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Asrun Dreams by Gackt
You can say what you want. You can do whatever you want. I won't change my values. Yeah. Go ahead. Insult me. Ostracize me. At least I know that I have a foothold. I may lack a sense of purpose, but I know that my purpose will not be to kowtow to jerks like you. Yeah. I'm bitchy. So? You got a problem with that?
Things that piss me off are numerous. But for the sake of fools out there, I'm going to shorten it down into this post. I'll even give brief descriptions of my pet peeves. And I know you read my blog, so take note. Next time, I'll skin you alive and grill you. Not because I'm violent or anything. Just because. Yeah. I'm a 'vengeful female ghost remember'? Think Alma from F.E.A.R. 2. Not because I play the game. Inside joke. I know you don't get it.
Peeve 3:
People who cannot be bothered to remember birthdays. I don't care if you're bad with numbers or dates. Its not like I'm asking you to remember the birthday of everyone you meet. I'm talking about family, close friends, spouses... YOUR GIRLFRIEND/boyfriend. You know. It matters. I know there are a hundred and one different anniversaries, what with date of first date, date of first meeting, date of whatever-you-want-to-commemorate... But the birthday tops it ALL. So you better at least send a freaking SMS. For goodness sake, you have some 1000 free SMSes. Whats ONE for your GIRLFRIEND?! Even if its late, its better than NOTHING you jerk!
Peeve 2:
People who don't bother to do research. This applies to cosplayers, MBA applicants, friends, interviewees... The list extends. I cannot bring myself to respect those who cannot respect others. Not bothering to find out about the character, the programme, the requirements... It reeks of selfishness and lack of awareness of yourself and your surroundings. I do not suscribe to the excuse of no time. We all have time. Its how we squeeze and organize our day. Its how we sacrifice the indulgences to do what needs to be done. I'm not asking you to go without food, drink and sleep. I'm asking you to NOT watch that one hour of TV to do something more conducive. Sheesh.
And one of the most irritating thing I've come to realised is that of...
Peeve 1:
People with no sense of hygiene. Brush your teeth. Bath. Change your clothes. Wash your hair. Put your feet on the floor. Stop picking your nose. Trim your nails AT HOME. Goodness. the things people do. Or not do. Its no longer a matter of what looks good. It is being clean. Is that so difficult? Have you no self-awareness? Must you walk around without shoes?????? Yes. This is targeted at you. Slimy. Gross. I don't want to touch anything that you use. Stop. just beacuse you're male does not change the fact that you're icky. Puh-lease. I have no wish to stereotype but you fall into the category of 'men who are not attached or married after a certain age are weird'. I'm sure this is not true of many others. Maybe your fate is to get married at 80. I have honestly no idea. But from what I can see... You're dirty. A louse. Begone!
There, I've let of some steam. Please try not to fall into any of the above catergories. I tend to be not so nice. Otherwise... I'm sure I have a charming personality :)
"You have GOT to be joking..."
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
Monday, 19 January 2009
Resolution
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Kimi Hana by pigstar
This gal needs sleep. Money. Time. And entertainment. I am bored. Hopelessly so. There is this emptiness. Like a jellyfish drifting aimlessly in the sea. What is missing I wonder? I say its post-cosplay depression. But I wonder... is that really the problem? I think not. I think its something more pressing.
It has been 2 months since my last exam paper. Strangely enough it feels as if it has been longer. After all, I found a job one week after my last paper. So I've worked for about the same amount of time. I regret to say that I have been job hopping. And I think I will continue to job hop until I am able to do something that gets rid of this feeling of emptiness. i am not going to mope about. In a way, I have lost my footing. I destroyed the land I was standing upon. I know. Stupid of me. Still, this does not mean that I am about to drown. I won't go down like that. Not with so many things left undone. I shall not lose myself again.
