ you look really perverted. You should be careful of him!" Ah~ Its ok! *Oshitari can be as perverted as he wants... JIROUUUUU~*
04- Mukahi- "100 questions seems tough for you..." Its ok, I've done more. *Wanna glomp Gakutoooo~*
05- Ootori- "We are happy to meet you. It may seem strange, but good luck." AWWW~ Thank you!
06- Kabaji- "Usu." Hello to you too :)
07- Hiyoshi- "...well, let us start the questions. Are you ready?" Sure!
08- Shishido- "Ready or not, we'll just start." No problems! *So eager nyah~*
09- Atobe- "Geez. And, say what your birthday is. I can think of a present for you maybe." November 24th!
10- Ootori- "Then do you know my birthday?" Valentine's Day. Lovely nyah~
11- Shishido- "Then what is your zodiac symbol? Oh, it's not like I have any interest or anything, ok?!" Saggitaurus. *Not your type no? BWAHAHAHA*
12- Oshitari- "Hey, how old are you going to be? If you don't want to say it out loud, you can tell me privately." 19! *I cant believe I'm older then them~*
13- Hiyoshi- "What's your blood type?" B+
14- Atobe- "There are some people out there who says my perfect hair style was ripped off Kikumaru but, you don't think so, right?" NO WAY! Atobe-sama is the MOST AWESOME!
15- Kabaji- "Do you like tall people?" You...You're TALKING???? Err. Yes.
16- Mukahi- "So, is your name real? If it has any meaning behind it, can you tell me?" It means... Err. Its a really really long story... You sure you have the patience to listen?
17- Akutagawa- "Oh~ Well, real name or fake name it doesn't change who you are~" *hugs*
18- Atobe- "Of course, I highly doubt you won't choose anyone besides me for this response, but who do you like in Hyotei?" ATOBE-SAMA OF COURSE! I kinda like Oshitari too... But Atobe-sama is Number One!
19- Ootori- "Do you have a website?" Yes!
20- Shishido- "Then, if it won't be a bother, will you put our questions on your site? Then you know...we seem more loved..." *blush*SURE! I will definitely share the Hyotei Love!
21- Oshitari-"What's wrong, Shishido? You're blushing. By the way, do you have costumes you would like for us to wear?" Huh? I like the Hyotei tennis attire just fine!
22- Oshitari- "I see, I see. : looking satisfied : I personally would like to wear a doctor's coat. And you can be my patient. I'll do your personal checkup." It isnt good to be too forward nyah~
23- Hiyoshi- "Oshitari-senpai, I'll seriously punch you...Hey, do you have anything you like to eat?" I love anything without chilli, bittergourd and with minimal fried onions and ginger.
24- Hiyoshi- "Then would you like to drop by after this? I know a good restaurant." Sure thing! We can go with everyone! *I wanna go with Atobe-sama!*
25- Akutagawa- "Woah~...we can't keep Waka on the side...Then, next time I'll nap with you! Can I?" Sure! *Jirou is like some cuddly cat or dog....*
26- Kabaji- " Usu!" ( translation- Probably a "no" ) Huh? Why not?
27- Atobe- "What? You understand Kabaji-language too? That's pretty good. Why don't you become Hyotei's manager? I'll welcome you here." I'm lousy at tennis you know... But I'm a schedule-freak, so SURE! *KYAH~!*
28- Atobe- "It's decided now. There're a lot of jobs, you know?" : grin : *faints at the grin*
29- Mukahi- "So, yea. Do you like other schools or something too?" Not really... Rikkai?
30- Mukahi- "...no! If you mingle with them, I don't know what will happen to you...Don't go anywhere, ok?" Rikkai cant be THAT bad... But I'd gladly stay with you guys!
31- Ootori- "By the way, what kind of clothes do you usually wear? For instance, at home?" T-shirt and shorts? *What are you implying, you naughty chouta-kun~*
32- Ootori- "Hyotei's school uniform is nice, but I like women who wear simple stuff. Next time, may I visit your house?" If you want to, I dont mind. *I wanna go Atobe-sama's house~*
33- Kabaji- "Usu..." Sure, Kabaji can come too~ *Cause then Atobe-sama will come!*
34- Shishido- "So, how did you find out about Tenipuri? Can you tell me?" Through Tezuka's seiyuu.
35- Oshitari- "Most people say that their first impression of us was pretty bad, but what did you think?" No way! I fell in love with Hyotei the moment I saw you guys!
36- Mukahi- "Don't tell me you cheered for other schools besides Hyotei at that time?" Eh. Rikkai. Fudomine. Fuji-kun... SORRY!
37- Hiyoshi- "Gekokujou (Supplanting one's superior). Shall we try that some time?" My tennis is AWFUL. So yeah, more practice would be ideal...
38- Atobe- "You, what kind of flower do you like?" Any flower thats still attached to a pot or the ground. I'm against cutting flowers.
39- Akutagawa- "You seem to ask similar questions, Atobe. During your birthday, she's (you're) going to spend time with me~"*I'm so sorry Jirou, but I dont think soooo*
40- Akutagawa- "Oh! What do you think we will become in the future? Personally, I want to be your husband." Eh?! *NO WAY. Being my pet is ok. I want Atobe-sama~!*
41- Oshitari- "What are you saying, Jiro? My future will be her (your) personal doctor!" If you want to~ Its not against the law or anything...
42- Shishido- "Are you guys having fun saying stuff like that...Anyway, going back to what I was saying, what do you do on your website anyway?" Its a personal blog plus an archive of my cosplay stuff...
43- Hiyoshi- "Seems like there are stuff like Seme, Uke, and dream novels out there."*HOW THE HELL DID YOU KNOW OF MY DRAFTS?*
44- Hiyoshi- "I don't have anything against it, but if you like it I don't mind." I see. Sure. Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. Yeah. *ATOBE-SAMA!!*
45- Ootori- "Are you getting a bit tired? I'm sorry. We're kind of excited having you join us." I'm not tired! I'm really happy to be doing this too!
46- Atobe- "Let's take a break. If you're tired, you should say so. Kabaji, bring tea." Thank you... *OMG! Atobe-sama~~~~*
47- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks!
48- Shishido- "Don't you think Atobe is really nice for some odd reason? It's so strange, it gives me the creeps..." Weird? I think its really sweet... *ATOBE-SAMA!~*
49- Mukahi- "Here's a question! Right in front of you is English Tea, Green Tea, and juice." Juice please. or English Tea.
50- Akutagawa- "Ah! Gakkun, that's not fair! Me too!" Do you want some?
51- Oshitari- "Hey, you guys are the most drunk right now...don't you think so?" Drunk on tea?
52- Atobe- "Besides, the only one who can say "drunk" in a sentence is me. Hey, get drunk at my beautiful skills." *faints internally!*
53- Hiyoshi- "Weren't we supposed to let her (you) take a break? Sorry, but feel free to relax." I'm fine... Thank you.
54- All- "Phew"*smiles*
55- Ootori- "Well, did you relax? Can we continue with the questions?" Of course!
56- Shishido- "Ok. Well, let's start. Do you have any favorite subjects in school?" Literature. Geography. I love learning languages...
57- Atobe- "I'm good at English, German, French, and almost anything. Want me to whisper something by your ear?"S-sure? *OMG!!!!! whisper A LOT of somethings please! Someone kill me! KYAH~!*
58- Akutagawa- "Do you cook? I would be happy trying something you make~ Can you make me something next time?" Sure! I like making desserts and pastries...
59- Hiyoshi- "What are your hobbies?" Reading. Listening to music. Translating. Cosplay...
60- Shishido- "Then, do you have any special talents? Like Choutarou's scud serve, which is pretty good." Special talent? Hmm. I'm really flexible, but I dont think thats a talent...
61- Mukahi- "What about something you just hate? I am rather weak on stuff that's bad for your heart." I hate being bored. And being lonely... *hints*
62- Kabaji- "Is there a reason why you like Hyotei?" Because you you guys!
63- Oshitari- "Got any habits?" HAHA. Many!
64- Hiyoshi- "Do you have a favorite season? Any reason why?" Winter! I get to wear different clothes!
65- Akutagawa- "Hey hey, have you cut class before?" Yes. A few times. SHHH!
66- Akutagawa- "Ohh~ Well, I cut a lot...I'm at the roof of the school usually so come over sometime!" Sure!
67- Atobe- "Do you have any pets?" Used to have fishes. I want a cat... *Jirou would be a nice pet tooo~*
68- Atobe- "I can make you my pet. There's no reason for you to reject."*OMG. I totally will agree to this! Like he said, no reason to object!* Ah~ *blush*
69- Ootori- "Then which do you like better, dogs or cats? I'm usually treated like a dog so it's kind of tough." I love cats more than dogs. But Chouta-kun is kawaii... *smiles*
70- Shishido- "Kind of hard to ask but, I'll ask. When was your first love?" Hmm. Shall I say this?
71- Kabaji- "Then...you've dated before?" You're talking! Nopes.
72- Hiyoshi- "From now on, please don't look at any males besides me?"Eh~ ?*NO WAY! I WANNA LOOK AT ATOBE-SAMA!*
73- Mukahi- "Ah. I don't like girls who wear a lot of make up. You're fine like this so don't do anything, ok?!" Sure!
74- Oshitari- "Yeah yeah...You know, I wanted to ask this question the most~" Sure!
75- Oshitari- "Here we go. Tell me your height, weight and 3 sizes~" Height is 167cm. Im now around 53kg... 3 sizes... Hmm. Shant tell you! ^^
76- Mukahi- "Yuushi, you have an eyes of a pervert..." *laughs* Its ok.
77- Atobe- "You shouldn't tell your 3 sizes to that idiot. The beast will end up returning to the his true form." I know... *Atobe-sama~~~~*
78- Kabaji- "Usu." Thanks for the concern~
79- Ootori- "Let's leave these people aside, and let's have fun here." : smile : *I wanna stay with Atobe-sama~~~*
80- Ootori- "By the way, how do you spend your days off?" Blogging. Chatting online. Reading. Household chores. Out with friends...
81- Ootori- "Then if you're bored, will you go out with me? We can go anywhere you want." Okay!
82- Shishido- "Which do you like more? Anipuri or the manga?" Eh. EH. I CANT CHOOOSE!
83- Akutagawa- "Hey~ what do you think about Sakaki director?" One word. Cool.
84- Akutagawa- "He's a music teacher~ It may seem kinda strange, but he's a pretty good director. He teaches us well too. So, don't hate him, ok?" I like him actually.
85- Hiyoshi- "Do you think there're other sports besides Tennis that might suit us?" Sports? Not really. You guys can join Drama though.
86- Oshitari- "Do you think there's some one in here that might have a dark sided hobby?" You? *smiles* *closet PERVERT* * But I dont mind~~*
87- Mukahi- "What do you think Jiro dreams of when he's sleeping?" Of sleeping more?
88- Shishido- "Oh, I nearly forgot...it's almost time." Time for?
89- Ootori- "...It's a pity but, we had a lot of fun." Its over? *Atobe~~~~*
90- Akutagawa- "It's a promise, we're going to nap together!" Sure!
91- Oshitari- "If you don't want to be my patient, I can have you in a nurse's outfit." Hmm. I'll consider. ^^
92- Hiyoshi- "I would be happy if we can speak one to one some time. I would like to know about you more." Same here!
93- Mukahi- "You know...Um, nevermind. Come again anytime." Heehee. Sure!
94- Kabaji- "Usu." Usu too :D
95- Atobe- "Aa~n? What do you want from me?" Can I have a goodbye hug? *gets bricked the one million and one other fangirls*
96- Atobe- "...Sorry for making you stick around with us all the way here. Go home and sleep. Or you can't sleep alone?" : grin : *blush* I sometimes cant... *blush*
97- Atobe- "Uh huh, yeah yeah. Well, I'll see you...Ah? You're already the manager here." I'm hired? Woah!
98- Atobe- "I won't let you complain, got it?" Yes! Thank you Atobe-sama!
99- Sakaki- "You may go!" Woah! *where did he appear from?* Yes sir!
100- Before you go...Any final comments after finishing this? HYOTEI BANZAI!
OMG. I LOVE THE HYOTEI BOYS~ My face would be red if I could blush! I love Atobe. Seriously. I do. He's so amazing. And cute. And talented. What with the extremely aggressive natural play-style and all. I wanna meet his family actually. Maybe the manga can have sides about his family? It should be mind-blowing awesome-ness!
