You Are Your Playlist

I went online hunting for more Prince Of Tennis songs and found this super interesting thing called a Music MeMe. The rules are simple:

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
NO CHEATING!

So here we go...

How are you feeling today? Yokogao by Okiayu Ryoutaro. Okay. My profile? Whats that supposed to mean? That I'm who I am? Like Tezuka? What? Somebody explain this to me!

Will you get far in life? Lan Se Feng Bao by Jay Chou. Err. I supposed my life would be pretty... violent and unexpected?

How do your friends see you? Lang Man Shou Ji by Jay Chou. I'm ROMANTIC?! Gosh. That's super weird. Oh. I assume there's an element of unrequited love too. Wow.

Will you get married? Closer To The Edge by Linkin Park. I guess its clear. I like my solitude, and that I'll most prbably end up breaking up/divorcing my boyfriend/husband. Sighx.

What is your life's theme song? Never Surrender By Okiayu Ryoutaro. O_o. Amazing. Yay, its official that I'm stubborn and determined. I think this is the only positive one so far.

What is the story of your life? For Real by Tokuyama Hidenori. GASP. My life seems to be like Gensomaiden Saiyuki. I seriously don't know if this is good or bad. Good 'cause its... exciting, bad 'cause I'm most probably going to get hurt, injured, shot at or shoot someone, etc... Its cool in an anime, not in real life. *shivers*

What was high school like? My December by Linkin Park. Its a ... sad period of time, lonely, feeling that there's something I missed out... Sighx.

How can you get ahead in life? Zutto Kimi Ni Soba De by TOM*CAT. I need to cheer up and put the pain behind me, need to chase my dreams, pursue... argh. What a positive song. It is totally supported by the dull picture painted before.

What is tomorrow going to be like? Tsumetai Yoru by Matsukaze Masayu. It seems like tomorrow will have nothing that I can believe in... but there seems to be hope left.

What is the best thing about your friends? Shuffle by Okui Masami. Huh? I'm not sure what, but my friends seem to be a miracle? Like in this lost, lying, painful, hurting world, they will make me a winner? Huh? I'm lost. So they'll show me the way. Right.

What is in store for the next weekend? I Could Be the One by Stacie Orrico. I'll find salvation in God next week? Or someone who makes me feel special? Yeah right. I'll get back in a week and tell you.

What song best describes you? Mata Ashita by Matsukaze Masayu, Miyano Mamoru, etc... The entire Ouran High Gang. Tomorrow will be full of smiles? Fine. I'm a positive person. No matter if the sky falls on me, if its violent(?)... I'll still smile tomorrow. Okay.

How is your life going? Kutsuzure by Matsuda Ryouji. I suppose things are tough, but I'm taking it slowly in my stride, that no matter how awful things get, I'll plow on...

What song will play at your funeral? Aisubeki Hoshi by Okiayu Ryoutaro. The Lovable Star. Interesting. Anyone who can translate and tell me what it means would have my gratitude.

How does the world see you? Koori No Sekai by Suwabe Junichi. Oops. This is bad. Ice World. Anyone care to translate the song? All I know is that its a sad sad sad and cold song. About snowstorms. Anyone wants some ice-cream?

Will you have a happy life? Make You Free by Kimeru. Hah. So I should have a pretty good life when I'm able to step out of some shadow of my past. Okie. So where's the shadow?

What do your friends really think of you? October by Suwabe Junichi. Its Atobe Keigo's Birthday song. So they think I'm looking for a fight and relishing the joy of battle. No patience for sentimental people. My, my. Or what? They think I'm born in October? Sorry but I'm a Saggitaurus!

What song describes the person you're attracted to? Oblivion... by Suwabe Junichi. Someone who breaks my heart and makes me want to run away so that I won't get hurt? Or is it a sign that I like Atobe, which is SUPER true. Or I would be in Oblivion before I'm attracted to a REAL guy? I need enlightenment.

What message would you like to tell the next generation? Happy People by Skoop On Somebody. Be happy? Ummm. I see...

Do you have a deep dark secret? Dakishimete Shimai Sousa by Okiayu Ryoutaro. I suppose yes... or is it no?

What will I be eating next Tuesday? Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne. AHHHH! I'm going to pack food on Tuesday... NORMAL food.

