Living

I've packed my bags. I've bought all the things that I feel that I ought to buy. I've corresponded with my buddy. Now all that is left is for me to get onto the plane and fly to Tianjin, China on Monday. Serious. That's all that's left. Okay, I still need to finish my packing, as well to buy a gift for the host family, but I'm more or less done with the entire preparation part of the trip. Oh. I forgot, I still need to borrow a costume from the dance store for the presentation in the school. I happen to be the one modeling the Chinese Dance costume. Damn it. Anyway, what still need to be stuffed into my bags stands at:

2 sets of long johns
Undergarments and more socks
Toiletries (Towel, shampoo, conditioner, facial wash, moisturizer, toothbrush, toothpaste)
Hairdryer
Stockings
Universal Adapter
Chinese Dance costume
Gifts
Literature homework
Vitamin C pills
Medication...

I'm certain you get the idea. Its just the little things that I still need to pack, not the sweaters, pants kind of things. The general things are already more or less sorted out in my suitcase. Hmm. I'm actually quite tired. I suppose its from the multiple dance practices as well as the excitement of going overseas. Damn. Just remembered my homework. I shall have to complete about a third of my Math by Sunday if i want to leave this country with a guilt-free conscience. i guess its from enrolling in a mugger school like NJ that has spurred me to become so... aware of assignments. Oh, and it totally does not help that my Promotional grades were pretty lousy, with the 'A' levels being 11 months away as well. Shoot. A girl can no longer just enjoy a holiday; there are truckloads of things just WAITING to be completed by said girl, with commitments flying all over. I mean, schoolwork, dance, roller-blading, friends... and I have yet to do any REVISION! I am so totally screwed. Yup. I wonder how people with more extra-curricular and those with a more diverse social life keep up with all things going on. I mean, you can't have quality relationships and results without dedicating time, money and effort into all the areas. I mean, money can easily be pumped in, effort can be from coffee, sheer mental willpower to endure and time from reducing sleeping hours, multi-tasking and reducing travel time... but will you really enjoy your life like that? I mean, I like my sleep, I like slacking once in awhile... so I guess its not possible for me to sacrifice living for the sake of life. Oh well, everyone has their own priorities, so people will make their own choices. And our choices ultimately determine who and what we are. Sighx. We dig our own grave and build our own paradise. How good to be slammed into the brick wall of reality.

Shall go to bed now, I happen to have dance in about... 9 hours. Need sleep.



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