"HYOTEI!"
Kazuki-san
Playlist
What Can Tonight bt Kato Kazuki
WOOHOO! I have Kato Kazuki's new album GLAMOROUS BEAT. I love the Internet. Ok. I'll dish the dirt. Kazuki-san is getting GOOD. I dont like using Kato-san, so he's Kazuki-san until I decide on his nickname. His name is too long. Back to the topic... Yeah. I'm serious. His vocal range has improved by quite a bit. You used to be able to hear him straining during the songs that required more range changes, but now he tackles it with ease. And he looks so cute on the album cover too! Yummy eye candy nyah~ Anyway! I like Mera Mera, What Can Tonight, Surreal na Beat de Nemuritai and Venom. Not bad, 4 songs in one album that I keep playing over and over again. What I truly liked about this album was the thought put into the sound and the lyrics. Not one song sounds like another song available in the music industry. And his lyrics were an awesome play on words. A prime example is What Can Tonight. The lyrics are available here. It is mostly a play on the sound and the meaning of the words. For example, 'what can tonight' when Japan-ised, sounds a whole lot like 'wakattanai', 'Don't say' sounds like 'douse' and 'Don't cry' sounds like 'don kurai'. In the context of the song, the actual lyrics are can easily be replaced by what is misheard. So cool huh? Oh yeah. Kazuki-san is now on his Drastic Glamour Tour. I am so absolutely jealous of the Japanes fans. They get him all to themselves.
Crashed a Japanese lecture on Wednesday. It was fantastic! I loved the lecturer, she was funny and very experienced. I now want the Japanese books and notes. Simply because I think I need the practice in order to be able to score for JLPT in December. I need the vocabulary too. And I think I need the confidence doing all those practices will give me. Yes, I signed up for JLPT yesterday. Submitting the form and making payment made me kind of depressed actually. I could hear and feel the chain I just attached to myself until the test. I can't fail. I can't I already failed my driving test. I failed myself during A Levels by doing so badly. I'm not doing particularly well in my Japanese class either. Its like, I'm being held back by something. I can read and understand, but I cannot construct my own sentences. Its a pressing problem. Its also a kind of failure. Which brings the total count to a lot of failures. No more. I won't fail. I can't afford it. Back to something more positive... I went to Viv's room in Eusoff. WOW. Your own place. I could feel it the moment I stepped in. Freedom. From the self that you were at home. From the self that you were created to fulfil by your parents. It was a moment, but I could feel it. Be it one semester, one term or an hour, I think it might have been worthed it. It might be painful when its taken away, but I feel that someone who gets a taste of paradise is better off than the person who has never experienced it.
I'm not sure if I'm in the right frame of mind. Things seem so... Strange recently. I think the problem lies in the perspective. Aka. Me. Its like. The things that mattered to me a while back no longer does. And those that still matter are now less important. The decisions that I thought were for the best seems like huge mistakes now. Was I being impulsive when I thought I was being all rational and logical? I think the self-doubt is one of the most terrible emtions out there. It creeps abehind you. Stalks your shadows. It makes you look back, makes you afraid of what you left behind. The worst part? It makes you fearful of that which lies ahead as well. Its crippling, to say the least. Twirling round and round, coiling around you. It isnt aggressive. Oh no. It makes you kill yourself. You die from the stress, the fear, the worries... You die from yourself. I try to drown it in music. In activities. In my friends... But it persists. Besides, how much can all these external help? The sense that you will never be free persists. The sense that every breathe you take is more shallow than the last... Until you finally collasped from suffocation. It isnt physical. Not something the doctor can just give medication for. They will treat the symptoms. Not the cause. The cause is there. In my skull. Where not even I can reach all the time... Sigh. I'm so useless.
"I can't believe in your love..."
What Can Tonight bt Kato Kazuki
WOOHOO! I have Kato Kazuki's new album GLAMOROUS BEAT. I love the Internet. Ok. I'll dish the dirt. Kazuki-san is getting GOOD. I dont like using Kato-san, so he's Kazuki-san until I decide on his nickname. His name is too long. Back to the topic... Yeah. I'm serious. His vocal range has improved by quite a bit. You used to be able to hear him straining during the songs that required more range changes, but now he tackles it with ease. And he looks so cute on the album cover too! Yummy eye candy nyah~ Anyway! I like Mera Mera, What Can Tonight, Surreal na Beat de Nemuritai and Venom. Not bad, 4 songs in one album that I keep playing over and over again. What I truly liked about this album was the thought put into the sound and the lyrics. Not one song sounds like another song available in the music industry. And his lyrics were an awesome play on words. A prime example is What Can Tonight. The lyrics are available here. It is mostly a play on the sound and the meaning of the words. For example, 'what can tonight' when Japan-ised, sounds a whole lot like 'wakattanai', 'Don't say' sounds like 'douse' and 'Don't cry' sounds like 'don kurai'. In the context of the song, the actual lyrics are can easily be replaced by what is misheard. So cool huh? Oh yeah. Kazuki-san is now on his Drastic Glamour Tour. I am so absolutely jealous of the Japanes fans. They get him all to themselves.
Crashed a Japanese lecture on Wednesday. It was fantastic! I loved the lecturer, she was funny and very experienced. I now want the Japanese books and notes. Simply because I think I need the practice in order to be able to score for JLPT in December. I need the vocabulary too. And I think I need the confidence doing all those practices will give me. Yes, I signed up for JLPT yesterday. Submitting the form and making payment made me kind of depressed actually. I could hear and feel the chain I just attached to myself until the test. I can't fail. I can't I already failed my driving test. I failed myself during A Levels by doing so badly. I'm not doing particularly well in my Japanese class either. Its like, I'm being held back by something. I can read and understand, but I cannot construct my own sentences. Its a pressing problem. Its also a kind of failure. Which brings the total count to a lot of failures. No more. I won't fail. I can't afford it. Back to something more positive... I went to Viv's room in Eusoff. WOW. Your own place. I could feel it the moment I stepped in. Freedom. From the self that you were at home. From the self that you were created to fulfil by your parents. It was a moment, but I could feel it. Be it one semester, one term or an hour, I think it might have been worthed it. It might be painful when its taken away, but I feel that someone who gets a taste of paradise is better off than the person who has never experienced it.
I'm not sure if I'm in the right frame of mind. Things seem so... Strange recently. I think the problem lies in the perspective. Aka. Me. Its like. The things that mattered to me a while back no longer does. And those that still matter are now less important. The decisions that I thought were for the best seems like huge mistakes now. Was I being impulsive when I thought I was being all rational and logical? I think the self-doubt is one of the most terrible emtions out there. It creeps abehind you. Stalks your shadows. It makes you look back, makes you afraid of what you left behind. The worst part? It makes you fearful of that which lies ahead as well. Its crippling, to say the least. Twirling round and round, coiling around you. It isnt aggressive. Oh no. It makes you kill yourself. You die from the stress, the fear, the worries... You die from yourself. I try to drown it in music. In activities. In my friends... But it persists. Besides, how much can all these external help? The sense that you will never be free persists. The sense that every breathe you take is more shallow than the last... Until you finally collasped from suffocation. It isnt physical. Not something the doctor can just give medication for. They will treat the symptoms. Not the cause. The cause is there. In my skull. Where not even I can reach all the time... Sigh. I'm so useless.
"I can't believe in your love..."
Monday, 27 July 2009
Extermination
Leave me alone.
I hate you.
There, I've said it.
So get lost.
I've had enough with your whimsical ways.
I'm not a pet. Nor a toy.
I HAPPEN to make decisions.
And decided to do this.
I hate you.
Yeah, I know what they all say.
Its true.
I loved you.
See the past tense asshole?
It means it was in the past.
Gone.
WHOOSH.
See ya.
I promise I'll be happy in my new life.
Without you.
I loved you.
So now.
I hate you.
The way I loved you more than anyone else.
I'll hate you more than anyone else too.
Yes.
I happen to be a Cusp Scorpio Saggi.
Blame it on karma darling.
Blame it on karma.
"We were never meant to be."
I hate you.
There, I've said it.
So get lost.
I've had enough with your whimsical ways.
I'm not a pet. Nor a toy.
I HAPPEN to make decisions.
And decided to do this.
I hate you.
Yeah, I know what they all say.
Its true.
I loved you.
See the past tense asshole?
It means it was in the past.
Gone.
WHOOSH.
See ya.
I promise I'll be happy in my new life.
Without you.
I loved you.
So now.
I hate you.
The way I loved you more than anyone else.
I'll hate you more than anyone else too.
Yes.
I happen to be a Cusp Scorpio Saggi.
Blame it on karma darling.
Blame it on karma.
"We were never meant to be."
Friday, 24 July 2009
Hectic
Playlist
Just Dance by Lady Gaga
I've been running around a lot recently. So much so that I'm now unwell. Sore throat. Plus fever. I hope I get well soon. Else. Yeah. It would be tough to miss my driving test. I highly doubt that they had allow me to drive if I was sick. Wish me good health and plenty of luck.
Anyway, this post is an update to explain why I have not been online and updating my blog for the last week or so. Activities are below, and listed according to how recent they are. The most recent right at the top. So dearies, you be the judge of whether I've been a busy little freshie. The way the last one week has been, I'd say it feels like my days are severely numbered. I'm dog tired. Dead beat.
1) Hejin's send off at the airport was yesterday night. Or rather, this morning. Her flight was at 3am in the morning and her current brought us there and sent us home too. Viv and I went, along with the brother of her secondary school friend, and a 'colleague' from work. Her mother was trying to make her stay until the last minute, but you could tell she was more or less aware that her daughter was leaving. Had a bit of baggage problems, but it was resolved, albeit involving the embarrasing act of opening your luggage for the whole world to peek. No crying, bawling nor sniffles. Just hugs all around. I think we were all well aware that this is unlikely to be the last time we meet. After all, there are so many question marks about the future. Its a small world, and yet, its a big one too. I think I'll miss Hejin as time goes by. She's not someone you can just forget with time. I want her to be happy and to do well in NY.
2) FTB round 2 at OBS was fun. And also boring. Fun as my group was weird. Efficient during the activities, we worked with a single-minded aim to complete the task. But leave us alone to ourselves for more then a minute? Silence. We'll talk to one other person. Or two. And maybe make a comment here and there. Disappear to the toilet. Stone. Its not too much to say that my group was reticent. Groupmates. Definitely. Friends. Maybe. Good friends? With a few possible exceptions? Nuh-uh. Its ok. I think its too early to give a very accurate analysis. We knew each other only for a brief 3 days. Hardly enough tme to decide that we want to journey to the beach to watch the sunset together. Wait. We were at East Coast Park! HAHA. Anyway, I've done most of the activities before. Slight variations, but essentially the same. Slept in a tent. 5 girls in a 3 man tent. We were liked sardines, barely able to move without hitting the person next to us. The guys, 7 of them, were split into two tents. Our group with its strenght og 12 was larger than average. Techna. Phantos. There were students from a variety of the faculties, although most are in LKCSB. After all, Biz school is the largest in SMU. I'd like to say more about my group, but the thing is, everything seems like a distant dream. All blurry and unclear already. Either the fever is messing with my head, or it really was not that that memorable. I have a nagging suspicion that its the latter. Nevertheless, I had a good time. Was covered in paint, salt water, soap, flour, camo cream and dirt. Laughed, cheered, screamed, bruised myself and navigated flooding toilets. And thus concluded FTB.
3) Hejin's farewell party. I went and saw first hand the foundation of the Hejin that I know. Her mother. They are so similar. Like two forces of nature. I can almost see the superwoman Hejin will turn into. Its there. Her mother is awesomely intimidating. simply because she uses her position as a friend's parent to her full advantage. I cannot insult her. I must maintain tact. I need to withstand her not so subtle knife thrusts and humour. In short, you can only play defensive to her offensive. A shrewd business woman indeed. She has the upper hand as the host and parent of someone important to you, and she bloody well knows it. Oh. Something notable. Viv ate fries. Huifang was there to witness it. I have photographic evidence too!
4) Harry potter and the Half Blood Prince. Yes, I watched it 3 days after it was released. Right before I went over to Hejin's house too. Immediately after sleepover. Boring. Slow. 'Nuff siad. Though I wasted some 4 hours of my life.
