Laraku

Yippy! There's only two more days before Project Work is OVER! Yes! Hahaha. I'm going cuckoo thinking about how happy I'll be. Actually, I sincerely doubt I'll be the only one. I suppose it will be something like during 'O' Levels; we all cheered after our last paper and tore our Entry Proof into little bits. I don't think we'll tear the entry proof proper, but the cheering - that I'm sure of... the moment we are out of hearing of the examiners. Sighx. Just thinking of Thursday makes me happy.

Discovered that L'Arc-en~Ciel, I shall call them Laraku from now on, is one of the most popular and famous Japanese bands. Although they are a bit old. Imagine, even CD-Rama has their album. It goes to show what hot property they were. No, are. Watched a few of their interviews online. HYDE is quite obviously shorter than the other members. Oh well, that does not detract from his presence and singing prowess, just that they always make him stand more to the front, or the others slouch a little... He uses his smoothering eyes to the full extent, and he really really likes the microphone. I want to be the microphone. HYDE also seems to change his hairstyle evrytime they have a new single/album. That's like... a LOT of hairstyles. I'm not sure which is my favourite. Long hair? Short hair? All I know is that it depends on the angle to decide if he is hot or not. Oh well. HYDE will always be cool no matter what he looks like simply beacause his voice is so superb. How many people do you know can sing like him? Loads of conventional artists nowadays are lip-synching away, banking on their looks... at least Laraku is more or less based on their fanbase from their Visual Kei days or because they are such a great band. Oh. By the way, I like his hairstyle in Daybreak's Bell. Yup. Hot clothes and nice teeth too. The AWAKE and Seventh Heaven look is a bit... too provacative for... conservative society in Singapore. Yup. Hee.

Oh. Kaen is still grounded. Why am I not surprised? Argh. I want to call her and scream at her about HYDE. Really hard to stop myself from getting her into deeper trouble. Oh. Sighx.



" Why do humans dream? Isn't it more painful to face reality when you wake up?"

After

Kaen is currently suffering. I know, I know, I'm really heartless. My buddy is like without television, internet, anime, manga, telephone calls, not allowed to go out... In other words, she's completely grounded. Yet, here I am. Sighx. What do you want me to do? I'm sorry that there's something wrong with my handphone so that it keeps dying on me. I'm sorry that I can't ride to your rescue. Truly I am. I want to go save you from your parents, but I actually feel that your parents are justified in grounding you. Yep. That's whats its called: being grounded. I've been grounded before, its usually related to lousy grades and results in the loss of freedom and other fringe benefits. I would have either been killed by my parents, or I would have committed suicide first if I had performed as such for Promotional Exams. Serious. So I think your parents are actually within the limits of parental behaviour. Why not use this opportunity to study? Write a few economics essays, practice Math, study volcanoes... I mean, its a win-win situation. You revise, while your parents are happy because they get the desired result of you mugging. So relax, don't do anything silly. Think. Plan ahead, so that we can go play later. Desshou?

Hmm. The 'A 'Level H1 Chinese paper was more difficult than expected. I know that there is an increased emphasis on analysis as well as inference skills, however, its rather absurd to expect students to write a full page mock-essay for 4 measly marks. Its getting rather ridiculous. The worst part is the multiple choice questions. Its more like 30 marks of vocabulary, idioms, famous sayings, historical references... and loads of other elements of the Chinese language which I am unable to elaborate on in the English language. After all, English and Chinese has different language structures and grammar. Oh well. What done is done.

OMG. I nearly forgot! Danhong lent me 4 L'Arc-en~Ciel CDs! Two are compilations, with another two being their albums Smile and Awake respectively. HYDE has this absolutely amazing voice. And his eyes are like... electrifying! Its official! L'Arc-en~Ciel is my favourite band! Well, for this yaer at least. Linkin Park used to be number one, but I realised that I prefered their previous few albums. Minutes to Midnight was nice, but its not the kind of album that I could scream and go crazy over. Its simply not the type. Oh well. Not my fault. It just doesn't really appeal to me. Well. I shall go enjoy my new CDs...



"Pain is good, suffering is even better, because it proves that you are still alive."

Stupid

Do you know what it takes to make me upset? Kaen could tell you I suppose, but for the poor souls who don't know her, it takes quite a force of will and nature. Kaen would know, as I have been angry, disappointed, upset, furious and pissed with her before. And no, it is not one emotion per year. Its more like all mixed together for all the years. This year has been on the low side, as we are no longer in the same school. Sad isn't it? Anyhow, this shall not be about her. It shall be on the lateset piece of vermin to infuriate Yukino. Namely, MIO TV.

