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Nectar by Vidoll

I'm back at MBA! Woohoo! I had no idea I missed the place so much! I know I missed MBA, but not to such an extent. Muacks to everyone for making me feel like I have never really left to begin with. Its kinda strange to be working in th same ofice as Germaine though. I feel guilty. As if I'm taking her work away from her. I mean, its a little silly since there is obviously sufficient work to go around, but still. Maybe its just the nerves talking.

Yes. I'm nervous. For the hundredth time, I shall announce it. I. Am. Freaking. Scared. I am afraid of mediocrity. I think everyone who knows me knows that by now. I'm torn between relief that the results are FINALLY going to be out on Friday, and sheer nervousness from the awareness that my jovial little holiday is near to being over. I'll have to cram applications. Write numerous essays. Go for interviews. Justify myself to people... HECK. I hate having to justify being myself to others. So what if I'm paranoid and loud and egoistic? So what if I'm a workhorse and stubborn and sharp-tongued? This is me. Why must I convince you that I have a reason to exist? If you don't want a person like me, throw me out. Don't pretend to be interested in me just so that you can tell your boss that you sat through 4 gruelling hours of interviews. You can send me out after the first three minutes and use the other tweve minutes to sip coffee, nap and chat among yourselves. I will understand. Really. After all, its my time you're wasting too.

I have decided that I will do proper research for Vidoll. I mean, I like them, but I have no idea how many people there are in the band. I have no idea how many albums they have. The name of their lead singer? Nope. What they look like? Nope. How long have they been around? Nope. Why are they called Vidoll? Nope. NOTHING. Except that I like their music. Anyhow, this is the result of my search. 5 people. They sound great. But looks wise... ERRR. Lets just say that I recommend listening more than watching them. Only Jui and Shun are ok. Rame looks like a Thai trans, if I say it as it is. Tero... Seems strange. A bit. Fat in fact. Giru... Not sure. Cant really see him. They look better in the PVs when they play their instruments. I guess its because they are moving and you cant really see anything, except lots of clothes and hair flying. I have no idea why, but they like bottom up camera angles too. I mean, yeah, guys and all but faking upskirt photos? ANYWAY. I am not trying to discourage viewership. In fact, I recommend Vidoll. So what if they don't look good? They sound AWESOME. Ok. Its awesome if you like heavy guitar, heavy bass AND heavy drums. This does not mean you cant hear singing. Jui can sing. I would not be listening to them continously if Jui could not sing. The overall sound of Vidoll is amazing. A cacophony of noise to create music. I like~ Very rock. Those who would like a slightly more visual experience should stick to the pretty boys of Versailles. Not that there is anything wrong with that. Just. Not something I can listen to for extended peroid of time. Yeah.

Only a few more days...

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