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Gekidou by On/Off

Okay. As part of the deal, I'm uploading this online. Hilarious no?

I shall not horrify you innocent kids with all the gory details. Crux of the matter is that I had lots of fun. Yeah, I perspired a Lake Toba. I stood there until my leg cramped up. I did awfully socially irresponsible things. I lauged very loudly. I made fun of others. I made others wait. I waited for others. I was a public nuisance. I had fun.

I saw something hilarious on my way out of my home to meet Queen and Kaen for dinner. Make that a few hilarious things. I saw a gay couple kissing on the overhead bridge near my home bus stop. No, they were not hot. They quickly stepped away from each other the moment they saw me sprinting up the steps, but I saw anyway. I sorta half-smiled at them and dashed off. Not sure if I freaked them out. Hope not. Hey. I can empathise. Really. Ask Kaen. HAHA. Next was a woman who, I think, had implants. She was not unpleasant looking. A plain face with make up plastered on it. Sigh. People these days. Anyway... I think fake as her breasts were not moving at all. Come on, I dont go around making a habit of staring at people's chest. She was wearing a skin-tight red top. Plunging neckline so low I can tell she's not wearing a bra. So vulgar. Her chest was virtually spiiling out. And they did not move when she was stalking at the bus stop in her three inch stilletoes. Nor when the bus swayed and she had to grab something. One word. Fake.

Okay. I think more for next time.

"Cracked. Shattered. Damaged beyond repair. Still, it is merely a shell. Not my essence."

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Tinkling of my wristlet...



I saw this at the Vidoll Lyrics Translation webbie. Its so cute I decided to do it to. Yes. Its a MeMe. So? Got a problem?



01. If you were stranded on a deserted island, which member of a band would you like to have with you?



Eh. I have no idea. Most of the guys in Visual Kei bands are.. Err. People I don't want to be stuck on a deserted island with. No Gackt. No matter how cool he is. No hyde. He's a princess. Giru from Vidoll? He's pretty down-to-earth. Ok. Comparatively.



02. If you had the chance to see a band live that you don’t even know or one you hated, which one would you pick?



One I don't know. Try new music..



03. Would you ever buy a CD used just to complete your collection?



Nopes. I need money for other purposes.



04. If you were filming a movie, similar to a movie you really like, who would cast as the main role(s)? —state the movie and characters.



My favourite movie is... I don't have a favourite movie... Spirited Away? I like the voice actors as they are, thank you very much. Hmm. Moon Child was nice. Instead of Wang Lee Hom, I think... Jui from Vidoll. The girl should be... Eh. Remains the same? Lets not make it a gay movie nyah~



05. As your dying wish, you can only choose to see ONE band live. Which band would you choose?



Malice Mizer if they are still performing. Otherwise Laruku. Definitely.



06. Are there any bands you ever didn’t like, but somehow found yourself liking them?



Used to hate Linkin Park. Now I'm a fan. Used to think Gackt was a cocky bastard. He still is, just that he's an awesome and wonderfully amazing cocky bastard now. Haha.



07. Although Visual Kei stand for Visual Style, do you ever like or judge bands solely on their looks? Be honest!



Nope. Simply because I'm introduced to the music first.



08. If you could start up your own visual band, what position would you take and who else from the visual scene would you include in your band? They can be from any band, active or disbanded. You choose! The number of members and positions, it’s all up to you. And give yourself a band name too if you want.



I can't play ANY instrument. And I can't exactly sing. So I think I'll just be the manager or something. Yeah. The band... I like Gackt's voice. Its solid. Rich. Has depth. Lots of texture. But hyde's versatility is superb. Has range... Eh. Drummer... Guitarist... Bassist... Like I said, I cant play instruments, and I cant tell who is good. I know if its lousy, but I dont know if they are just ok. Hmm. If I ever manage to decide on anyone as vocalist, I'll let them pick the members. HAHA. I did not answer the question nyah~



09. Alright now, which band is your guilty-pleasure? One you fear people would question you for liking?

J-Rock and Visual Kei is considered a guilty pleasure. After all, hardly any of my friends know what it is they are singing. They complain its loud, noisy, screechy... I think the main grouse is that they dont know what is the content. Let me tell you. Its sex. Drugs. Religion. Chaos. Death. Love. Yeah. Thats the generally content.

10. Aren’t you tired of all these bands suddenly disbanding? Which band has been the biggest disappointment to you?

Malice Mizer. I love their music...

11. If you could film a PV for any song of any one band (whether they be disbanded or if the song is an older one of theirs), which band and song would you choose?

Malice Mizer's N.P.S N.G.S. I'll make it super psychedelic.

12. If you could be a support member for any band, which would you choose?

I had better not. I'll just hasten the band's demise.