Ah. Those in Singapore would have heard of it. Unless of course, you have been residing under a boulder in a well covered by boulders which has been buried by lahars from a nearby volcano. I hope I confused you. I'm in a Let's-torture-the-poor-innocent-reader-of-my-blog mood. MIO TV can only be described as such:

Mio TV is a ridiculous, useless piece of hardware, restrictive to the extent that it makes wireless useless in your house.

Why? Well, the fools at SingTel came up with a device which prevents you from watching the streamed channels and using the Internet at the same time. Neither can you use the home phone while watching the streamed channels. I suddenly feel like a dinosaur in the 21st century. The technology is that backwater. Next, they shall harness horses to cars. Dear God! It is soooo absolutely stupid. I ought to disconnect the stupid thing, and I would, but it also cuts of the telephone and Internet. So all communication with the outside world is stuck on ONE dumb piece of hardware which can't be turned off. If there was an earthquake which snaps underwater Internet telephone cables again, my home is so doomed. They changed my perfect, functioning analog phone line to a digital line. Help. I should have screamed bloody murder when my parents suggested installing MIO TV. I ought to have thrown the installation personnel out of the house, or never had opened the door to let him in. Now I'm suffering. As if PW isn't enough to make a sweet little girl turn vicious, MIO TV made me a viciously irritated person. Oh well.

I hereby resolve to NEVER invent or promote something as pointless, wasteful and MIO-ish as MIO.



"Did you think that you were the only person who noticed that humans are stupid, fool?"

Disorder

I took a personality disorder test today and discovered that I'm quite... disorder free. Yup. In fact, if you look at the data, I appear to be less disorder-ed than the avarage person. Cool huh? Its below:

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid 34% Schizoid 42% Schizotypal 46% Antisocial 54% Borderline 34% Histrionic 38% Narcissistic 10% Avoidant 34% Dependent 34% Obsessive-Compulsive 42%

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Well, a picture speaks a thousand words. My narcisstic tendencies are like, pretty low. So unlike Atobe. Haha. I know. I know. Realised that I'm not as weird as I thought...

Enough of the fun and games. I'm sick and tired of people who make demands of others without considering their situation. They can jolly well just GO and jump down some cliff or the top of a tall building. I'm serious. I wasn't born yesterday, so I now that you are insulting me. I know that you aren't too impressed with me. So what? Lived on this bloody planet for so long and yet still unable to prevent others from knowing about your distaste? What a failure. Human trash. I'm more diplomatic than you! And I'm what? Half your age? Well, unless I'm being Tyki... Go away. And don't be ridiculous. Like I said, I'm definitely not stupid. I smile, nodd and agree with whatever you say, but that doesn't mean that I'm going to carry it out. Hah.

I have joyful news to share. No. PW has not been cancelled. It is not Judgement Day tomorrow. It something really simple. I managed to take a really hot picture of HYDE with my handphone's camera, and I set that as my phone's wallpaper. So now I'm staring at his gorgeous profile everytime I unlock and lock my handphone. Bliss. Will put it up below for all those without it to enjoy. Go crazy my dears...



" 今日わ一緒に食事しませんか？「

Lulu

Oh man. I'm so sick of PW that I swear that I will burn ALL my PW related documents and notes after 1st November. Serious. I will then proceed to dance round the burning pile, singing / screaming "Burn! Burn! Burn!", before going to Orchard Road and singing Charm point as a Christmas carol. Kurei and Atobe can join me. And no, I'm completely rational. Well, as rational as someone who has just spent the last 10 plus hours centered on PW, and have completed their oral presentation can be. Oh. Did I just mention that I'm also doing my InR, Insights and Reflection now? Ah. Insanity makes things seem rational. Oops. You didn't read anything. Nothing. At. All. In essence, PW totally stinks.

Songs. GOOD I love iTunes. Well, strictly speaking, I love my playlist. Its simply amazing. I have 341 songs, of which 96 percent are animeanime songs. Cool right? I bet you can't say the same thing of the typical Chinese/English pop/rock loving teenager. Hah. So what if you say that I'm abandoning my own culture? I like music. NOT noise. Music is stuff like あなたのために by L'Arc-en~Ciel, Insight by Suwabe Junichi, the Four Seasons... Not blathering pumped up, squashed down plastic 'celebrities' with a microphone. Those make noise. Noise ought to be cancelled. Removed. Not celebrated. Birthdays are celebrated, not pollutants. So there. Oh. A meek reminder. My birthday is on the 24th of November. I will appreciate presents. Thoughtful presents. Not random books and soft toys. Lost? Fear not. I'll put up a wishlist soon. So even if you miss my birthday, there will still be Christmas a month later...