I have seen things that I had rather not seen. I have said things I had rather not have to say. I have done things I had wish I do not have to do. My life is always like this. No matter how hard I struggle, there are still the things that you regret. Indeed, it was the best decision at that point in time. Indeed, I make it a point to minimise my regrets. Yet... And yet... It happens. I know. something I cannot fight, that I cannot win against. I try. I do. I fail. Is it worth it? At that moment, until this moment, yes.
Why does work accumulate when you're busy? And not come at all when you desperately want to do something? Why do you receive three calls all at once, and none when you want someone to call? Why do people take others for granted? Why doesn't that freaking bugger who told you to ignore offloaded work be the idiot who offloads his work onto you!? Why am I underpaid? And seriously overworked?
I might as well wait for a return message from a bottle I hurled into the sea...
"Yes, I'm having a fabulous time. I'm having so much fun that I'm coughing blood."
Kimi Hana by pigstar
This gal needs sleep. Money. Time. And entertainment. I am bored. Hopelessly so. There is this emptiness. Like a jellyfish drifting aimlessly in the sea. What is missing I wonder? I say its post-cosplay depression. But I wonder... is that really the problem? I think not. I think its something more pressing.
It has been 2 months since my last exam paper. Strangely enough it feels as if it has been longer. After all, I found a job one week after my last paper. So I've worked for about the same amount of time. I regret to say that I have been job hopping. And I think I will continue to job hop until I am able to do something that gets rid of this feeling of emptiness. i am not going to mope about. In a way, I have lost my footing. I destroyed the land I was standing upon. I know. Stupid of me. Still, this does not mean that I am about to drown. I won't go down like that. Not with so many things left undone. I shall not lose myself again.
I have seen things that I had rather not seen. I have said things I had rather not have to say. I have done things I had wish I do not have to do. My life is always like this. No matter how hard I struggle, there are still the things that you regret. Indeed, it was the best decision at that point in time. Indeed, I make it a point to minimise my regrets. Yet... And yet... It happens. I know. something I cannot fight, that I cannot win against. I try. I do. I fail. Is it worth it? At that moment, until this moment, yes.
Why does work accumulate when you're busy? And not come at all when you desperately want to do something? Why do you receive three calls all at once, and none when you want someone to call? Why do people take others for granted? Why doesn't that freaking bugger who told you to ignore offloaded work be the idiot who offloads his work onto you!? Why am I underpaid? And seriously overworked?
I might as well wait for a return message from a bottle I hurled into the sea...
"Yes, I'm having a fabulous time. I'm having so much fun that I'm coughing blood."
Sunday, 11 January 2009
Egad
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twinkle, twinkle by L'Arc~en~Ciel
I don't believe it. I'm still awake. I'm so going to be killed by Dad. He's coming back on the 7AM flight. How in the world am I going to clean the house? How in the world am I in the world going to do laundry without Sir Super Slack finding out about the jeans? What will I say when my mom asks me about all the clothes? I'm so dead. Dead I tell you. My alimentary canal hurts. Insufficient carbohydrates. Yeah. I'm at the photo shoot chalet now. Finished bathing. Wore a wig for more than 10 hours. Make up for as long. Nowaki. Kusou Nowaki from JunJou Romantica. I have no idea if I look alright. Cause everything that I see in the mirror is my own perspective. From a slightly different angle, I might look absolutely Nowaki, and from yet another... Fail. Still, I've yet to be told that I look awful. So I assume its ok. Not erroneously, I hope. I'll link to the site when its done. So far has a few. Here is a video, and here are some photos. I'm not direct linking, so you'll have to scroll down a bit on the thread. Yup. My team. I'm hardly ever posting as there are some problems with my home's connection. Still, it does not mean that I'm not active!
The photos were taken with Kaen. We were absolutely in character. Without trying to be. It was an unconscious thing. The reactions were all natural. The expressions were not very difficult. If a photographer was following us the entire time, its scary how you need people to stalk you at certain points, and if we had a imaginative helper... The sky was likely to be the limit. I'm serious. I'm not saying Melo is a poor helper! Absolutely not! She's super cute and great... But she had to leave early... Not her fault! Oh well.