What will I feel/think the moment I wake up tomorrow morning? Crafty by Kiuchi Hidenobu. I'm going to scheme and collect data and plan first thing in the morning? I'm a morning person, but I don't think its gonna be the case...

What will happen on my way home from work next Thursday? Love And Lust by Okiayu Ryoutaro and Kosugi Juurouta. I'm not going to school on THURSDAY. Definitely NOT.

What will happen on my way home from work next Wednesday? Session by Linkin Park. This one I can't infer anything. Some help here?

What will be my recurrant thought/mood over the next weekend? Remember The Name by Mike Shinoda. I'll feel like I'm being undercut and unappreciated. This is awful.

How will I go about studying for Monday's classes tomorrow? Birthday by Aozu. I'll behave as if its my birthday and not bother study. I suppose this is the most accurate of all.


This is soo cool. And pretty unexpected. Its sorta like trying to predict you based on your song preference. I suppose, in a way, its more reliable then tarot cards and horoscope stuff. I mean, the songs in your playlist reflect you right? Sighx. As you ca see, my life pretty much sucks. As I've so obtusely been hinting at for the past few posts. Sighx. I life you struggle like mad, suffer like hell, hope like a fairytale princess and die like trash. In short, life's a bitch. Woof, woof.

Contrast

Today was one of the rare few days that made me feel like an anti-social freak of nature cum social animal. Never said that I was consistent. It was really simple. I was talking to Duck, and she was telling me these things about her OG and her class, all nice and wonderful things... All which only contributed to the sinking feeling within me. Every thing she said gave me this sensation that I was this problematic child who can't really cooperate with the people around her, hence this dread for attending school, that if I really tried, I'd find A02 to be this group of nice, caring and interesting individuals. Yeah, right. I'd sooner be able to convince myself that I could fly. However, when I compared myself to this other friend of mine, I felt like a party animal. She really detests her class and school, to the extent that she feels being by herself, or me, is like salvation. Now I know why some say they mug to live. Which is precisely what I'm starting to do. I mug because I'm bored. There is nothing else left to do except mug to leave this school for university. Both Tng and I have arrived at this rather suddening conclusion after a long and heartfelt chat with each other. Its pretty shocking, especially when you realise that just 2 years ago, if someone had told you that you would become like this, you would have most probably laughed yourself senseless and walked away without a second thought. Life is so surprising.

Ahh. I think I'm a naturally pessimistic optimist. I have pretty high expectations of myself, along with low demands out of the people I know. So I'm often able to smile at others as they easily surpass my ocean-bed low expectations... But when I'm with myself, I would constantly berate myself, constantly reflecting, correcting, altering my attitude and behaviour to my ideal. I treat everyone with this certain system. I give them the benefit of the doubt and three chances when they let me down. I'll respect you as a human and a person, be considerate for your feelings and I'll reciprocate whatever vibe you put across to me. That means if you're a chirpy person I'll change my mindset to that of a happy-go-lucky person; if you're deep, I'll consider my actions very carefully and explain my reasoning. All these seem to be very idealistic qualities to have, but it isn't. As I need time to get to know a person's vibe, I tend to seem cold and arrogant to many as I analyse what to attitude to exude. Some would also find me rather boring. Sighx. Life is unfair.

I simply love Spirit Way. Not as deep as Rakuen No Mukou E, but very pleasnt nonetheless. Its a soothing, encouraging song, which makes your heart pound faster and faster and faster... Even better then the piece for SYF. There are these parts which are really smooth and soft, floaty even, and the chorus is fast and impactful. Its the perfect song to dance to, smooth and fluid at certain parts and energetic at others... Its simply the best to show 'breathing' of the body. The song is definitely addictive.

Haha. I just read what I typed. It seems as though I'm writing a review of Spirit Way. Well, whatever. Atobe is hot, Suwabe Junichi's voive (or Okiayuu Ryoutaro) is sexy and exactly how I want my boyfriend/husband to sound like and ... Spirit Way could make all the pain ebb out of you heart and pour to the ground as a river...