5) Sleepover! At HL's place. We played Bridge. Tried to teach Kaen Bridge. She is LOUSY. Watched 'Lina grope her Donald duck's butt. TR was TR. Played with soft toys. Discussed the difference between gays, tranvetites and the other non-common man in the street. Bullied each other. Had cake for breakfast. The photos are on Facebook. We made a lot of noise and slept and unearthly hours. I had loads of fun! If there's one thing I learnt, its not to try and teach Kaen card games that require multiple brain cells. You end up frustrated, tired, and resisiting the urge to commit homicide. I'm serious. Just ask HL. patience is in short supply.
"Breakaway and fly free..."
Just Dance by Lady Gaga
I've been running around a lot recently. So much so that I'm now unwell. Sore throat. Plus fever. I hope I get well soon. Else. Yeah. It would be tough to miss my driving test. I highly doubt that they had allow me to drive if I was sick. Wish me good health and plenty of luck.
Anyway, this post is an update to explain why I have not been online and updating my blog for the last week or so. Activities are below, and listed according to how recent they are. The most recent right at the top. So dearies, you be the judge of whether I've been a busy little freshie. The way the last one week has been, I'd say it feels like my days are severely numbered. I'm dog tired. Dead beat.
1) Hejin's send off at the airport was yesterday night. Or rather, this morning. Her flight was at 3am in the morning and her current brought us there and sent us home too. Viv and I went, along with the brother of her secondary school friend, and a 'colleague' from work. Her mother was trying to make her stay until the last minute, but you could tell she was more or less aware that her daughter was leaving. Had a bit of baggage problems, but it was resolved, albeit involving the embarrasing act of opening your luggage for the whole world to peek. No crying, bawling nor sniffles. Just hugs all around. I think we were all well aware that this is unlikely to be the last time we meet. After all, there are so many question marks about the future. Its a small world, and yet, its a big one too. I think I'll miss Hejin as time goes by. She's not someone you can just forget with time. I want her to be happy and to do well in NY.
2) FTB round 2 at OBS was fun. And also boring. Fun as my group was weird. Efficient during the activities, we worked with a single-minded aim to complete the task. But leave us alone to ourselves for more then a minute? Silence. We'll talk to one other person. Or two. And maybe make a comment here and there. Disappear to the toilet. Stone. Its not too much to say that my group was reticent. Groupmates. Definitely. Friends. Maybe. Good friends? With a few possible exceptions? Nuh-uh. Its ok. I think its too early to give a very accurate analysis. We knew each other only for a brief 3 days. Hardly enough tme to decide that we want to journey to the beach to watch the sunset together. Wait. We were at East Coast Park! HAHA. Anyway, I've done most of the activities before. Slight variations, but essentially the same. Slept in a tent. 5 girls in a 3 man tent. We were liked sardines, barely able to move without hitting the person next to us. The guys, 7 of them, were split into two tents. Our group with its strenght og 12 was larger than average. Techna. Phantos. There were students from a variety of the faculties, although most are in LKCSB. After all, Biz school is the largest in SMU. I'd like to say more about my group, but the thing is, everything seems like a distant dream. All blurry and unclear already. Either the fever is messing with my head, or it really was not that that memorable. I have a nagging suspicion that its the latter. Nevertheless, I had a good time. Was covered in paint, salt water, soap, flour, camo cream and dirt. Laughed, cheered, screamed, bruised myself and navigated flooding toilets. And thus concluded FTB.
3) Hejin's farewell party. I went and saw first hand the foundation of the Hejin that I know. Her mother. They are so similar. Like two forces of nature. I can almost see the superwoman Hejin will turn into. Its there. Her mother is awesomely intimidating. simply because she uses her position as a friend's parent to her full advantage. I cannot insult her. I must maintain tact. I need to withstand her not so subtle knife thrusts and humour. In short, you can only play defensive to her offensive. A shrewd business woman indeed. She has the upper hand as the host and parent of someone important to you, and she bloody well knows it. Oh. Something notable. Viv ate fries. Huifang was there to witness it. I have photographic evidence too!
4) Harry potter and the Half Blood Prince. Yes, I watched it 3 days after it was released. Right before I went over to Hejin's house too. Immediately after sleepover. Boring. Slow. 'Nuff siad. Though I wasted some 4 hours of my life.
5) Sleepover! At HL's place. We played Bridge. Tried to teach Kaen Bridge. She is LOUSY. Watched 'Lina grope her Donald duck's butt. TR was TR. Played with soft toys. Discussed the difference between gays, tranvetites and the other non-common man in the street. Bullied each other. Had cake for breakfast. The photos are on Facebook. We made a lot of noise and slept and unearthly hours. I had loads of fun! If there's one thing I learnt, its not to try and teach Kaen card games that require multiple brain cells. You end up frustrated, tired, and resisiting the urge to commit homicide. I'm serious. Just ask HL. patience is in short supply.
"Breakaway and fly free..."
Thursday, 16 July 2009
Divide
Playlist
New Divide by Linkin Park
I was eating ice cream last night. Eating ice cream and thinking about the things I'd done, things I am about to do, things I should have done and most importantly, the things that I want to do. They say that dreams are stuff we think of when we are sleeping and are just dreams, and others say that dreams are the stuff that keeps our reality from being too grim. I was thinking about my dreams. Or rather, the rather troubling lack of them. I do not have a 'real' dream. Like there is something that I must do before I die. Maybe its a sign of a privileged upbringing. Maybe its a sign of just how depraved I am to not have the slightest inkling of what I want. The absence and presence of anything distinct in my future has no real effect on me. When people start talking about their future career path, about their dream home, ideal wedding, preferred boyfriend qualities... My response is devoid of desire. I really have no idea. Its not that I never thought of it. I certainly have. I've tried creating possible outcomes. I've tried through the process of elimination. Nothing crops up. Everything disappears. Maybe my ideal is too far removed from the normal sphere of thought. Maybe.
I kind of hate myself. Because I know I've hurt my friends. One prime example is a perfectly decent person, which is why I can consider her a friend. I feel guilty everytime I see her because of what I did and what I did not do. I was one of those who contributed to her suffering. I did not stand up for what I believed in. In short, I was an accomplice in the act of bullying. Yes. Ugly, disgusting practice that occurs even in a class of young adults. I stopped. But the very fact that I was part of it for a moment makes my skin crawl when I think about it. I'm not friends with her because I pity her. I'm friends with her becuase I realised that she's an interesting, caring and responsible person. Among other less tangible reasons. I hate myself for hurting someone I like. Yeah, I definitely like her. Which is why I bother to listen to her, reply SMSes and all the things that you do when you care for someone.
I am about to embark on a journey that will change me as a person. I will meet new people, old accquaintences that I thought I left behind, and old enemies that I want to leave behind. I will see things that I had rather not see, and I will learn things that I have always wanted to know. I will gain things, and inadvertedbly lose things along the way. I may become someone I would hate now. I may very well turn into a pillar of exemplary conduct. HAHA. In short, I will change. If you see signs of me turning into this fugly monster snarling and snapping away, I hope you will correct my habits. I cannot promise that I shan't swear and try to rip you to shreds, but for the benefit of mankind... I do hope you understand.
This is a short post because I am in no mood for lenghty self analysis. If I look too hard at myself and my life, I am bound to find an entire wall of scratches, dirt, grime and all sort of nasty stuff. Its like straing at your reflection in the mirror. After the novelty of self-awareness is over, you start noticing the pimples. The scars. Messy hair. Slight irregularities here and there. And then you see a monster staring back at you in the mirror. Unpleasant experience. Yes, you can say that I have poor self-esteem. My ego is my weakness and strength. I can only be hurt by the people who matter to me. I could not care less about what the general human population thinks of me, but if my friends or family was to say I look fat or ugly... I think my world would come crashing down. HAHA. So the entire fiasco with my family? Yeah, talk to me and you can start to see the numerous scars. yes, I was badly hurt. Dragged through an emotional mill. Barbed wires, bazookas, bombs. Torn apart and hastily put back together for my final exams. I'm not surprised my grades are a mess. And the people responsible for it blame me for being afffected. Bloody hypocrites. I shall not dwell on this. Else I'll probably never end this post. Lets just leave it at the admission that I have not been happy since the day it all began.
"Loving someone makes you weak, but those who are truly strong knows that it is not true weakness."
New Divide by Linkin Park
I was eating ice cream last night. Eating ice cream and thinking about the things I'd done, things I am about to do, things I should have done and most importantly, the things that I want to do. They say that dreams are stuff we think of when we are sleeping and are just dreams, and others say that dreams are the stuff that keeps our reality from being too grim. I was thinking about my dreams. Or rather, the rather troubling lack of them. I do not have a 'real' dream. Like there is something that I must do before I die. Maybe its a sign of a privileged upbringing. Maybe its a sign of just how depraved I am to not have the slightest inkling of what I want. The absence and presence of anything distinct in my future has no real effect on me. When people start talking about their future career path, about their dream home, ideal wedding, preferred boyfriend qualities... My response is devoid of desire. I really have no idea. Its not that I never thought of it. I certainly have. I've tried creating possible outcomes. I've tried through the process of elimination. Nothing crops up. Everything disappears. Maybe my ideal is too far removed from the normal sphere of thought. Maybe.
I kind of hate myself. Because I know I've hurt my friends. One prime example is a perfectly decent person, which is why I can consider her a friend. I feel guilty everytime I see her because of what I did and what I did not do. I was one of those who contributed to her suffering. I did not stand up for what I believed in. In short, I was an accomplice in the act of bullying. Yes. Ugly, disgusting practice that occurs even in a class of young adults. I stopped. But the very fact that I was part of it for a moment makes my skin crawl when I think about it. I'm not friends with her because I pity her. I'm friends with her becuase I realised that she's an interesting, caring and responsible person. Among other less tangible reasons. I hate myself for hurting someone I like. Yeah, I definitely like her. Which is why I bother to listen to her, reply SMSes and all the things that you do when you care for someone.
I am about to embark on a journey that will change me as a person. I will meet new people, old accquaintences that I thought I left behind, and old enemies that I want to leave behind. I will see things that I had rather not see, and I will learn things that I have always wanted to know. I will gain things, and inadvertedbly lose things along the way. I may become someone I would hate now. I may very well turn into a pillar of exemplary conduct. HAHA. In short, I will change. If you see signs of me turning into this fugly monster snarling and snapping away, I hope you will correct my habits. I cannot promise that I shan't swear and try to rip you to shreds, but for the benefit of mankind... I do hope you understand.
This is a short post because I am in no mood for lenghty self analysis. If I look too hard at myself and my life, I am bound to find an entire wall of scratches, dirt, grime and all sort of nasty stuff. Its like straing at your reflection in the mirror. After the novelty of self-awareness is over, you start noticing the pimples. The scars. Messy hair. Slight irregularities here and there. And then you see a monster staring back at you in the mirror. Unpleasant experience. Yes, you can say that I have poor self-esteem. My ego is my weakness and strength. I can only be hurt by the people who matter to me. I could not care less about what the general human population thinks of me, but if my friends or family was to say I look fat or ugly... I think my world would come crashing down. HAHA. So the entire fiasco with my family? Yeah, talk to me and you can start to see the numerous scars. yes, I was badly hurt. Dragged through an emotional mill. Barbed wires, bazookas, bombs. Torn apart and hastily put back together for my final exams. I'm not surprised my grades are a mess. And the people responsible for it blame me for being afffected. Bloody hypocrites. I shall not dwell on this. Else I'll probably never end this post. Lets just leave it at the admission that I have not been happy since the day it all began.
"Loving someone makes you weak, but those who are truly strong knows that it is not true weakness."
Sunday, 5 July 2009
Terrible
Playlist
妄想日記２ by シド
I think I'm a hypocrite. I give people advice I do not follow. I tell people to forget about that jerk. I tell people to go for what they desire. I tell people to do that which they love. I tell people I love cosplay. I'm lying to myself. There. I've gone and said it.
Why do I do this to myself? Its not that I don't mean what I say. Its just that I hardly practice what I preach. I tell myself to be stronger. That it doesn't matter. Its just a bit of suffering. A bit of pain. That I will benefit much more in the long run if I just do what needs to be done now. The tear-off-the-plaster-and-only-hurt-a-bit kind of thing. Instead, what do I do? I mope around. I don't do what needs to be done. I'm pulled along. I'm so envious of others. I'm so angry at myself. Anger is a form of self-punishment. Not that it seems to be doing any good. I'm still stuck at the same psychological stage I was a while back. I hate being mediocre. I hate being a wallflower. So why am I going in this sickening direction?