Watched a Japanese movie for Chinese today. So ironic. A Level Chinese, yet we prepare by watching a Japanese movie, with ENGLISH subtitles. So amazing. Oh, There was this male actor who spoke loads of Kansai-ben, had off-shoulder hair, wore spectacles... Sounds familiar? Well, he did look a bit like Oshitari, although an older version who doesn't play tennis and there isn't a Gakuto. Sigh. PW ruined it as I had to go for a meeting. I damn bloody hate PW. When I die, I'm gonna haunt the idiot who thought of it. Oh wait. The person ought to be dead by then. Oh well. Hope he or she for that matter, dies a slow, agonising, poisonous death. Yup. Just desserts I say.



" Insanity runs in my family. Oh. And it happens to be contagious."

Blood

AHHH! Dante is seriously cool! The enormous sword, the hot pants, the coat, snooker, the voice, spilling blood all over... OMG. One word. Delicious. Like his strawberry sundae! Haha. Someone commented that I sound like I'm some kind of sick, closet dominatrix because I often comment on how delectable certain anime characters are. That's so untrue! I mean, they are really tasty-looking... but I'm so not a closet dominatrix! Absolutely not! Oh wait. I just realised that there is no way that anyone can ever know if they have certain 'closet' characteristics as these are called closet characteristics as the person is unaware of such tendencies, so I cannot say that I'm not a closet dominatrix because my conscious self will never be able to perceive my subconscious self. Am I confusing you? I am? Good.

Donated blood today. I honestly have to say that it hurt LESS then the stupid $60 ear piercings I did at B*dazzled last Thursday, both my wallet and my body. Honest. Hmm. The blood looked really dark, red, and viscous. Like some kind of volcanic magma or something. Oh! And it was really warm! As in when the blood flowed, in the tube of course, into the bag, the tube, which was hung over my wrist, was warm! Wow. Humans are amazing, and so are they other ten thousand different warm -blooded animals on this planet. My classmates kept asking about whether it hurt, for the hundredth time, it didn't, whether it was uncomfortable... All I can say is that the experience is one of the most, surprisingly, positive experiences ever. It ranks somewhere with watching Atobe snap his hands, listening to L'Arc-en~ciel and watching Dante strut around. Honest. Donating blood is actually... pleasurable. Truly. I will gladly do it again. In a way, I feel... clean. Yup. So strange. Like a donation made me feel cleaner, purged? I'm not sure though.

Watching Devil May Cry now. Its pretty fast- paced. Music rocks, along with the animation. Not one of those shoujo anime, with lots of mysteries and murder. Oh wait. Since he is killing demons, I suppose I could call it a baptism instead... I suppose that will indeed be more accurate. Haha. I'm only at episode two though. So sad. I want to watch more, now. Suppose to read D Gray- Man as research, but... Sighx. Dante is way more attractive than the Millenium Earl.

Shall leave...



" What is more important to you, my love? A beautiful life that ends in an ugly death or an awful life that ended beautifully?"

Cheat

I feel cheated. Really. I bought a black Gothic shirt today. Shouldn't have. It's all Kaen's fault. She was the one who forced me to purchase it. I wasted money on a shirt I will most probably only wear once in my lifetime. twice if some minor miracle occurs. Ouch. I can feel the two little piggys on my wallet squealing in pain, furious at how I betrayed their trust. Damn. The D. Gray costume maker recommended wants to charge me an exorbitant $80 for the coat. $80! That is super expensive! It's practically daylight robbery! The same way that the black $80 Gothic shirt Kaen made me buy today is also a form of daylight robbery! I mean, if the costume maker had quoted me $60, I would have willingly handed the money over to her. $80 is simply too much. I'm beginning to think that cosplay is an expensive hobby. I scrimp and save the entire year, all to blow it on costumes which I will never wear again. This is on top of the lack of wardrobe space that I'm plagued with. Seriously considering quitting cosplay. No point lowering my standard of living for a three day activity that leaves me drooling and thirsting for more. I'm not rich and I'm definitely not stupid. So I guess 2009 will be my last cosplay outing. Stop screaming Kaen, and don't glare at me.

On a lighter note, I WANT L'ARC-EN~CIEL'S CD! I want their songs... Hyde sounds so absolutely nice and yummy. I envy his wife and child. Imagine. On your birthday, your dad actually sings the 'Happy Birthday' song IN TUNE. Wow. Thats so amazing. HYDE! HYDE! Everyone should watch MoonChild. I mean, its a pretty good movie to introduce you to blood, gore, violence, smoking, friendship, love, death... and of course, HYDE and Gackt. Below is an absolutely HOT picture of L'Arc-en~ciel! Its so cool... The boys are all so hot... Smothering... Yummy.

I actually have nothing else to say, so... Bye Bye!



" Stop rotting all over my new shoes!"