Mangoes Are Yellow

Ahhh... I totally ADORE mangoes! They are sweet, soft, fleshy... Paradise! I just ate this super yummy mango bought by my parents for a dollar at NTUC... I cleaned up the entire fruit in about 2 minutes. Ok. I know I'm sort of a glutton... especially when the food happens to be on my see-food diet. Geddit? Whatever. I also like apples, watermelon, lychee, longan, in short sweet and juicy fruits... I mean who doesn't like sweet stuff? I know some people who say that certain foods are too sweet, but I don't really agree. Strangely enough, I don't like to eat sweets. As in the candy kind of sweet. I don't know why. Its pretty strange because I like sweet foods yet I find candy a turn-off.

I just went on an Atobe Keigo song downloading spree. I just realised that the first 4 songs that I downloaded are most probably the best and the most Atobe-ish songs. The rest are all rather... boring and common anime genre type songs. Which is super sad! I mean, he has this amazing voice... and yet his album is lacking in amzing songs like Cross With You. I love Cross With You, Shoot Down, Rakuen No Mukou E and Koori No Sekai... but songs like E Kimochi are so... typical. Some songs are acceptable, but there are these few, these one or two black, black sheep, which happen to sound like getai Hokkien songs, which totally ruin everything. The person who arranged for Suwabe Junichi to sing these... words ought to be shot. Honest. Sighx. My poor Atobe.

OH. MY. GOSH. I just found out. Atobe fainted after the match with Echizen Ryoma. And. And. Echizen Ryoma 'helped' shave Atobe. And. And. Then Atobe woke up with an awful hairdo and went to a salon to cut it properly. OMG! HE FAINTED! My irritating brother speculated that he fainted due to shock that he lost to Ecizen. AAAAHHH. MY POOR ATOBE! Sighx. Why does the artist have to torment Atobe? Life is so unfair. Oh yax. School starts tomorrow. Talk about a bucket of cold water. New uniform. New class. New timetable. New subject combination... Argh. So many changes. Sometimes I wish I could dwell in one moment forever. But. But. Change is the only constant in this world. Which is the inevitable truth. Sooo... I'm just going to drag myself out of bed tomorrow morning and go to school like a good little mugger my school is infamous for producing. Whatever.

Lost In The Grey

Yay, the March holidays are here... And I'm going out with Tng, Duck, Hualin, Elina and Tianruo! Ok. Not really go OUT because we would only be going to play badminton and talk at the community centre in Toa Payoh (because all of us feel weird without jogging), but hey, its more than enough! Happy!

Its really strange you know. When I think of all the Cedar people, there's an immediate improvement in mood, something which is quite rare in National. I guess I do like my class... but one message from Tng (preferably about how cool Atobe is) is worth more than all the pleasant things which occur to me in National for a week. When the ratio is screwed to this extent, you know that something is seriously wrong. Its like how there are only about 40 Arts people in National to the 502 odd Science students. Its isn't balanced. Not right. Wrong.

I had Road Run on Friday morning... Which isn't that tiring as you do not really notice the distance while ogling at all the terrace and bungalows along the trail... Followed by dance camp until this afternoon. It wasn't that much of dancing, more of familiarising yourself with the others (although we still trained as per se this morning with MAJOR changes to the dance). Not very eventful... Just loads of games and ice-breakers... I was in Pikachu group. Yup. The groups are based on Pokemon. There was Pikachu, Poliwag, Lovedisc, Ursala (or something like that... this bear thing), Magnemite and one other which I can't remember. We had this super ridiculous/kawaii cheer which went all:

P is for Pikachu
Pika Pika Pikachu and

Oh Pika You're so fine
You're so fine You blow my mind
Oh Pika, Chu Chu
Oh Pika, Chu Chu
Goooo PIKACHU
* acts cute*

Thats the cheer. Haha. Kinda dumb. Sighx. National feels like a shadow of Cedar. Really. I act, talk, walk... In short, doing everything in a haze of numbness. I do not like this feeling. There's this sluggish quality to all my actions which was not present in the past. I'm the kind of person who runs on people fuel, the more enthusaistic the people are around me, the more awake I am. Well, this only goes to show how... low-key National is. My class is great compared to upper secondary (duh!), but compared to lower secondary... everything else pales... no wait... fades in comparison. Sighx. I shall resign myself to my fate.