I now have Gackt's Faraway, Lost Angels and Flower singles. Pawing through シド's hikari. Its nice and jazz-rockish. Like I mentioned previously, シド is awfully versatile. Something I like. Something I don't like about them? The fact that they smoke. Like. WOW. As if its any surprise that yet another band consists of chain smokers. Nothing new I'm sure. Still, its just so very disappointing. hyde. Gackt. Mao. Sigh. Next thing Jui and Juri. I wouldn't be too surprised. I can already sort of tell that Deluhi likes their liquor from their very drunk comment recording. Smoker. Alcoholic. Add gambling and we have all the modern day vices. Sigh. Nothing too new for Gackt. The usual sounds. シド too. Mao sounds lovely. Until you spend an hour listening to him. It gets boring. Not good. I think the previous albums and singles were better. Either that or the singles that they released have sorta let the musical cat out of the bag. It doesn't have the whole new feeling anymore. Especially since I've already heard 嘘, モノクロのキス and 2℃目の彼女 way before the album was released. In fact, I think I listened the songs to death while trying to figure out the lyrics. So nothing much in this release. Sweet. Lovely. Not terribly must-buy and must-listen. As for Gackt. I have nothing much to say. Unlike 小悪魔ヘヴン, the other seems a little... If I dare say, dull. Maybe it was because the first was too cool. The rest just pales in comparison. Still, I look forward to listening his next 6 singles.
This is going to be a very busy week. Working. Driving lessons. Preparing for Cosfest. Things are speeding up, very very fast. I hope the spurt of activity is going to be sufficient to provide me with enough energy for the rest of the month. I'm getting awfully tired of pretending to be happy and hyper when I most definitely am not. Yes. I've done it again. I'm sad, tired and terribly bored. I need something exciting soon. Its not a good state of mind, and I think if I don't get out of this emotional trough soon, I might end up being down and way out for a long time to come. Sigh. Life really is a stage. Someone give me an intermission!
"So what if you hate me? I assure you, I don't like you too."
妄想日記２ by シド
I think I'm a hypocrite. I give people advice I do not follow. I tell people to forget about that jerk. I tell people to go for what they desire. I tell people to do that which they love. I tell people I love cosplay. I'm lying to myself. There. I've gone and said it.
Why do I do this to myself? Its not that I don't mean what I say. Its just that I hardly practice what I preach. I tell myself to be stronger. That it doesn't matter. Its just a bit of suffering. A bit of pain. That I will benefit much more in the long run if I just do what needs to be done now. The tear-off-the-plaster-and-only-hurt-a-bit kind of thing. Instead, what do I do? I mope around. I don't do what needs to be done. I'm pulled along. I'm so envious of others. I'm so angry at myself. Anger is a form of self-punishment. Not that it seems to be doing any good. I'm still stuck at the same psychological stage I was a while back. I hate being mediocre. I hate being a wallflower. So why am I going in this sickening direction?
I now have Gackt's Faraway, Lost Angels and Flower singles. Pawing through シド's hikari. Its nice and jazz-rockish. Like I mentioned previously, シド is awfully versatile. Something I like. Something I don't like about them? The fact that they smoke. Like. WOW. As if its any surprise that yet another band consists of chain smokers. Nothing new I'm sure. Still, its just so very disappointing. hyde. Gackt. Mao. Sigh. Next thing Jui and Juri. I wouldn't be too surprised. I can already sort of tell that Deluhi likes their liquor from their very drunk comment recording. Smoker. Alcoholic. Add gambling and we have all the modern day vices. Sigh. Nothing too new for Gackt. The usual sounds. シド too. Mao sounds lovely. Until you spend an hour listening to him. It gets boring. Not good. I think the previous albums and singles were better. Either that or the singles that they released have sorta let the musical cat out of the bag. It doesn't have the whole new feeling anymore. Especially since I've already heard 嘘, モノクロのキス and 2℃目の彼女 way before the album was released. In fact, I think I listened the songs to death while trying to figure out the lyrics. So nothing much in this release. Sweet. Lovely. Not terribly must-buy and must-listen. As for Gackt. I have nothing much to say. Unlike 小悪魔ヘヴン, the other seems a little... If I dare say, dull. Maybe it was because the first was too cool. The rest just pales in comparison. Still, I look forward to listening his next 6 singles.
This is going to be a very busy week. Working. Driving lessons. Preparing for Cosfest. Things are speeding up, very very fast. I hope the spurt of activity is going to be sufficient to provide me with enough energy for the rest of the month. I'm getting awfully tired of pretending to be happy and hyper when I most definitely am not. Yes. I've done it again. I'm sad, tired and terribly bored. I need something exciting soon. Its not a good state of mind, and I think if I don't get out of this emotional trough soon, I might end up being down and way out for a long time to come. Sigh. Life really is a stage. Someone give me an intermission!
"So what if you hate me? I assure you, I don't like you too."
Friday, 3 July 2009
Recommendation
Playlist
シド - ２℃目の彼女
I need to say this before I scream and explode. I love シド. Simply because they know how to make their fans happy. Can you believe it? Its all so beautiful! The sheer aesthetic appeal of their albums. Why the hell would you want to download online music when you can have the so very gorgeous album in your hands? I would buy the album. For the art. For their pretty faces. For them to earn some money too. If I could read Japanese proficiently and had a credit card, I will definitely order their CD from them. Straight from them as I have no intention of paying the middle man a hefty fee. I want シド to earn. Anyway. Proof is here. Their site. I adore the colour scheme. Its so nice and light. Gone are the dark days of Visual Kei. Let us all usher the spizzy and colourful new age of rock/jazz. Yes, you heard me. Its rock music with a jazz quality. Billowing in the wind much? Awesome stuff. Its fabulous how they make such amazing music. As you all can see, I am effectively gushing. The song I'm listening to ２℃目の彼女 is lovely. Very sweet with light feel. Suits the album artwork. The PV is available on Youtube here. Their new album, hikari, is out in stores now. Have yet to hear it as I cant really find anything online. Regardless, I will find some way to get my little paws on it. Language and shipping is nothing to a die hard fan girl.
Went to Kel's house a couple of days back. Her new dog, Peanut is super duper cute. A cross of a Pomeranian and Chihuahua supposedly. He's old. Think 10 human years. Really quiet. Really small. A dear. I'm a particular fan of dogs, but he grows on you. He follows you around. Not barking. Nor biting. Minimal licking. But he looks at you. Pays attention. His ears listen when we talk. Smart dog. I like my pets smart. After that, we headed to Kel's workplace. Had dinner. Some Char Siew Ramen. Except that it isnt the normal red Chinese char siew, but the Japanese sliced pork. it melted in my mouth. I'm serious. I've never understood what melt-in-your-mouth meant until that day. Bloody good meal it was. The egg was delicious. The noodles werent the cheap Maggi Mee type but real Japanese ramen. Yummy yummy yummy. Anyone wants to try? I'd gladly bring you there. Between Central and Shenton Way. Large portions too. I shared with a Jme and was stuffed. And both of us are not small eaters. Any takers? Bring ten dollars and we'll have a proper MEAL. Not junk, namely those nasty little burgers and oily fries they try to sell us. Free wheat tea to boot. The tea was so refreshing... And the service is pretty good too. Did I manage to convince anyone?
Its been a strange week. No thanks to work and SMU. Shall accumulate more university related stuff and spill it all when I have the energy to do so. So wait a bit longer dearies. Next week is going to be way more exciting. I just cannot wait.
"What does the future hold? Only time will tell... I know you love me. XOXO"
シド - ２℃目の彼女
I need to say this before I scream and explode. I love シド. Simply because they know how to make their fans happy. Can you believe it? Its all so beautiful! The sheer aesthetic appeal of their albums. Why the hell would you want to download online music when you can have the so very gorgeous album in your hands? I would buy the album. For the art. For their pretty faces. For them to earn some money too. If I could read Japanese proficiently and had a credit card, I will definitely order their CD from them. Straight from them as I have no intention of paying the middle man a hefty fee. I want シド to earn. Anyway. Proof is here. Their site. I adore the colour scheme. Its so nice and light. Gone are the dark days of Visual Kei. Let us all usher the spizzy and colourful new age of rock/jazz. Yes, you heard me. Its rock music with a jazz quality. Billowing in the wind much? Awesome stuff. Its fabulous how they make such amazing music. As you all can see, I am effectively gushing. The song I'm listening to ２℃目の彼女 is lovely. Very sweet with light feel. Suits the album artwork. The PV is available on Youtube here. Their new album, hikari, is out in stores now. Have yet to hear it as I cant really find anything online. Regardless, I will find some way to get my little paws on it. Language and shipping is nothing to a die hard fan girl.
Went to Kel's house a couple of days back. Her new dog, Peanut is super duper cute. A cross of a Pomeranian and Chihuahua supposedly. He's old. Think 10 human years. Really quiet. Really small. A dear. I'm a particular fan of dogs, but he grows on you. He follows you around. Not barking. Nor biting. Minimal licking. But he looks at you. Pays attention. His ears listen when we talk. Smart dog. I like my pets smart. After that, we headed to Kel's workplace. Had dinner. Some Char Siew Ramen. Except that it isnt the normal red Chinese char siew, but the Japanese sliced pork. it melted in my mouth. I'm serious. I've never understood what melt-in-your-mouth meant until that day. Bloody good meal it was. The egg was delicious. The noodles werent the cheap Maggi Mee type but real Japanese ramen. Yummy yummy yummy. Anyone wants to try? I'd gladly bring you there. Between Central and Shenton Way. Large portions too. I shared with a Jme and was stuffed. And both of us are not small eaters. Any takers? Bring ten dollars and we'll have a proper MEAL. Not junk, namely those nasty little burgers and oily fries they try to sell us. Free wheat tea to boot. The tea was so refreshing... And the service is pretty good too. Did I manage to convince anyone?
Its been a strange week. No thanks to work and SMU. Shall accumulate more university related stuff and spill it all when I have the energy to do so. So wait a bit longer dearies. Next week is going to be way more exciting. I just cannot wait.
"What does the future hold? Only time will tell... I know you love me. XOXO"
Tagged
Grab your phone dearies. This one is all about our significant other in our handphone pouches. Thats right. My chocolate!
What's your ring tone? Journey through the Decade by Gackt
Who's the 1st person that comes up under M? Mail Deposit
Who's the last person you called? Kel!
Who was your last missed call from? My mummy.
Who's the 1st person who comes up under C? Celine!
Who's your speed dial number 2? Did not programme speed dial. I can remember numbers dearies.
What does 3rd text in your inbox say? "Ya I know. I dunno if I want to go ): dilemna. I want to stay at tgx but my parents and brother going. Both my sis and i not going and I feel... guilty. Somehow. "
Who was your last received call from? Kaen.
What does your 5th inbox text say? "Haha.okay :):) "
How many messages are currently in your inbox? 23. New phone. Old phone had like. Over 300 plus.
What is the wallpaper? Tyki fan art.
Since buying your phone, how many messages have you sent all together? No idea. The phone doesn't track.
Who is the person who sent the 7th message from in your inbox? Kaen.
Who's the 1st person who comes up under B? Bei Xi.
How many bars of signal do you currently have? 5.
What network are you on? Starhub
Name every person you have text messages from inbox? SonyEricsson. Kaen. TR. Stel. Kel. Cherl. Dad.
What does your 20th text message in your inbox say? "This is random but the feeling you get after spamming conditioner is damn nice XD. "
Who is the first person in your contacts? Aaron.
Who is the last name in your contacts? Chen Laoshi.
What does the bottom text in your inbox say? Can I not type this out? Its sooo long! " XD ok la ok la. For you and road is ok cause the both of you look HUMAN. But jasdebi i dunno. Probably with wig and all the black makeup might look ok... cover so much of the face somemore. I scared my costume parts don't work out only. The material and method definitely different from her."
What is your screen saver? The chibi Laruku picture.
What is your balance? What balance?
Who is the last person under H? Huifang!
What is your bluetooth name? Chocolate!
How many numbers are in your phone? EH. EH. A lot.Teachers. Classmates. GP classmates. Cosplay friends. Friends from my 16 years of formal schooling. A lot.
What's the first video on your phone of? Nope. No vidoes.
Could you live without your phone? Unlikely.