13. Which jrocker would you be convinced was living a second/double life that no one would know about?

Most of them do already. I mean, before make up and after make up... I think not even their mother would recognize them . I mean, I've seen a few on Style Council. SCARY, the power of make-up...

14. Is there a specific area in Japan where you think has the greatest bands? (i.e. Nagoya, Fukuoka, Osaka, Tokyo, etc.)

Osaka. I'm aware that most bands hail from Osaka. No idea why though...

15. If you could choose any 2 bands to do a collaboration for a song/single, which 2 bands would you choose?

Vidoll and SID. No idea why. Just feel that it has potential. Either that or there will be a catfight and we can all pick up the ripped pieces of clothing of the guys. HAHA.

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The printer... Jason's playing Wonder Girl's Nobody...

My Japanese Elementary 1 test was yesterday. The school said it was easy. My teacher said it was easy. Even the admin lady said it was easy. Like real. It was NOT. The translation portion was awful. The listening test, was a hearing test, the way the direct translation written on the test paper said it was. Why? The static from the tape was awful. Yes. Tape. Static. I could understand what they said. No problem for someone who listens to a minimum of an hour of Japanese music a day. The issue was with the static. The え and the で sounded exactly the same. I think I'm going to fail the listening portion. I'm not joking. Oh well. At least I think I should pass. Whether I get full marks or 51, its still a pass anyway.

I wanna go shopping. I have no idea why. Its not like I have a lot of spare cash. Neither is it that I have nothing to do. I just like the idea of wandering around an enclosed, controlled environment to people watch. First and foremost, there is air-con, one of the most amazing inventions of the modern world. Next up, nice toilets. More importantly, toilets that I do not need to clean. I can do whatever I want. I'm not inconsiderate, but sometimes, having to wipe every drop of water off the basin can get on you nerves. Yeah. Another thing I like about shopping is trying on clothes. I like to see what suits me, what looks good on me, what designs hides the flabby arms and fat thighs that I cant seem to get rid off. So shopping is necessary even. Another thing I like are the mirrors. Its everywhere. On the walls. In the lifts. The changing room. Call me narcisstic, vain, low self-esteem or all the above but I'm the type to keep adjusting and preen in the mirror. Obviously, I do it as subtly as possible. After all, I dont want to crack the mirror. I think it started when I started cosplaying. I need to take note of my expressions, body language, posture... I need mirrors.

Oh yes. I know. I unlocked my blog. Why? Simple reason. My friends scolded me for making their lives more difficult than it had a need to be. My argument was that if I mattered enough for them to want to read my blog, logging in is nothing. Their argument was that if they mattered enough, I would unlock it. Considering the thirty or so people who have to routinely sign in... Plus the fact, I found this out by accident, that I sent invites to the wrong email and hurt friends who did not get the invite... I surrendered to my audience. Yes. Go celebrate. Like you said. You matter. So I shall be nice and kind and caring and considerate. Yes. Go puke. Yeah. I'm shameless. But I know you love me anyway, so it doesnt matter. You can insult me 'cos I know you care :)

"Awaken me at the end of reason... To beyond the rings of seven colors."

Uppie~

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Ajisai by Vidoll

I've just spent the past morning on university applications. I assure you, it is not at all fun to keep filing in your name, date of birth, qualifications and other details time and time again. Best part? I'm just filing in it four times. I pity those scholarship applicants. Each scholarship requires a different form. On top of one for each university. I think it would drive the sanest of us all crazy from the repetitive nature. Its not like you will definitely get the place. Nor is it free. Nor is it interesting. A huge bore. A huge pain. The questions asked are boring too. The normal cliched questions. I still have one USP application to complete. Procrastinating now. As usual.

I need to upload the cruise photos. But I'm too lazy to do it properly... Sigh. If I dont do it now. I'll never do it. Sigh. Up it goes on Facebook again. I think I'll most probably only upload around ten photos. Since there was not much that I actually took. Its fun having a camera, but its also a burden when you're worried about it getting lost/stolen/dropped on the floor. Better yet, it descends into the blue abyss in the ocean. So yeah. Limited shots. Half of it is the dinner I had at Bella Vista I think.

I'm blasting Vidoll while I'm blogging. Not good. Its super hypnotic. I think I'm going to fall asleep soon. With my USP application left to fester. HAHA. Not funny. If I dont finish up the application... I think it will remain in cyberspace for a long, long time. Okie. Shall wrap it up asap.

Was watching videos of how the Visual Kei guys achieve the stage look from make-up-less. Believe me when I say you would not recognise them on the street without make-up. Its amazingly drastic. Its reassuring to note how much make-up they use so that you feel less insecure when you compare your face in the mirror with them. They have good facial structure and really tough skin and hair to withstand the stuff they do to themselves. So you would not know if the guy you bumped into on the train in Japan was Mana-san. HAHA. Not our fault. Oh yeah. Saw this. For all the uninitiated, this is not LOLITA. This is known as Princess fashion. Lolita... Is something else entirely. Less modern. More cloth. Not necessarily pink. Go research if you have to.