Oh Yax. I have this new picture of Atobe! KYAH! I think anime is like a lifeline in the grey dullness of National. Cedar was a sea of blue. National is a fog of grey. Hyotei is... HEAVEN! Imagine... atop the 200 members of the mighty Hyotei Gakuen Tennis Team... stand Atobe Keigo!

I realised that there are really very few pictures of Atobe online... which is super sad. I do not know how people survive without basking in the glorious aura of Atobe! Ok. I suppose its official. I'm definitely nuts about Atobe. I guess the attraction is of a guy who is uber-confident and absolutely gifted. He's hot and he knows it! Kyah! Most people say that he's severely narcisstic, but I think its just hyperbole. They are just envious that they do not have as much self-respect. His confidence level is... unearthly. KYAH! Atobe! Gosh. Is it me or does he seem cooler every time I see him? I think he looks best in... OMG! He looks amazing in all his clothes! KYAH! Be it home clothes, sports attire or his school uniform... *faints*

Oh. I found something online about Atobe. Was from one of the shrines. It completely explains everything. It goes like this:

Atobe is a diva, arrogant, conceited, spoiled and filthy rich. He is also an exceptional student and a very talented tennis player. But it's not even that one forgives him his attitude because he really is that good... Atobe Keigo is captivating, he pulls you in, and somewhere along the way, you simply end up believing that the adoration is nothing more than what he deserves.

Atobe Keigo is, to put it simply, larger than life. He's gorgeous, talented, intelligent, knows it, and flaunts it. He believes that he is the best and that therefore he deserves the best. He's universally adored at his school, where he rules like a shinning prince. Yes, this all means that he is incredibly egotistical, arrogant and something of a diva; and while these traits are generally considered unattractive (specially in excess), Atobe Keigo somehow makes it work.

Perhaps one is willing to forgive his numerous conceits because he really is that good. More than likely, though, people not only forgive but relish these traits for the same reason that we do it with pop stars and other celebrities: Atobe is not an arrogant, talented guy; he's a star, he knows it and behaves like one, with all the positive and negative things that that implies. And the rest of the world loves him for it.

Goodness that is sooo true. I got it from this site. Sighx. Just cannot get enough of Atobe. Some have crushes on class/schoolmates. I have crushes on anime characters. Which makes me an outcast in the real world, since I do not conform to the definition of an average person. Whatever. Swooning makes me feel complete. OOOHHH. I LOVE Atobe's voice. Totally sexy...Divine.

Gushing, Swooning, Blushing...

Argh. Its such an awfully hot day. I feel like some piece of fish/sausage thats slowly being roasted to death. Now I know how the poor barbeque food feel like. But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop eating bbq food. I'm just able to sympathise.



Someone once told me that if I REALLY was an environmentalist, that if I REALLY cared about animals, I would become a vegetarian. I stopped and thought about it, and I realised something very important. I was not going to stop eating meat because the poor animals are being killed. I would have to take life to survive, be it plant life or animal life. Its a fact, otherwise I would be taking my own life. So I'll eat what I want to eat, and do what I want to do; and I'll walk under the sun, moon and stars in the place of the dead which litters the ground to form my path, enjoying the view and maximising my life for the sake of those who are gone because of me, those unable to share the scenery.



That was poetic. Haha. I'm officially CRAZY over Atobe Keigo. His song, Cross With You, from the Prince Of Tennis Atobe Keigo : Hametsu E No Rondo Album is enough to KILL me from sheer happiness. Suwabe Junichi's voice is THAT good. On par with Okiayu Ryoutaro. You can't get sick of it, although it takes a while before the song grows on you. Serious. I've listened to the song for about 45 min consecutively, and I'm just wanting more. I'm hooked. And in sheer pleasure and bliss. I'm going to have to find the other 30 songs or so. Anyone with anything sung by Suwabe Junichi can give me? Thats Atobe's picture from the ending credits of the anime, when he sings Wonderful Days with some of the other seiyuus. Hot right? Better than most real life guys on the whole anyway. He has a great voice, great character personality... more than enough I say. I'm one of the people who can't tell if someone is pretty or handsome, everyone looks about the same to me, so when I say someone is hot its usually because they have AWESOME character traits. Yeah. Go to Wikipedia for even cooler Atobe stuff, his personal statistics, character analysis... The COOLEST moves of Atobe... I personally LOVE his TannHauser Serve. It is, and I quote, "Tannhauser is the subject of a German legend as well as one of Wagner's lesser known operas. A sinful knight who veers between his love of Venus and Elizabeth, Tannhauser wanders in search of redemption. According to the anime, Atobe relates as he too is privileged but with a heart that cannot be satisfied." *faints*