What is the 3rd picture on your phone? hyde's gorgeous face. I had this amazing dream about hyde yesterday. *squeals*
For the safety and security of all involved, I shall not divulge who the messages are from. Though I think its super obvious. All whose names appear are tagged!
"You can bribe me with chocolate, ice cream and money. Yeah. Money. Makes the world go round."
What's your ring tone? Journey through the Decade by Gackt
Who's the 1st person that comes up under M? Mail Deposit
Who's the last person you called? Kel!
Who was your last missed call from? My mummy.
Who's the 1st person who comes up under C? Celine!
Who's your speed dial number 2? Did not programme speed dial. I can remember numbers dearies.
What does 3rd text in your inbox say? "Ya I know. I dunno if I want to go ): dilemna. I want to stay at tgx but my parents and brother going. Both my sis and i not going and I feel... guilty. Somehow. "
Who was your last received call from? Kaen.
What does your 5th inbox text say? "Haha.okay :):) "
How many messages are currently in your inbox? 23. New phone. Old phone had like. Over 300 plus.
What is the wallpaper? Tyki fan art.
Since buying your phone, how many messages have you sent all together? No idea. The phone doesn't track.
Who is the person who sent the 7th message from in your inbox? Kaen.
Who's the 1st person who comes up under B? Bei Xi.
How many bars of signal do you currently have? 5.
What network are you on? Starhub
Name every person you have text messages from inbox? SonyEricsson. Kaen. TR. Stel. Kel. Cherl. Dad.
What does your 20th text message in your inbox say? "This is random but the feeling you get after spamming conditioner is damn nice XD. "
Who is the first person in your contacts? Aaron.
Who is the last name in your contacts? Chen Laoshi.
What does the bottom text in your inbox say? Can I not type this out? Its sooo long! " XD ok la ok la. For you and road is ok cause the both of you look HUMAN. But jasdebi i dunno. Probably with wig and all the black makeup might look ok... cover so much of the face somemore. I scared my costume parts don't work out only. The material and method definitely different from her."
What is your screen saver? The chibi Laruku picture.
What is your balance? What balance?
Who is the last person under H? Huifang!
What is your bluetooth name? Chocolate!
How many numbers are in your phone? EH. EH. A lot.Teachers. Classmates. GP classmates. Cosplay friends. Friends from my 16 years of formal schooling. A lot.
What's the first video on your phone of? Nope. No vidoes.
Could you live without your phone? Unlikely.
What is the 3rd picture on your phone? hyde's gorgeous face. I had this amazing dream about hyde yesterday. *squeals*
For the safety and security of all involved, I shall not divulge who the messages are from. Though I think its super obvious. All whose names appear are tagged!
"You can bribe me with chocolate, ice cream and money. Yeah. Money. Makes the world go round."
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Tagged
RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged - including the person who tagged you.
ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: HAHA. Hardly ever. Please book me as soon as possible. Note that family, school and friends take precedence over random buggers accosting me on the street.
B - BIRTHDAY: 24 November. If you don't know this by now, I'll yell at you.
C - CRUSHING ON: Who else? :)
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Honey soursop from NUS Biz Canteen. The Honey series is nice.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Myself?
F - FAVORITE: Eating. Drinking. Sleeping. Listening to music. Cosplay. Reading. The list extends.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Bears.
H - HOMETOWN: My head.
I - IN LOVE WITH: The usual. Myself. My room. My music. My shrine. My windchime. My bed. The fridge. My shoes. EH. A lot.
J - JUGGLE: Time. I'm trying to improve.
K - KILLED BY:Lack of food and sleep.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: To Penang.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Strawberry.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1. More than enough.
O - ONE WISH: To be happy.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Kellie. Heehee :P
R - REASON TO SMILE: Ridiculous stuff that happens.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: 夏恋 by SID
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6 Something as my dad was yelling at my bro. Inconsiderate much?
V - VEGETABLE(S): I like brocolli. And cabbage. Cucumbers. And then some leafy green things.
W - WORST HABIT: I have loads of bad habits. I think being sarcastic even when its lost on the person involved.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Dental. Chest. Don't really remember.
Y - YOYOS ARE: Stuff that belong at the bottom of my cupboard.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Cusp Scorpio/Saggitarius. But I'm technically Saggitarius.
Random Questions About You:
What color do you wear most?: Not sure
What are you listening to?: Nothing at the moment.
Are you happy with your life right now?:I guess its decent.
What is your favorite class in school?: Literature. Hands-down.
When do you start back at school/college?: 17 August.
Are you outgoing?: If I want to be.
Favorite pair of shoes?: Hush Puppies sneakers. I have two!
Where do you wish you were right now: At home. Sleeping.
Can you dance? : Definitely.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: No.
Can you whistle?: No.
Write with both hands?: Yes, and no.
Walk with your toes curled?: Yes
THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Sorta.
Do you believe in miracles?:Small ones.
Do you believe in magic?: I guess.
Love at first sight?: Not really.
Do you think there's a Satan?: Hmm. Sort of.
Do you believe in Santa?: No. No winter in Sinagpore, so it was always a silly thing to me.
Do you know how to swim?: No.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: Most. Yeah.
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Yes. My girlfriends. My classmates.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Usually I'm the one who initaiates. But YES. I love you CHERL :)
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Obviously.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes.
THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: Not sure. 29 degree Celsius?
What radio station do you listen to?: International Channel for Japanese segment.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Delifrance.
What was the last thing you bought?: Honey Soursop.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: A few whos. Elina, Germaine.
CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Still here, my heart. If I ever had one to begin with.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yes.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: No.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: Not usually.
Do certain songs make you cry?: No.
HAPPY SECTION:
Are you a happy person?: Unlikely.
What can make you happy?:I'm not saying such embarrassing things here!
Do you wish you were happier? : Often.
Can music make you happy?: Yes. Like duh.
LOVE SECTION
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Not applicable.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Not yet.
LOOK AT ME
What is your current hair color?: Black.
Current piercings?: One on each ear.
Have any tattoos?: No.
Eye color: Black.
IN GUYS:
Favorite eye color: Doesnt matter.
Short or long hair: Doesnt matter.
Height: Doesnt matter.
Best clothing: No idea.
HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail: No.
Mooned someone:No.
Thrown up in a store: No. So gross...
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Yes.
Gone skinny dipping: No.
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi.
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King.
Single or Group Dates: Single. I'm more possesive. And demanding. I want more attention. Got a problem with that?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries: Strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: HMMMM.
TV or Movie: Movie.
Guitar or Drums?: A tie.
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn flakes!
Cake or Pie: Cake.
Friends Tagged
You :P
ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: HAHA. Hardly ever. Please book me as soon as possible. Note that family, school and friends take precedence over random buggers accosting me on the street.
B - BIRTHDAY: 24 November. If you don't know this by now, I'll yell at you.
C - CRUSHING ON: Who else? :)
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Honey soursop from NUS Biz Canteen. The Honey series is nice.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Myself?
F - FAVORITE: Eating. Drinking. Sleeping. Listening to music. Cosplay. Reading. The list extends.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Bears.
H - HOMETOWN: My head.
I - IN LOVE WITH: The usual. Myself. My room. My music. My shrine. My windchime. My bed. The fridge. My shoes. EH. A lot.
J - JUGGLE: Time. I'm trying to improve.
K - KILLED BY:Lack of food and sleep.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: To Penang.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Strawberry.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1. More than enough.
O - ONE WISH: To be happy.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Kellie. Heehee :P
R - REASON TO SMILE: Ridiculous stuff that happens.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: 夏恋 by SID
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6 Something as my dad was yelling at my bro. Inconsiderate much?
V - VEGETABLE(S): I like brocolli. And cabbage. Cucumbers. And then some leafy green things.
W - WORST HABIT: I have loads of bad habits. I think being sarcastic even when its lost on the person involved.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Dental. Chest. Don't really remember.
Y - YOYOS ARE: Stuff that belong at the bottom of my cupboard.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Cusp Scorpio/Saggitarius. But I'm technically Saggitarius.
Random Questions About You:
What color do you wear most?: Not sure
What are you listening to?: Nothing at the moment.
Are you happy with your life right now?:I guess its decent.
What is your favorite class in school?: Literature. Hands-down.
When do you start back at school/college?: 17 August.
Are you outgoing?: If I want to be.
Favorite pair of shoes?: Hush Puppies sneakers. I have two!
Where do you wish you were right now: At home. Sleeping.
Can you dance? : Definitely.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: No.
Can you whistle?: No.
Write with both hands?: Yes, and no.
Walk with your toes curled?: Yes
THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Sorta.
Do you believe in miracles?:Small ones.
Do you believe in magic?: I guess.
Love at first sight?: Not really.
Do you think there's a Satan?: Hmm. Sort of.
Do you believe in Santa?: No. No winter in Sinagpore, so it was always a silly thing to me.
Do you know how to swim?: No.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: Most. Yeah.
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Yes. My girlfriends. My classmates.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Usually I'm the one who initaiates. But YES. I love you CHERL :)
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Obviously.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes.
THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: Not sure. 29 degree Celsius?
What radio station do you listen to?: International Channel for Japanese segment.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Delifrance.
What was the last thing you bought?: Honey Soursop.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: A few whos. Elina, Germaine.
CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Still here, my heart. If I ever had one to begin with.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yes.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: No.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: Not usually.
Do certain songs make you cry?: No.
HAPPY SECTION:
Are you a happy person?: Unlikely.
What can make you happy?:I'm not saying such embarrassing things here!
Do you wish you were happier? : Often.
Can music make you happy?: Yes. Like duh.
LOVE SECTION
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Not applicable.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Not yet.
LOOK AT ME
What is your current hair color?: Black.
Current piercings?: One on each ear.
Have any tattoos?: No.
Eye color: Black.
IN GUYS:
Favorite eye color: Doesnt matter.
Short or long hair: Doesnt matter.
Height: Doesnt matter.
Best clothing: No idea.
HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail: No.
Mooned someone:No.
Thrown up in a store: No. So gross...
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Yes.
Gone skinny dipping: No.
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi.
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King.
Single or Group Dates: Single. I'm more possesive. And demanding. I want more attention. Got a problem with that?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries: Strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: HMMMM.
TV or Movie: Movie.
Guitar or Drums?: A tie.
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn flakes!
Cake or Pie: Cake.
Friends Tagged
You :P
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Transition
Playlist
Dreamboat by Vidoll
HOMG. I chanced upon a bimbo! Like, a real life BIMBO. Stupid. Rich. Brainless. Vain. A bit mean. Shallow. All the above is equivalent to a BIMBO. I mean, I've never actually known a true pink bimbo. It was always someone who lacked one of the above qualities. Well, I just chanced upon one. Her blog is here. Read, and revel in how smart and nice you are. I think I should blog hop more often. Its good for self esteem. Yes. I never said I was nice. I derive pleasure through these simple means. I have nothing against her. I just want to share the joy of discovering something so endangered. How many people are true bimbos? Such precious few. We all need silly people to earn our money and entertain ourselves. HAHA.
Ok. Kaen said I was being mean, so since I don't know her personally, I hope she won't take it personally too. I mean, its a compliment. At least you can be defined. Me? I have no idea what I am. Maybe someone could enlighten me? I'm ok with honesty. Like, lay bare thy truths sort of honesty is a-ok too. So come, hit me with whatever you've got!
Sleepover at my place started as a disappointment thanks to the various slowpokes and MIA people. Still, I had a blast. Root beer float. Lemon chicken rice. Copious amounts of cornflakes. Gossip. Reminiscing about the past. I had no idea that I was so socially inept. I mean, the things I did and said. I'm astonished by my pride, confidence and sheer self-assurance. Woah. I was amazing. Notice the past tense? The me today is a mere shadow of who I was. I was so interesting. I wish I could meet the old me. I have absolutely no recollection of being so superb. Yes, I think my friends will holler at me because of this despite all their complaints. I am of the belief that sheer blunt honesty is a gift on its on. The ability to see something for what it is, and not what people want you to see. alas, I think I have lost a good measure of this skill. I mourn the loss of my personality.
The sleepover photos will be up on Facebook, as usual, as soon as I have more time. Busy days are here, thanks in no part to SMU and part time job hunting, so I'm less often on the Internet. Rest assured dearies, that I still love all of you and I will definitly update as soon as humanly possible. Meanwhile, I suppose you can read my older entries and revel in the insight of a teenager. HAHA. If I seem strange, blame SMU. No worries, I'll blog all about SMU soon. Not enough to deign a post to my new school yet. HAHA.
