Lost In The Grey

Yay, the March holidays are here... And I'm going out with Tng, Duck, Hualin, Elina and Tianruo! Ok. Not really go OUT because we would only be going to play badminton and talk at the community centre in Toa Payoh (because all of us feel weird without jogging), but hey, its more than enough! Happy!

Its really strange you know. When I think of all the Cedar people, there's an immediate improvement in mood, something which is quite rare in National. I guess I do like my class... but one message from Tng (preferably about how cool Atobe is) is worth more than all the pleasant things which occur to me in National for a week. When the ratio is screwed to this extent, you know that something is seriously wrong. Its like how there are only about 40 Arts people in National to the 502 odd Science students. Its isn't balanced. Not right. Wrong.

I had Road Run on Friday morning... Which isn't that tiring as you do not really notice the distance while ogling at all the terrace and bungalows along the trail... Followed by dance camp until this afternoon. It wasn't that much of dancing, more of familiarising yourself with the others (although we still trained as per se this morning with MAJOR changes to the dance). Not very eventful... Just loads of games and ice-breakers... I was in Pikachu group. Yup. The groups are based on Pokemon. There was Pikachu, Poliwag, Lovedisc, Ursala (or something like that... this bear thing), Magnemite and one other which I can't remember. We had this super ridiculous/kawaii cheer which went all:

P is for Pikachu
Pika Pika Pikachu and

Oh Pika You're so fine
You're so fine You blow my mind
Oh Pika, Chu Chu
Oh Pika, Chu Chu
Goooo PIKACHU
* acts cute*

Thats the cheer. Haha. Kinda dumb. Sighx. National feels like a shadow of Cedar. Really. I act, talk, walk... In short, doing everything in a haze of numbness. I do not like this feeling. There's this sluggish quality to all my actions which was not present in the past. I'm the kind of person who runs on people fuel, the more enthusaistic the people are around me, the more awake I am. Well, this only goes to show how... low-key National is. My class is great compared to upper secondary (duh!), but compared to lower secondary... everything else pales... no wait... fades in comparison. Sighx. I shall resign myself to my fate.

Oh Yax. I have this new picture of Atobe! KYAH! I think anime is like a lifeline in the grey dullness of National. Cedar was a sea of blue. National is a fog of grey. Hyotei is... HEAVEN! Imagine... atop the 200 members of the mighty Hyotei Gakuen Tennis Team... stand Atobe Keigo!

I realised that there are really very few pictures of Atobe online... which is super sad. I do not know how people survive without basking in the glorious aura of Atobe! Ok. I suppose its official. I'm definitely nuts about Atobe. I guess the attraction is of a guy who is uber-confident and absolutely gifted. He's hot and he knows it! Kyah! Most people say that he's severely narcisstic, but I think its just hyperbole. They are just envious that they do not have as much self-respect. His confidence level is... unearthly. KYAH! Atobe! Gosh. Is it me or does he seem cooler every time I see him? I think he looks best in... OMG! He looks amazing in all his clothes! KYAH! Be it home clothes, sports attire or his school uniform... *faints*

Oh. I found something online about Atobe. Was from one of the shrines. It completely explains everything. It goes like this:

Atobe is a diva, arrogant, conceited, spoiled and filthy rich. He is also an exceptional student and a very talented tennis player. But it's not even that one forgives him his attitude because he really is that good... Atobe Keigo is captivating, he pulls you in, and somewhere along the way, you simply end up believing that the adoration is nothing more than what he deserves.

Atobe Keigo is, to put it simply, larger than life. He's gorgeous, talented, intelligent, knows it, and flaunts it. He believes that he is the best and that therefore he deserves the best. He's universally adored at his school, where he rules like a shinning prince. Yes, this all means that he is incredibly egotistical, arrogant and something of a diva; and while these traits are generally considered unattractive (specially in excess), Atobe Keigo somehow makes it work.

Perhaps one is willing to forgive his numerous conceits because he really is that good. More than likely, though, people not only forgive but relish these traits for the same reason that we do it with pop stars and other celebrities: Atobe is not an arrogant, talented guy; he's a star, he knows it and behaves like one, with all the positive and negative things that that implies. And the rest of the world loves him for it.

Goodness that is sooo true. I got it from this site. Sighx. Just cannot get enough of Atobe. Some have crushes on class/schoolmates. I have crushes on anime characters. Which makes me an outcast in the real world, since I do not conform to the definition of an average person. Whatever. Swooning makes me feel complete. OOOHHH. I LOVE Atobe's voice. Totally sexy...Divine.