My entire blog seems to circulate around Atobe. Maybe I should have made an Atobe Keigo Shrine instead... Hmmm. Do you know that Asakura Yoh-oh/Hao from Shaman King has a shrine dedicated to his... pants?! The might of fangirls. Anything. Atobe is better. Haha. Actually, my favourite Prince Of Tennis school is Seishun Gakuen (Seigaku) followed by Hyotei Gakuen, but my favourite character is Atobe Keigo. The rests all are of the same standing... FAR below Atobe. Maybe I should put down the lyrics Of Cross With You as well, but... Too lazy. Just go online and find if you are interested. Ore-sama also has. Yup.

Explanation

Ok. I suppose some people would be like all " ???" regarding the name of this blog and what the title means. For these sad people who have yet to experience the joy of swooning over Atobe Keigo, this post is for you.

Firstly, "Rakuen No Mukou E" obviously means "the other side of eden" in Japanese. It is the title of one of Atobe Keigo aka Suwabe Junichi's songs, as you can see from below:

RAKUEN NO MUKOU E ~THE OTHER SIDE OF EDEN~

Taorekonda daichi wa Yake ni atatakakute

Jibun ga chippoke de Sukoshi waratta

Hito no sei ni shite Jidai ni nekoronderu yori

Chikara no subete wo tokihanachi Ikiteitai

Ore wo hashiraseru destiny Kagirareta jikan no naka de

Hito wa doko kara kite Doko e to yuku no darou ka

Daraku shita rakuen wo nuke Sono saki no kouya e yukou

Kokoro ni hitosuji no hikari ga aru kagiri

Mabushisa ni Me wo tojita

Mimi wo sumaseba Hora THOROUGHBRED no hizumi no oto

Ichido korondara ochiteku shukumei

Kaze wo kiriisogu energy Chouyaku wa utsukushiku tsuyoku

Shinayaka na tamashii wa Azayaka ni hakanakute

Chizu ni aru rakuen wo nuke Sono saki no mirai e to yukou

Kono mi wo hirogaeshite Kuruoshii setsuna e

Mayoeru tabibito-tachi wa Nani wo motometeru?

Ore wa umarekawatte mo Ore wo erabu

Chizu ni aru rakuen wo nuke Sono saki no mirai e to yukou

Kono mi wo hirogaeshite Kuruoshii setsuna e

Daraku shita rakuen wo nuke Sono saki no kouya e yukou

Kokoro ni hitosuji no hikari ga aru kagiri

Sora wa ima Sanbika-iro ni

Mabushikute Me wo tojita

RAKUEN NO MUKOU E ~THE OTHER SIDE OF EDEN~

The collapsed Earth is so very warm and kind

I gave a small laugh at my own dimunitive size

Instead of blaming others and lying helpless to time

I want to live by leaving behind all the power in my grasp

The destiny that has me running is limited only in time

Where did humans come from and where will they go?

Let's go past the ruined paradise and head into the wilderness

As long as there is that thread of light in the human heart

(I closed my eyes at its sheer intensity)

If you listen closely you can hear the sound of hoofbeats

It's simply fate to fall once you let go of the reins

The energy to fly like the wind, bounds of beauty and strength

They're the fleeting brilliance of souls

Erase Eden from the map and head towards the future

Turn your life around for that moment of insanity...

What do those lost wanderers want in their lives?

Even if I was reborn, I would choose to be myself

Erase Eden from the map and head towards the future

Turn your life around for that moment of insanity...