I think it was thanks to the 7 years. The similar interests. It made shooting pretty easy. Nothing felt unnatural. Quite comfortable with her. Like duh. When she shoved me away, I was really hurt. Not acting. Its that you don't expect someone you know so well to push you away. You're thrown off guard by the force, the intent, the person... Everything. I think if Hiroki pushed Nowaki away, I'd cry if I were him. I was really hurt... When I was lying down, the smug satisfaction was for real, as I was so tired that lying down felt so good. Really good. Come on. Everyone doing everything for you... And all you need to do is lie there and look happy. Duh you'll look happy!
I don't want to go back to work. I'm in the mood to laze. Yes. I'll go sleep when my hair dries. I do need to go back to reality. I need sleep. Will continue when I have time...
"I do not need an eternity. I only need an eternal moment."
twinkle, twinkle by L'Arc~en~Ciel
I don't believe it. I'm still awake. I'm so going to be killed by Dad. He's coming back on the 7AM flight. How in the world am I going to clean the house? How in the world am I in the world going to do laundry without Sir Super Slack finding out about the jeans? What will I say when my mom asks me about all the clothes? I'm so dead. Dead I tell you. My alimentary canal hurts. Insufficient carbohydrates. Yeah. I'm at the photo shoot chalet now. Finished bathing. Wore a wig for more than 10 hours. Make up for as long. Nowaki. Kusou Nowaki from JunJou Romantica. I have no idea if I look alright. Cause everything that I see in the mirror is my own perspective. From a slightly different angle, I might look absolutely Nowaki, and from yet another... Fail. Still, I've yet to be told that I look awful. So I assume its ok. Not erroneously, I hope. I'll link to the site when its done. So far has a few. Here is a video, and here are some photos. I'm not direct linking, so you'll have to scroll down a bit on the thread. Yup. My team. I'm hardly ever posting as there are some problems with my home's connection. Still, it does not mean that I'm not active!
The photos were taken with Kaen. We were absolutely in character. Without trying to be. It was an unconscious thing. The reactions were all natural. The expressions were not very difficult. If a photographer was following us the entire time, its scary how you need people to stalk you at certain points, and if we had a imaginative helper... The sky was likely to be the limit. I'm serious. I'm not saying Melo is a poor helper! Absolutely not! She's super cute and great... But she had to leave early... Not her fault! Oh well.
I think it was thanks to the 7 years. The similar interests. It made shooting pretty easy. Nothing felt unnatural. Quite comfortable with her. Like duh. When she shoved me away, I was really hurt. Not acting. Its that you don't expect someone you know so well to push you away. You're thrown off guard by the force, the intent, the person... Everything. I think if Hiroki pushed Nowaki away, I'd cry if I were him. I was really hurt... When I was lying down, the smug satisfaction was for real, as I was so tired that lying down felt so good. Really good. Come on. Everyone doing everything for you... And all you need to do is lie there and look happy. Duh you'll look happy!
I don't want to go back to work. I'm in the mood to laze. Yes. I'll go sleep when my hair dries. I do need to go back to reality. I need sleep. Will continue when I have time...
"I do not need an eternity. I only need an eternal moment."
Wednesday, 7 January 2009
Ponyo
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My Dear by L'Arc-en-Ciel
Ponyo! Oh my goodness, Ponyo is super KAWAII! I watched the movie on thefirst day of the year. With my parents. Yeah. How old am I to still watch movies with my parents? There were loads of kids in the cinema. Making lots of noise. Babbling to their parents. Complaining that they need to go to the toilet. I have nothing against the kids. Kids will be kids. I'm actually pissed by their parents. To begin with, the movie is in JAPANESE. Unless the tot happens to know Japanese, I have no idea how they will understand what is being said. Indeed, the Japanese used is not too difficult, but some portions cannot exactly be understood based on viewing alone. So... I suppose they expect their little darlings to learn Japanese on the spot. I mean, their children can't read the subtitles. How else will they understand what is going on? Oh. I know! They'll spend the whole movie explaining to their kid. And disturbing me next to them.