Ciao my dearies.
"What are these but temporal butterflies andflowers, gone in the blizzard of winter? "
Dreamboat by Vidoll
HOMG. I chanced upon a bimbo! Like, a real life BIMBO. Stupid. Rich. Brainless. Vain. A bit mean. Shallow. All the above is equivalent to a BIMBO. I mean, I've never actually known a true pink bimbo. It was always someone who lacked one of the above qualities. Well, I just chanced upon one. Her blog is here. Read, and revel in how smart and nice you are. I think I should blog hop more often. Its good for self esteem. Yes. I never said I was nice. I derive pleasure through these simple means. I have nothing against her. I just want to share the joy of discovering something so endangered. How many people are true bimbos? Such precious few. We all need silly people to earn our money and entertain ourselves. HAHA.
Ok. Kaen said I was being mean, so since I don't know her personally, I hope she won't take it personally too. I mean, its a compliment. At least you can be defined. Me? I have no idea what I am. Maybe someone could enlighten me? I'm ok with honesty. Like, lay bare thy truths sort of honesty is a-ok too. So come, hit me with whatever you've got!
Sleepover at my place started as a disappointment thanks to the various slowpokes and MIA people. Still, I had a blast. Root beer float. Lemon chicken rice. Copious amounts of cornflakes. Gossip. Reminiscing about the past. I had no idea that I was so socially inept. I mean, the things I did and said. I'm astonished by my pride, confidence and sheer self-assurance. Woah. I was amazing. Notice the past tense? The me today is a mere shadow of who I was. I was so interesting. I wish I could meet the old me. I have absolutely no recollection of being so superb. Yes, I think my friends will holler at me because of this despite all their complaints. I am of the belief that sheer blunt honesty is a gift on its on. The ability to see something for what it is, and not what people want you to see. alas, I think I have lost a good measure of this skill. I mourn the loss of my personality.
The sleepover photos will be up on Facebook, as usual, as soon as I have more time. Busy days are here, thanks in no part to SMU and part time job hunting, so I'm less often on the Internet. Rest assured dearies, that I still love all of you and I will definitly update as soon as humanly possible. Meanwhile, I suppose you can read my older entries and revel in the insight of a teenager. HAHA. If I seem strange, blame SMU. No worries, I'll blog all about SMU soon. Not enough to deign a post to my new school yet. HAHA.
Ciao my dearies.
"What are these but temporal butterflies andflowers, gone in the blizzard of winter? "
Friday, 19 June 2009
Lazy
Playlist
s[k]ape:goat by Deluhi
Just like how I am not perpetually pissed off, this world is not completely bleak either. To comfort the many people who have been wondering if I'm suddenly suicidal, the list below consisits of things that will keep me all nice and rooted to this no-longer-so-green planet.
1) Deluhi. SID. Vidoll. Gackt. hyde. VAMPS. L'Arc-en-ciel. Kato Kazuki. No matter how bad things are, I know I can rely on my iTunes playlist, my phone and the internet to provide me with relief in the form of music. Hybrid Truth. Vivid Place. Uso. dear tokyo. Cherry. NevaeH. Jesus. Another World. Drop of Colour. Shallow Sleep. Evanescent. Trouble. Stay Away. New World. instinctive love. Warning. What shall I do without all these pieces of music? I'd be dead ten times over. No music, no life is indeed a very apt description of how attached I am to my music. It doesnt hurt that they are often quite easy on the eyes. I like how the 'cutie' Leda is behind the fiercest growls in Deluhi's many songs. Mao looks like a little boy with those big big eyes of his. Vidoll looks ok as long as rame is hidden somewhere obscure. Gackt is always making headlines. hyde is aging and looking hotter than ever. VAMPS has really nice promotional stuff and photoshoots. I'm just WAITINg for the L'aruku 20th Anniversary World Tour. Kazuki's new hairstyle is LOVE. So there you go. My reason for existence. My love, my shrine... My music.
2) "I'm a gay of demonic charm." " Your established ideal is a boyfriend who is a little jealous." "Whats the difference between being stupid and being dumb?" KYAH! I have discovered that I really really like watching stuff online. Simply because I can laugh maniacally without being thrown out of the cinema and spooking all my friends. I mean, my family already knows how I Iaugh. Like an evil witch. Its natural. I never asked to laugh like a witch. I just do. This high pitched half-shriek guffaw sound that escapes from my throat. So online sites are the best. I can really enjoy myself.
3) Cosfest. EOY. Anime Festival Asia. ToyCon. Aoi. Lulubell. Whatever else I choose to do. My costumes have been paid for. Some have been collected. There is no way I will off myself. I mean, the sheer amount of effort! All down the drain! Into the sewage! Wasted! My time. Money. Blood. Sweat. Tears. NO WAY. I love cosplay. I love the attention. I love hanging out with like-minded individuals. I enjoy fan-girling. Discussing weapons and acessories. I like scrutinising other people's costumes. Thinking of ways to cut cost without compromising on accuracy. Acting out the character. Reading up more to understand how to better portray the character. Research is just plain, pure fun. It fits my personlity. A perfectionist on a budget, having to conform to a certian ideal, yet having to create something as well. A real challenge. I wonder if I should join the fashion industry...
4) You. Yes, you my dear. And you. And you, you and you. Yeah, I'm all for self love, but I love all of you too! So I shan't make my dearies upset for no reason. As if your life isn't tough enough. HAHA. What with tuition, universities, modules, trying to maintain a social life... i shall not add to the burden you already carry. I'm not so sadistic! Ok I amy seem like a sadist, but I'm definitely all for boosting the enjoyment factor in the lives of my dearies. I'm just like this because I'm dreadfully bored. Entertain me and I'll recharge faster than you can say "Don't be sad!" HAHA. I'll go anywere with you if you can keep me entertained. Its true. i'm serious. Although my reliance on external factors to keep upbeat is a tad bit worrying...
I'm bored of this post already. Too lazy to continue contributing to its length and content. The depth isnt anything to crow about either. Sigh. Like I said. I'm bored.
"Let it be known that those who seek happiness are deluding themselves. Life sucks. Big time."
s[k]ape:goat by Deluhi
Just like how I am not perpetually pissed off, this world is not completely bleak either. To comfort the many people who have been wondering if I'm suddenly suicidal, the list below consisits of things that will keep me all nice and rooted to this no-longer-so-green planet.
1) Deluhi. SID. Vidoll. Gackt. hyde. VAMPS. L'Arc-en-ciel. Kato Kazuki. No matter how bad things are, I know I can rely on my iTunes playlist, my phone and the internet to provide me with relief in the form of music. Hybrid Truth. Vivid Place. Uso. dear tokyo. Cherry. NevaeH. Jesus. Another World. Drop of Colour. Shallow Sleep. Evanescent. Trouble. Stay Away. New World. instinctive love. Warning. What shall I do without all these pieces of music? I'd be dead ten times over. No music, no life is indeed a very apt description of how attached I am to my music. It doesnt hurt that they are often quite easy on the eyes. I like how the 'cutie' Leda is behind the fiercest growls in Deluhi's many songs. Mao looks like a little boy with those big big eyes of his. Vidoll looks ok as long as rame is hidden somewhere obscure. Gackt is always making headlines. hyde is aging and looking hotter than ever. VAMPS has really nice promotional stuff and photoshoots. I'm just WAITINg for the L'aruku 20th Anniversary World Tour. Kazuki's new hairstyle is LOVE. So there you go. My reason for existence. My love, my shrine... My music.
2) "I'm a gay of demonic charm." " Your established ideal is a boyfriend who is a little jealous." "Whats the difference between being stupid and being dumb?" KYAH! I have discovered that I really really like watching stuff online. Simply because I can laugh maniacally without being thrown out of the cinema and spooking all my friends. I mean, my family already knows how I Iaugh. Like an evil witch. Its natural. I never asked to laugh like a witch. I just do. This high pitched half-shriek guffaw sound that escapes from my throat. So online sites are the best. I can really enjoy myself.
3) Cosfest. EOY. Anime Festival Asia. ToyCon. Aoi. Lulubell. Whatever else I choose to do. My costumes have been paid for. Some have been collected. There is no way I will off myself. I mean, the sheer amount of effort! All down the drain! Into the sewage! Wasted! My time. Money. Blood. Sweat. Tears. NO WAY. I love cosplay. I love the attention. I love hanging out with like-minded individuals. I enjoy fan-girling. Discussing weapons and acessories. I like scrutinising other people's costumes. Thinking of ways to cut cost without compromising on accuracy. Acting out the character. Reading up more to understand how to better portray the character. Research is just plain, pure fun. It fits my personlity. A perfectionist on a budget, having to conform to a certian ideal, yet having to create something as well. A real challenge. I wonder if I should join the fashion industry...
4) You. Yes, you my dear. And you. And you, you and you. Yeah, I'm all for self love, but I love all of you too! So I shan't make my dearies upset for no reason. As if your life isn't tough enough. HAHA. What with tuition, universities, modules, trying to maintain a social life... i shall not add to the burden you already carry. I'm not so sadistic! Ok I amy seem like a sadist, but I'm definitely all for boosting the enjoyment factor in the lives of my dearies. I'm just like this because I'm dreadfully bored. Entertain me and I'll recharge faster than you can say "Don't be sad!" HAHA. I'll go anywere with you if you can keep me entertained. Its true. i'm serious. Although my reliance on external factors to keep upbeat is a tad bit worrying...
I'm bored of this post already. Too lazy to continue contributing to its length and content. The depth isnt anything to crow about either. Sigh. Like I said. I'm bored.
"Let it be known that those who seek happiness are deluding themselves. Life sucks. Big time."
Thursday, 18 June 2009
Grouse
Playlist
Cherry by Vidoll
I have gotten my grubby little paws on Vidoll's Esoteric Romance! Its not that great. Half of the songs are nice. The rest are boring. Its really sad when my favourite bands adopt a more mainstream sound, relegating fans like me to bargain bin to find new bands that have a sound that I like. Its not that there aren't any new Visual Kei bands. Think Manterou Opera and Moran. But its not exactly my type. I probably only like one song from their entire album. A good album is one that I like a minimum of fifty percent. Otherwise, there is absolutely no purpose in getting the album. You'll just hear that 2 songs continuously to death and get bored of it really soon. Sigh. A really sad lifespan no? Vidoll sounds increasingly like SID. If it wasn't for the distinctive quality of Mao and Jui's vocals, one would think that the 2 bands decided to share music or something. Its maddening when you wait for ages and there's nothing interesting. My top few grouses are as follows:
1) Atrocious English pronunciations. Its not English. Its some weird hybrid of Japanese and English that I think only the Japanese will understand. A native speaker like me only realises its English upon scrutiny of the lyrics. Its not even in katakana. Its suppose to be in English, but I had no idea it was my first language until I stare at the lyrics at sheer amazement at how they manage to twist it to sound like some new language. Yes I know you are trying. Still. Just sing in Japanese. Its okay. We are the ones hijacking onto the Japanese music industry for musical treatment, so we are willing to listen to Japanese. Its more meaningful and poetic anyway. When 'be all right' sounds like 'vi alu li eh to', its a sign that they should revert back to Japanese. Please stop torturing your fans. We want to support you. Not stop listening to your music. Either brush up your English or sing in Japanese. I think the latter is easier. I like the latter too.
2) Using similar music for different releases. We are your fans. We've probably listened to everything you released since Day One more times than we sing our national anthems. We pay good money to buy your releases. We attend your concerts. We spread the word and the love. We are the reason why there's food on in your fridge. So please try not to cheat us by remixing music and releasing it as two separate songs. If its a remix, say so. We actually pay for remixes. I wont name names, but I've listened to my concentrated single band playlist and identified songs that sound so alike I thought one song was 8 minutes long. Keep this up and I promise you'll lose your following. Its ok to spend more time on your albums. Its ok to have one or two fewer songs. JUST DON'T LIE TO YOUR AVID SUPPORTERS!