"The grief of a previous life, trauma and painful feelings... "

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Blue Star by Vidoll

My world has collapsed upon me. I think I now understand what Owen truly means to say. Disillusionment. Disbelief. I'm in shock. In denial. No, I'm not Egyptian. I'm wallowing in self-pity. I think death would be better. Less painful. Still. I do not know. I have never died before. For death seems still withheld. Will just have to wait for my turn. Its alright. Only a bit longer. And I can finally sleep. Hopefully with no more disruptions. Am I depressing you? I'm sorry I cant be happy too.

I'm mediocre. Stuck in limbo again. As usual. Why do I even bother? I am wasting my time.

I will not announce my source of embarrassment on my blog. No point depressing myself further by typing it all out. So ugly too. I do have some aesthetic sense. I should be dead.

I have no idea what to do now. So lost. Overwhelmed. Lost at sea, the way hyde puts it in Cape of Storms. I agree. The sheer vastness. The bleakness that comes with knowing that there is nothing out there to catch you if you fall. No security. No stability. Thrashed about by the elements. I'm in pieces.

I do not know what else to say. I have no real mood to say anything. Ranting is not sufficient. Complaining does nothing. Tearing my hair out will make me bald. Crying will make my eyes puffy. Comfort food makes me unable to cosplay properly. All bottled up. With nowhere to go. I think I might just die from frustration. Not like it will be anything big. Just buried under all the things left unsaid. As usual.

"Bleeding to death without a wound..."

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Illicit Love by Vidoll

I signed the International Gackt Fan petition. Here. Scroll down. Click here and there. Sign it too. I'll love you more for it. Serious. Haha.



I am upset with the Ministry of Education. For a simple reason. Why could they not have told us the relase date of our results. In other countries, the ususal is an announcement of four to five weeks. In Singapore, you just wait.

Sighx.

Time goes by so slowly...

"Hurry up yer punks! Get digging 'for I kick yer!"

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Nectar by Vidoll

I'm back at MBA! Woohoo! I had no idea I missed the place so much! I know I missed MBA, but not to such an extent. Muacks to everyone for making me feel like I have never really left to begin with. Its kinda strange to be working in th same ofice as Germaine though. I feel guilty. As if I'm taking her work away from her. I mean, its a little silly since there is obviously sufficient work to go around, but still. Maybe its just the nerves talking.

Yes. I'm nervous. For the hundredth time, I shall announce it. I. Am. Freaking. Scared. I am afraid of mediocrity. I think everyone who knows me knows that by now. I'm torn between relief that the results are FINALLY going to be out on Friday, and sheer nervousness from the awareness that my jovial little holiday is near to being over. I'll have to cram applications. Write numerous essays. Go for interviews. Justify myself to people... HECK. I hate having to justify being myself to others. So what if I'm paranoid and loud and egoistic? So what if I'm a workhorse and stubborn and sharp-tongued? This is me. Why must I convince you that I have a reason to exist? If you don't want a person like me, throw me out. Don't pretend to be interested in me just so that you can tell your boss that you sat through 4 gruelling hours of interviews. You can send me out after the first three minutes and use the other tweve minutes to sip coffee, nap and chat among yourselves. I will understand. Really. After all, its my time you're wasting too.

I have decided that I will do proper research for Vidoll. I mean, I like them, but I have no idea how many people there are in the band. I have no idea how many albums they have. The name of their lead singer? Nope. What they look like? Nope. How long have they been around? Nope. Why are they called Vidoll? Nope. NOTHING. Except that I like their music. Anyhow, this is the result of my search. 5 people. They sound great. But looks wise... ERRR. Lets just say that I recommend listening more than watching them. Only Jui and Shun are ok. Rame looks like a Thai trans, if I say it as it is. Tero... Seems strange. A bit. Fat in fact. Giru... Not sure. Cant really see him. They look better in the PVs when they play their instruments. I guess its because they are moving and you cant really see anything, except lots of clothes and hair flying. I have no idea why, but they like bottom up camera angles too. I mean, yeah, guys and all but faking upskirt photos? ANYWAY. I am not trying to discourage viewership. In fact, I recommend Vidoll. So what if they don't look good? They sound AWESOME. Ok. Its awesome if you like heavy guitar, heavy bass AND heavy drums. This does not mean you cant hear singing. Jui can sing. I would not be listening to them continously if Jui could not sing. The overall sound of Vidoll is amazing. A cacophony of noise to create music. I like~ Very rock. Those who would like a slightly more visual experience should stick to the pretty boys of Versailles. Not that there is anything wrong with that. Just. Not something I can listen to for extended peroid of time. Yeah.

Only a few more days...

"右手のカッターと左手のドラッグと薬指の深い愛と..."