Just started my Japanese lessons. Mine is a really large class, with about twenty-five students. Its a beginner class. Hougang. One minute away from Heartland Mall. My teacher is Singaporean, which, at the beginner level is preferred. After all, you do need someone to explain the basics to you. Translate. Create learning links. That sort of thing. Alright so far. This evening will be the second lesson, but I already have homework to complete.
I will not be applying for overseas university this year. Reason is simple. Too many things going on all at once. Also, its not like I will not be able to apply next year. A transfer is quite normal overseas. Of course, its best if I can get in the first time round, but... The glamour is lost. I still want to pursue higher education overseas as I feel that the quality of education is better. Holistically of course.
I have ventured into the Korean music industry. TVXQ in particular. Mirotic, especially. I know, I know, parts of it looks like washing machine powder advertisement. Still. While I will not say their singing is fantastic, its pretty reasonable. That, and the fact that they are extremely easy on the eyes. Plus, they can dance! The washing machine powder advertisement dance it is, but overall is okay. Haha. This, does not mean that I have abandoned the Japanese music industry. In fact, I'm curently playing Malice Mizer's Le Ciel. I have listened to the CD so many times that I think I'll scratch the CD, while my phone constantly runs out of battery. Testimony of my love of Le Ciel.
I'm afraid my posters will start to yellow. Must constantly maintain the status of my shrine...
"Without you, there would be more oxygen for me."
My Dear by L'Arc-en-Ciel
Ponyo! Oh my goodness, Ponyo is super KAWAII! I watched the movie on thefirst day of the year. With my parents. Yeah. How old am I to still watch movies with my parents? There were loads of kids in the cinema. Making lots of noise. Babbling to their parents. Complaining that they need to go to the toilet. I have nothing against the kids. Kids will be kids. I'm actually pissed by their parents. To begin with, the movie is in JAPANESE. Unless the tot happens to know Japanese, I have no idea how they will understand what is being said. Indeed, the Japanese used is not too difficult, but some portions cannot exactly be understood based on viewing alone. So... I suppose they expect their little darlings to learn Japanese on the spot. I mean, their children can't read the subtitles. How else will they understand what is going on? Oh. I know! They'll spend the whole movie explaining to their kid. And disturbing me next to them.
Just started my Japanese lessons. Mine is a really large class, with about twenty-five students. Its a beginner class. Hougang. One minute away from Heartland Mall. My teacher is Singaporean, which, at the beginner level is preferred. After all, you do need someone to explain the basics to you. Translate. Create learning links. That sort of thing. Alright so far. This evening will be the second lesson, but I already have homework to complete.
I will not be applying for overseas university this year. Reason is simple. Too many things going on all at once. Also, its not like I will not be able to apply next year. A transfer is quite normal overseas. Of course, its best if I can get in the first time round, but... The glamour is lost. I still want to pursue higher education overseas as I feel that the quality of education is better. Holistically of course.
I have ventured into the Korean music industry. TVXQ in particular. Mirotic, especially. I know, I know, parts of it looks like washing machine powder advertisement. Still. While I will not say their singing is fantastic, its pretty reasonable. That, and the fact that they are extremely easy on the eyes. Plus, they can dance! The washing machine powder advertisement dance it is, but overall is okay. Haha. This, does not mean that I have abandoned the Japanese music industry. In fact, I'm curently playing Malice Mizer's Le Ciel. I have listened to the CD so many times that I think I'll scratch the CD, while my phone constantly runs out of battery. Testimony of my love of Le Ciel.
I'm afraid my posters will start to yellow. Must constantly maintain the status of my shrine...
"Without you, there would be more oxygen for me."
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