Hurt

Its weird how every time school starts after the holidays, the first day back is bound to totally suck. I'm serious. Today is an excellent example. GP was simply awful. The teacher, whom I shall not name, slammed all Arts stream students. I mean, she said, not once, nor twice, but four times, that she was 'horror-struck" to discover that her class consisted of near fifty percent Arts students. After that, she went on to 'assert' her argument by stating how Science students are logical, rational, methodical... Implicitly implying that Arts students are not. In colloquial terms, she was implying, not so subtly, that Arts students 'anyhow whack' without consideration of structure. Wow. How completely thoughtless. I suppose we can sue her for making discriminatory comments. I understand its normal to have a preference, but to the point where you address your class, half of which are from the Arts, making statements like these, is asking for trouble. Serious. An added motivation to prove her wrong, all to spite her...

I'm awfully sleepy. the medication prescribed by the sinseh was supposed to help me sleep better, yet... I'm not. I fall asleep way faster, but thats the only benefit so far. I still wake at the weirdest hour, and still combat fatigue in class. Sighx. I still have the bruises from the treatment on Saturday. it was pretty freaky to hear from the sinseh that I'm slightly anemic, have low blood pressure and back problems. She said I have a 65-year-old old woman's back! Argh. So I need treatment now if I don't want to suffer terribly in the last 40 years of my life. It made me feel really insecure. i mean, I'm not a really enthusiastic, professional dancer, yet my back is... poorly. What about dancers like my seniors, friends etc., who have been dancing since they were toddlers? Its inevitable to sustain injuries, so whats the status of their body? Hmm.

On a way lighter, more superficial note, my current favourite Laraku song is twinkle,twinkle and My Dear. Ok. I know its 2 songs. But its really AMAZING! Hyde can totally sing! The depth and range... Sighx. I'm intoxicated and drunk on it already. The really sad thing... which I think everyone knows by now, is that I can't possibly attend their concert! ARGH! Heart-broken... Oh well. I want more of their songs! There seems to be quite a number which I have yet to listen to. Yup. All I have heard are the more recent, more popular ones. The quest is now on for ALL songs! Haix. My brother is so going to scream at me for flooding iTunes with Japanese songs. Haha. I, however much yelled at, is fully aware of the fact that he listens to my songs, in secret of course. despite all his claims that I have horrible music taste, the truth is he doesn't really mind Laraku. in fact, I think he likes a few of their songs. Heehee. Oh. Duck. I want the song. I'm serious. I'm totally in love with Dir En Grey's Raison D'etre! I want! I want! Please? Arigatou!

I need to lose weight. No, its I need to lose fat. I have some 25.5% body fat, which is too much for my lifestyle. A cosplayer has to be lithe, not carting chunks of spare tyre, wobbly humps and other fat-related excess around. Have to get into shape for Tyki and Aoi. Both are like, lean and charismatic (I know, I know, why the hell am I doing such tough characters?! I'm not even remotely cool...), which equates to fat loss and more muscles. I'm so totally trying to make my life way more difficult... Haha. Oh well...

Shall leave to suffer in the hands of sadistic PE teachers...



"Pain in temporal, honour is forever...'