Let's go past the ruined paradise and head into the wilderness

As long as there is that thread of light in the human heart

(The sky is colored with hymns

I closed my eyes at its sheer intensity)

Lyrics Courtesy Of Ore-sama

Ok. The blog address is in reference to this song, with l'arc-en-ciel meaning rainbow in French. Yup. That's about it. The song is GREAT, 'cause Suwabe-san has AMAZING vocals. Anyone who wants to hear the song can look for me... Will gladly initiate you into the Atobe fan club! Interestingly enough, there aren't that many Atobe fans in Singapore, although Atobe fans are like one in two persons who watch Prince of Tennis in Japan. So strange. I know many like Tezuka (I still do, although not as much as Atobe *grins*), Ryoma (irritating jerk made my poor Atobe SHAVE BALD! OMG! *cries* HIS HAIR!), Fuji and Eiji (expected). Never mind. Less people to share Atobe with. Haha.

Seems like this post is purely advertising for Prince of Tennis. Haha. Urgh. Just realised that I'm dropping lots of hair. Random. Oh yeah. Anyone wants to watch Phantom Of the Opera with me? $50, dicounted already. I know its a little expensive, but... It would definitely be worth it. Its at the Esplanade... Anyone? Sigh.

Cold Dish

Waah. I told myself not to blog ever again. Yet. Great. I'm here. Urgh. Wasting time which can be otherwise utilised to complete my LAST Chemistry assignment (because I'm dropping H1 Chemistry). Hmm. I wonder what is the opportunity cost of this. Ah. I DETEST slacking on my work. It makes me feel as if I'm back in primary school. *shivers*. Lets not go there. Bad memories.

On a side note. I realised that I sorta betrayed Okiayu Ryoutaro (SORRY!). For the past 8 (wow) years, I have been a complete fan of him. A PERFECT fangirl (obviously incliuding the squealing, shrieking, swooning, blushing, kyah-ing, etc). Then one day... while watching Prince Of Tennis (supporting Tezuka Kunimitsu of course) ... I chanced upon Atobe Keigo. And that was the end of my infatuation. Gone. Like the... wind? Oops. I have only one word to describe Atobe. HOT. Completely, utterly, definitely HOT. My friend says that I am severly lacking in appropriate vocabulary with regard to describing Atobe. What can I do? Swooning over Atobe has killed the majority of my brain cells, numbing the rest which has survived his highness ( both literally and figuratively). You'll understand only after watching AND listening to his voice. His speech, with the slight hint of the Kansai dialect, makes him... *faints*

Someone... I don't remember who... Said that people (like me) who indulge in fantastical infatuations (like above) are deprived socially and has some problems with self-esteem and finding their own sexuality. I was all " Huh?" when she told me that. Then I laughed and laughed and laughed. I nearly choked on my tongue and DIED. *shrugs*. Let them say what they wish. I just took it as a major joke. Its the same as those people who think cosplayers (costume players) are rebellious, dangerous, stupid, arrogant... and whatever nonsense they add to my list. Its just a) really unfair and stereotypical and b) biased and within any substantial evidence. Just because we LOOK self-confident, they take it wrongly and diss the entire community. You need truckloads of self-confidence to behave like anime characters, so shouln't people be more supportive instead?

Somehow, I don't really feel like blogging about school. It seems strange for a student not to blog about school. But who cares? School is a... sensitive thingy. I try at best, and it doesn't take a lot of effort, to pass the day in a happy, blissful fog, blanketed by thoughts of Atobe Keigo. It makes one rather unstable and high though. As if you're on drugs administered by your brain. Self- hypnosis. Self- delusion. Whatever you call it, I call it ecstasy. However, the higher you go, the harder you fall. Law of gravity. Then school becomes torment. Oh. Did you know that Issac Newton created Calculus to calculate some other Physics thingy? That smart... guy invented the torment of differentiation and integration so that he could escalate the suffering of all Physics students today, taking the chance to hurt the brain cells of all who take Mathematics. Two birds with one stone. Yup. Oh yeah. I'm really really anxious to recieve my letter from MOE regarding my Humanities Application. I'm wishing that they won't just take one look at my application, laugh, and then dump it aside. Please at least consider me. Please. Maybe I should get a religion. I'm envious of people who can find their faith. I'm an atheist, so I believe in higher being(s), but I don't have a faith. Which is kinda sad. People who find their faith seem more fulfilled... or is it me being overtly sensitive? In any case, I doubt I'll go to any religious centre anytime soon. So in the meanwhile, I shall just look up in the sky... In the ocean... In the drain... In my wallet... LOL.