3) Bands who are rude to international fans. Yes, your market is Japan. Yet, in this superbly digital age, do you think you can afford to sideline your international fans? Most of us have JLPT certificates. We do our best to get hold of your releases no matter how expensive shipping is given our very limited budgets. We fly to foreign countries where you have your concerts to support you. So give us at least one percent of your attention! I love how VAMPS is so active on Facebook and Twitter. I like how many try to have an English edition of their official site. I adore the effort put into liasion with international fans. Thank you for catering to us. We will do our best to add to your income. Stop removing every single video on Youtube and we'll do more. Hey. Not everyone has access to Japanese cable. We want to keep up to date. We want to know more about you. Feed our addiction. Marketing techniques even a child knows. So why do you take down everything?! Its mainly low resolution, and us who love our idols will find means and ways of getting hold of the original. I may have the album, but I want the limited edition, the special release, the extras, the posters and MORE. Its a different market completely. So stop being such a miser. Use video sharing sites as free publicity. Make us happy, and we'll make you happy too.
Ah. I actually wanted to confess to something. I shall leave it obscure, so that those who know, knows. Its coloured, so only those who choose to read should. Yeah. I know its an invitation for you to read. But like I said, its a warning. Like how Willy Wonka and Marilyn Monroe works, if I say its ugly, its ugly. I'm not into lying on my blog for kicks. If I want to lie, it'd be somewhere where I can appreciate the effects. Not online where you can't savour the effects. Here goes:
Its true. I said I'd never do it, but I did. Me and my big mouth. I said if it ever happened, I'd say it out loud, nice and proud, but I've come to realise that I'm a wimp and dare not say it out loud. Not everyone is like Yasu. I'm an idiot. I was playing a game. A game with society, my family and friends. It was suppose to be entertaining. Something to kill time. It was a sadistic thing to do, I admit. It was mean, hurtful and downright inconsiderate. Yeah. My just desserts. It happened. I didn't mean for it to happen. I never wanted it to turn out this way. I'm sorry. I really am. If I could turn back time, I'd never have decided to toy with something like that. Though I'm likely to ignore my own advice. I know things will never be the same again. I'm really sorry. I don't ask for you to forgive me. Relax, I'll treat you as I always will. Because no matter what, I'm pig-headed enough to never say anything to you face-to-face. I'll pretend nothing happened, for your sake. I know. You deserve better than a mere paragraph online, anonymous to boot. But this is all I can offer you now. Please don't hate me. I love you. Always have, and always will.
"The grief of a previous life, the trauma and painful feelings... The sins of the past reborn..."
Cherry by Vidoll
I have gotten my grubby little paws on Vidoll's Esoteric Romance! Its not that great. Half of the songs are nice. The rest are boring. Its really sad when my favourite bands adopt a more mainstream sound, relegating fans like me to bargain bin to find new bands that have a sound that I like. Its not that there aren't any new Visual Kei bands. Think Manterou Opera and Moran. But its not exactly my type. I probably only like one song from their entire album. A good album is one that I like a minimum of fifty percent. Otherwise, there is absolutely no purpose in getting the album. You'll just hear that 2 songs continuously to death and get bored of it really soon. Sigh. A really sad lifespan no? Vidoll sounds increasingly like SID. If it wasn't for the distinctive quality of Mao and Jui's vocals, one would think that the 2 bands decided to share music or something. Its maddening when you wait for ages and there's nothing interesting. My top few grouses are as follows:
1) Atrocious English pronunciations. Its not English. Its some weird hybrid of Japanese and English that I think only the Japanese will understand. A native speaker like me only realises its English upon scrutiny of the lyrics. Its not even in katakana. Its suppose to be in English, but I had no idea it was my first language until I stare at the lyrics at sheer amazement at how they manage to twist it to sound like some new language. Yes I know you are trying. Still. Just sing in Japanese. Its okay. We are the ones hijacking onto the Japanese music industry for musical treatment, so we are willing to listen to Japanese. Its more meaningful and poetic anyway. When 'be all right' sounds like 'vi alu li eh to', its a sign that they should revert back to Japanese. Please stop torturing your fans. We want to support you. Not stop listening to your music. Either brush up your English or sing in Japanese. I think the latter is easier. I like the latter too.
2) Using similar music for different releases. We are your fans. We've probably listened to everything you released since Day One more times than we sing our national anthems. We pay good money to buy your releases. We attend your concerts. We spread the word and the love. We are the reason why there's food on in your fridge. So please try not to cheat us by remixing music and releasing it as two separate songs. If its a remix, say so. We actually pay for remixes. I wont name names, but I've listened to my concentrated single band playlist and identified songs that sound so alike I thought one song was 8 minutes long. Keep this up and I promise you'll lose your following. Its ok to spend more time on your albums. Its ok to have one or two fewer songs. JUST DON'T LIE TO YOUR AVID SUPPORTERS!
3) Bands who are rude to international fans. Yes, your market is Japan. Yet, in this superbly digital age, do you think you can afford to sideline your international fans? Most of us have JLPT certificates. We do our best to get hold of your releases no matter how expensive shipping is given our very limited budgets. We fly to foreign countries where you have your concerts to support you. So give us at least one percent of your attention! I love how VAMPS is so active on Facebook and Twitter. I like how many try to have an English edition of their official site. I adore the effort put into liasion with international fans. Thank you for catering to us. We will do our best to add to your income. Stop removing every single video on Youtube and we'll do more. Hey. Not everyone has access to Japanese cable. We want to keep up to date. We want to know more about you. Feed our addiction. Marketing techniques even a child knows. So why do you take down everything?! Its mainly low resolution, and us who love our idols will find means and ways of getting hold of the original. I may have the album, but I want the limited edition, the special release, the extras, the posters and MORE. Its a different market completely. So stop being such a miser. Use video sharing sites as free publicity. Make us happy, and we'll make you happy too.
Ah. I actually wanted to confess to something. I shall leave it obscure, so that those who know, knows. Its coloured, so only those who choose to read should. Yeah. I know its an invitation for you to read. But like I said, its a warning. Like how Willy Wonka and Marilyn Monroe works, if I say its ugly, its ugly. I'm not into lying on my blog for kicks. If I want to lie, it'd be somewhere where I can appreciate the effects. Not online where you can't savour the effects. Here goes:
Its true. I said I'd never do it, but I did. Me and my big mouth. I said if it ever happened, I'd say it out loud, nice and proud, but I've come to realise that I'm a wimp and dare not say it out loud. Not everyone is like Yasu. I'm an idiot. I was playing a game. A game with society, my family and friends. It was suppose to be entertaining. Something to kill time. It was a sadistic thing to do, I admit. It was mean, hurtful and downright inconsiderate. Yeah. My just desserts. It happened. I didn't mean for it to happen. I never wanted it to turn out this way. I'm sorry. I really am. If I could turn back time, I'd never have decided to toy with something like that. Though I'm likely to ignore my own advice. I know things will never be the same again. I'm really sorry. I don't ask for you to forgive me. Relax, I'll treat you as I always will. Because no matter what, I'm pig-headed enough to never say anything to you face-to-face. I'll pretend nothing happened, for your sake. I know. You deserve better than a mere paragraph online, anonymous to boot. But this is all I can offer you now. Please don't hate me. I love you. Always have, and always will.
"The grief of a previous life, the trauma and painful feelings... The sins of the past reborn..."
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
Yech
Playlist
Natsukoi by SID
Yech. Thats the only suitable word, or non-word, that I an use to describe my day. Woke up feeling heavy. My body was like two hundred tonnes and counting. Lack of sleep, although I slept before midnight, and I did not wake up at night. Deep sleep for 7hours and I'm so bloody tired nonetheless. Humid day. Yeah, in the tropics in the middle of the year. Northern hemisphere and all that. Lousy weather for wearing work clothes. Great for the beach though. Too bad I don't work at the beach.
Went back to collect my certificates. A long, arduous walk up the main gate. Heels. Long pants. Heavy bag. What do you expect? Me to not complain about the utter ridiculousness of situating the main gate of the school in some obscure corner on a hill, located a minimum of four hundred meters away from the nearest bus stop? Sheesh. Its less a main gate than the side gate. Inaccessible. Irritating. I was perspiring buckets by the time I was in the library, and I still had to get back to the bus stop! Best part? At the bus stop, 151 took more than 20 minutes to come. This was on top of the awesome racket that the grass cutting people were making. And the little specks of grass that inevitably flew everywhere, and seemed directed specifically at this hot, sweaty and really pissed gal. Bad day.
School was revolting, to say the least. There has been a 14 year drought of President's Scholars, so they removed the board and placed a huge LCD screen there. Smart marketing eh? So instead of staring at the prime minister's name, we instead look at the various promotional videos of the school. Pathetic much? Of course, this is provided that you even notice the screen, what with that enormous silver THING sitting in the atrium. I have nothing against art. I like art. I think sculptures are cool. I have friends who do art. BUT THAT IS ONE HECK OF A WRONG PLACE TO PUT A SCULPTURE LIKE THAT. Yeah. That was what I wanted to shout. First, it most probably gets into the way of students who trying to get into the TA block. Secondly, it looks ominous. Serious. Lets just say that it just looks jarring. Whoever decided to put it there has no aesthetic sense. I'm not saying that person has zero artistic ability. I'm talking about aesthetic sense. Goodness. There is no need to announce the school's many weaknesses at the foyer. I mean, you can at least TRY to mask the rotting flesh with perfumed silks. And not expose it to the sun. Yech. If you have no substance, at least strive for better glamour.
Lunch was pretty good though. The first time I had Vietnamese food. Some pork noodle, that was sweet and a little sour. Yummy. Recommended by one of my colleagues. If most Vietnamese food taste like this, I think I'd want to hang out at the Vietnamese stall more often. I like eating. always have, and II think I always will. There's so much yummy things out there for you to try. Japanese sushi. Bento. Curry. Sashimi. Teppanyaki. Kueh. Noodles. Dim sum. Steaks. Cakes. Desserts. Pudding. Ice cream. Rice. Fish. Salads. Vegetables. The list extends. Food is good. See? It rhymes. HAHA. I'm going to get whacked for such a silly comparison.
I'm often bored recently. Its a pervasive state of mind. I wonder what i can do about it. Its not like I have absolutely nothing to do. On the contrary in fact. Japanese lessons. Driving lessons. Belly dancing lessons. Tutoring my brother. Tutoring Kaen. Preparing for matriculation. Work. Chores. I'm busy. Busy and bored. I used to think it was an oxymoron. Now I know that its two very different things. One is a state of mind. The other is the level of activity. Two separate concepts. Its like being fit and being healthy. Two different things. if you don't know why check the dictionary. If you still don't know why, pretend you do, smile and nod. Just remember its different. Believe me. I don't blog about things that I'm uncertain of. I have an image to upkeep dearies.
Its been a YECH-Y day. Tutored my brother. Awful. Its like a slow death by fire and drowning. Locked in a glass cage of fire and thrown into the ocean. One of the worse ways to die. Able to see salvation, yet unable to reach it. And even the salvation you achieve hurts, and is likely to kill you. Yeah. To simplify it, it was painful. Sigh. I have to hand it to my family. No other person or entity drives me nuts as fast and absolutely as my family. Just have to hand it to these people. Oh well. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. What with meeting viv in the morning and Gackt and Kazuki featured in the magazine...
"I need new ways of saying that something is disgusting. Revolting. Gross. Unpleasant. Yucky. Yech. You get what I mean."
Natsukoi by SID
Yech. Thats the only suitable word, or non-word, that I an use to describe my day. Woke up feeling heavy. My body was like two hundred tonnes and counting. Lack of sleep, although I slept before midnight, and I did not wake up at night. Deep sleep for 7hours and I'm so bloody tired nonetheless. Humid day. Yeah, in the tropics in the middle of the year. Northern hemisphere and all that. Lousy weather for wearing work clothes. Great for the beach though. Too bad I don't work at the beach.
Went back to collect my certificates. A long, arduous walk up the main gate. Heels. Long pants. Heavy bag. What do you expect? Me to not complain about the utter ridiculousness of situating the main gate of the school in some obscure corner on a hill, located a minimum of four hundred meters away from the nearest bus stop? Sheesh. Its less a main gate than the side gate. Inaccessible. Irritating. I was perspiring buckets by the time I was in the library, and I still had to get back to the bus stop! Best part? At the bus stop, 151 took more than 20 minutes to come. This was on top of the awesome racket that the grass cutting people were making. And the little specks of grass that inevitably flew everywhere, and seemed directed specifically at this hot, sweaty and really pissed gal. Bad day.
School was revolting, to say the least. There has been a 14 year drought of President's Scholars, so they removed the board and placed a huge LCD screen there. Smart marketing eh? So instead of staring at the prime minister's name, we instead look at the various promotional videos of the school. Pathetic much? Of course, this is provided that you even notice the screen, what with that enormous silver THING sitting in the atrium. I have nothing against art. I like art. I think sculptures are cool. I have friends who do art. BUT THAT IS ONE HECK OF A WRONG PLACE TO PUT A SCULPTURE LIKE THAT. Yeah. That was what I wanted to shout. First, it most probably gets into the way of students who trying to get into the TA block. Secondly, it looks ominous. Serious. Lets just say that it just looks jarring. Whoever decided to put it there has no aesthetic sense. I'm not saying that person has zero artistic ability. I'm talking about aesthetic sense. Goodness. There is no need to announce the school's many weaknesses at the foyer. I mean, you can at least TRY to mask the rotting flesh with perfumed silks. And not expose it to the sun. Yech. If you have no substance, at least strive for better glamour.
Lunch was pretty good though. The first time I had Vietnamese food. Some pork noodle, that was sweet and a little sour. Yummy. Recommended by one of my colleagues. If most Vietnamese food taste like this, I think I'd want to hang out at the Vietnamese stall more often. I like eating. always have, and II think I always will. There's so much yummy things out there for you to try. Japanese sushi. Bento. Curry. Sashimi. Teppanyaki. Kueh. Noodles. Dim sum. Steaks. Cakes. Desserts. Pudding. Ice cream. Rice. Fish. Salads. Vegetables. The list extends. Food is good. See? It rhymes. HAHA. I'm going to get whacked for such a silly comparison.
I'm often bored recently. Its a pervasive state of mind. I wonder what i can do about it. Its not like I have absolutely nothing to do. On the contrary in fact. Japanese lessons. Driving lessons. Belly dancing lessons. Tutoring my brother. Tutoring Kaen. Preparing for matriculation. Work. Chores. I'm busy. Busy and bored. I used to think it was an oxymoron. Now I know that its two very different things. One is a state of mind. The other is the level of activity. Two separate concepts. Its like being fit and being healthy. Two different things. if you don't know why check the dictionary. If you still don't know why, pretend you do, smile and nod. Just remember its different. Believe me. I don't blog about things that I'm uncertain of. I have an image to upkeep dearies.
Its been a YECH-Y day. Tutored my brother. Awful. Its like a slow death by fire and drowning. Locked in a glass cage of fire and thrown into the ocean. One of the worse ways to die. Able to see salvation, yet unable to reach it. And even the salvation you achieve hurts, and is likely to kill you. Yeah. To simplify it, it was painful. Sigh. I have to hand it to my family. No other person or entity drives me nuts as fast and absolutely as my family. Just have to hand it to these people. Oh well. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. What with meeting viv in the morning and Gackt and Kazuki featured in the magazine...
"I need new ways of saying that something is disgusting. Revolting. Gross. Unpleasant. Yucky. Yech. You get what I mean."
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
Minutes
Playlist
Dear Tokyo by SID
Its been a long long time since I blogged properly about music. My recent posts have all been rantings of a semi-maniacal teenager. Yeah, I have lots of things to offload, but I think its beginning to sound like the ramblings of a troubled kid. Which I definitely am not. I'm not troubled. Well, not exactly. And I'm not a kid either. Ok, not exactly a kid either. What I'm going to do now, is to make you drool by telling you about all the amazing new songs I've managed to get hold off. HAHA. Tell me if you want any of it. I'm always enthusiastic about helping my favourite bands garner a greater following and earning more income. Like duh. Love should be shared all around. No, I'm not trying to be the next Barney the purple dinosaur. I just want to share the joy that comes with listening to Mao, hyde, Jui, Juri, Kato Kazuki and Gackt with the rest of the world. In case you have no idea who they are, they are the lead singers of SID, L'Arc-en-Ciel/ VAMPS, Vidoll, Versailles while Kazuki and Gackt are now solo respectively. If you are still lost, I recommend sitting down with me for about 3 hours while I preach about their awesomeness. Alternatively, for some less hardcore, you could Wikipedia or Google them. Yeah. There is something known as the Internet.
First is SID. Somehow dug out their old songs, like Ajisai, Rinjin and some other stragglers. WOW. That was my reaction. Mao sounds so good. Absolutely. Especially so when I unearthed Sentimental Macchiato as well. Ok, I think its spelled that way, because its all in Katakana, and I cant type Japanese on my Bento. A disturbing phenomenon that I intend to correct soon. Anyway, I love SID. The music is in this little niche thats neither hardcore rock nor pop. Amazing vocals, and it still has the quality that made me fall in love with them to begin with. Its the kind of song where you work with it running in the background and keep checking to remember the title of the song because it justs sounds so good. Its something thats neither jarring nor boring. Its not the noise that captures your attention, but rather the structure of the entire piece. A 4 minute slice of enjoyment. I particularly like Natsukoi (I think its pronounced like this) and Dear Tokyo.
Kazuki is improving too. Yes, his PVs still look like a budget production, but no matter how low quality his PV is, it cannot mask the fact that his vocals are improving. I adore artistes who improve, and he has definitely improved a lot. From the rather flat Hyotei renditions during Dreamlive and TeniMyus, his recent singles and for some songs in his last album were pretty good. Suna no Shiro (I think again), and instinctive love. Brilliant Snow and Love Bite. Sigh. I WANT MY MAGAZINE. It has 2 feature articles, one on Gackt and his new 10th Anniversary R+R release thing, as well Kazuki and his recent Venom and Easy Go singles. VIV! I WANT MY MAGAZINE. I can stare at their hot faces and practice my pathetic Japanese language skills as well. Killing two birds with one stone that costs around $25. VIV~
I wonder why. Its not like i like it. Its not like I made a concious effort. But I wonder why it happens. They say it just happens. But there has to be a root cause no? There has to be starting point, and a point of no return. Everything has a beginning, and I know ther should be an end. I cannot survive like this if there is no end. I'm at my limit. I'm hiding it well, but it'll all come out. I dont want it to come out. Its such an embarrassment. Such a ridiculous thing. Yet, its so important. Its so important to me...
"My love. My life. My god. I am what you make of me."
Dear Tokyo by SID
Its been a long long time since I blogged properly about music. My recent posts have all been rantings of a semi-maniacal teenager. Yeah, I have lots of things to offload, but I think its beginning to sound like the ramblings of a troubled kid. Which I definitely am not. I'm not troubled. Well, not exactly. And I'm not a kid either. Ok, not exactly a kid either. What I'm going to do now, is to make you drool by telling you about all the amazing new songs I've managed to get hold off. HAHA. Tell me if you want any of it. I'm always enthusiastic about helping my favourite bands garner a greater following and earning more income. Like duh. Love should be shared all around. No, I'm not trying to be the next Barney the purple dinosaur. I just want to share the joy that comes with listening to Mao, hyde, Jui, Juri, Kato Kazuki and Gackt with the rest of the world. In case you have no idea who they are, they are the lead singers of SID, L'Arc-en-Ciel/ VAMPS, Vidoll, Versailles while Kazuki and Gackt are now solo respectively. If you are still lost, I recommend sitting down with me for about 3 hours while I preach about their awesomeness. Alternatively, for some less hardcore, you could Wikipedia or Google them. Yeah. There is something known as the Internet.
First is SID. Somehow dug out their old songs, like Ajisai, Rinjin and some other stragglers. WOW. That was my reaction. Mao sounds so good. Absolutely. Especially so when I unearthed Sentimental Macchiato as well. Ok, I think its spelled that way, because its all in Katakana, and I cant type Japanese on my Bento. A disturbing phenomenon that I intend to correct soon. Anyway, I love SID. The music is in this little niche thats neither hardcore rock nor pop. Amazing vocals, and it still has the quality that made me fall in love with them to begin with. Its the kind of song where you work with it running in the background and keep checking to remember the title of the song because it justs sounds so good. Its something thats neither jarring nor boring. Its not the noise that captures your attention, but rather the structure of the entire piece. A 4 minute slice of enjoyment. I particularly like Natsukoi (I think its pronounced like this) and Dear Tokyo.
Kazuki is improving too. Yes, his PVs still look like a budget production, but no matter how low quality his PV is, it cannot mask the fact that his vocals are improving. I adore artistes who improve, and he has definitely improved a lot. From the rather flat Hyotei renditions during Dreamlive and TeniMyus, his recent singles and for some songs in his last album were pretty good. Suna no Shiro (I think again), and instinctive love. Brilliant Snow and Love Bite. Sigh. I WANT MY MAGAZINE. It has 2 feature articles, one on Gackt and his new 10th Anniversary R+R release thing, as well Kazuki and his recent Venom and Easy Go singles. VIV! I WANT MY MAGAZINE. I can stare at their hot faces and practice my pathetic Japanese language skills as well. Killing two birds with one stone that costs around $25. VIV~
I wonder why. Its not like i like it. Its not like I made a concious effort. But I wonder why it happens. They say it just happens. But there has to be a root cause no? There has to be starting point, and a point of no return. Everything has a beginning, and I know ther should be an end. I cannot survive like this if there is no end. I'm at my limit. I'm hiding it well, but it'll all come out. I dont want it to come out. Its such an embarrassment. Such a ridiculous thing. Yet, its so important. Its so important to me...
"My love. My life. My god. I am what you make of me."
Saturday, 13 June 2009
Hair
Playlist
Venus by Kato Kazuki
Okay dearies. Its official. I look like some Edo period Japanese gal. Why? Well, I cut my hair! Its a fringe cut, with a middle tier followed by the usual flowing locks. Yep. Rebonded again. Its $130, for the cut, rebonding and treatment. I think I shall have rebonded hair only until the end of this year. Let it grow out, cause now its a little dry, before I decide if I should look like a poodle for a year in university. Yes. I'm thinking of ceramic curls. Large wavy FAKE ceramic curls. Simply because my natural hair is this messy curly mop. Oh yeah. Did I mention that I plan to cut it short at the end of the year? And dye it dark blue? Post semester one exams of course. Maybe after JLPT. I have nice and thick hair. Tough too. Great for doing funny things. Anyway, images!
Fringe.
Side.
The middle tier is nice and straight.
On the whole.
I sorta like this hairstyle. Non-conformist. And yes. Its Lulubell's hairstyle. I've got quite a few people saying that I look Japanese. That I have an exotically Asian look. Yeah. Flat, button nose? Single eyelids? Puffy cheeks? Straight black hair? Check, check, check. Yup. I look Oriental. I speak Mandarin, Singlish, Japanese. As long as I'm not on the phone nor pissed off at you of course. When I'm angry, I tend to adopt this accent that is distinctively non-Asian. I'm not sure where I sound like I'm from, but no one will ask if I'm from China. Yes. People, as in China Chinese, do ask me which part of China I'm from. Well, the most I can say is that my great-grandparents are from Hainan Island. Other than that? Born and bred on this little island off Malaysia. Yep. I am part of some island family tree. We move from one small island to an even smaller island. Hopefully my children are on an island too. Like a private island somewhere in the Bahamas. Yeah. That would be awesome.
Went pubbing for the first time in my life. It was alright. If a tad bit boring. I mean, I can't get drunk. I can only try to get high on my company. Tough when its all INTJs. With a really innocent gal, and 2 people more interested in their handphones than their current company. It can't be helped. I'm not that interesting. And my contacts were hurting a bit as I had them on for more than 12 hours. Sigh. I like the people I was with, except maybe we should have gone clubbing. I suppose everyone was waiting for someone else to suggest something more interesting to do than wheel around in the wheelchair. Yes, we were at Clinic. Maybe if we were less self conscious? Oh yeah. Maybe they should have drank more. HAHA. Lower inhibitions and all that. So we would be less conscious of our image in front of classmates. Sigh. Disappointing, but I'd go again. Some other things were interesting. I shan't say it here, but there were other... Perks. Yeah. Not what you think. But I saw some things I'd like to better observe once more. So yeah. Anyone wants to go clubbing or pubbing can ask me along. I promise that you'll be able to get home. HAHA. I'm the teetotaler. Can't help it. I'm built this way.
Anyone knows why I cant access the language pack in my VAIO? I've dowloaded whatever updates there are. I've downloaded the language pack thingy from the Microsoft website. And I still can't type in Japanese! Help? Thanks dearies :)
"If I'm messed up, you belong to Pluto."
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