Irritant

I detest Project Work. Completely. Utterly. From the bottom of my heart. Oh, I know. Dad told me that to be good at presentations, you have to actually like what you are presenting, otherwise your anger and lack of regard will spill through to the audience. Effectively rendering your presentation a failure. Dad should know, I mean, he isn't where he is today because he is lacking in brain cells and experience. Yet, I can't help but feel that he doesn't know how well I'm able to lie. Sometimes, I lie so well that I actually manage to convince myself as well. Amazing ability I picked up in the rough and tumble world I think I wasn't suppose to be exposed to. Oh well, like I told Vivien today, nothing that makes you a more capable person can be truly evil or bad. Back to the point, I somehow manage to trick myself into loving Project Work when I'm doing a presentation. However, the moment I go back to my seat, the hatred, disgust and unease sweeps over me again. Urgh. Project Work is simply the bane of JC1 existence. I heard that there are actually people who choose to go to a polytechnic because they refuse to be subject to the torment of Project Work. I'm jealous. Okay, just this teeny bit.

To the topic of Vivien, I guess, I'll just say one thing. It will all work out in the end. I mean, if it doesn't work out, you'd be dead, which makes it a sort of resolution as well, so... Everything will be okay. Human existence is but a measly 100 years (if you get lucky, oh, wait, or is it unlucky?), yet we make such a big fuss over such little inconsequential things. I mean, one day we will all be no more, and that special one day isn't too long away either. So no point squeaking and squealing, worrying and fretting, everything will untangle by itself. It has to, because none of us can exist forever. Uh-oh. I gave a decidedly morose and macabre take to something quite simple and... enjoyable? Oh well.

I'd thought of a Road fanfic/ doujin idea and told Kaen already, yet she has yet to start drawing. I asked Kaen for her favourite Kanda X ? pair yet she refuses to tell me. HELLO? I thought you were the one who wanted me to come up with the story for you to draw? Well, I'm doing my job, yet you're not... So buck up! I want to read the doujin! Hmm. You have also yet to think of a suitable name... Sorry. I'm pissed, so I'm halfway flaming you. So sorry. Wait. I'm not that sorry. Just a little bit. Nagging you seems to be part of my job as a friend. Oh wait. Did someone say that I'm a old mother hen before? I think so, but I really can't remember. The word just popped into my head, and I can't remove the picture. Sheesh. Do I seriously sound that old? Or am I truly such a nag?

I hate Project Work. I bet Hyoutei has no such rubbish. I can't even try to picture Atobe and the rest of the regulars doing some stupid research on some Groundbreaker in order to propose an imaginary event. Although I suppose some of the fangirls, or even Atobe himself, will consider him a groundbreaker. Oh, and rightfully so. Who else exemplifies the idea of a hard-working diva other than Atobe Keigo? He's smart, brilliant, but not a genius, a freak. He's talented, gifted, but he works out at his family gym and trains despite his obvious athletic superiority. In other words, my ultimate idol! Hahahaha. Okay. See? Too much project work is bad for health, mental health especially. Shall leave now.




"The long, forlorn, relentless trend / From larger day to huger night."

Clogwheel

Damn! I missed Tezuka's birthday! So sorry! So sorry! Was at Sheryan's trying to rescue the stupid Written Report, was simply exhausted, mentally from the awful touching up, physically from the extremely long bus ride home on service 64, so I was in no mood to blog, much less remember Tezuka's birthday. So sorry! Will think of you more often this week! So sorry!... Why am I apologising in my blog to a fictional character? Hmm...

Man is L'Arc-en~ciel plague by problems. I went online to check out their history, and was stunned when I learned that they had an entire host of problems when they were starting out, and even when they started to peak. Sad. Such talent, wasted because of superficial things. If not for Kaen and her obsession with Ryoma from Prince Of Tennis, which led to her craze over Kanata Hongo, which brought me to Moon Child and Hyde and L'Arc-en~ciel, I suppose I would most probably had never had an ounce of interest in the band. Which is really, really upsetting. Shocking. Hyde! Oh! Oh! I found out that Fourth Avenue Cafe, from Ruroni Kenshin, is actually one of their songs! I mean, I listened to it a long long time ago and really loved it, but that was in the days before I learnt how to read the credits. Oh gosh. I want that song... Someone send me Fourth Avenue Cafe? Pretty please?

Project Work is in the final phase, YES! I'm so happy I can go to Orchard singing Atobe's Charm Point all the way. Honest. We have submitted the improved Written Report, I hope its considered much improved, finished the skeleton of our Oral Presentation, as well as designed both the bras! Yippy! Haha. Three consecutive days of Project Work has surely paid off! Yay! Now all's that left is to wait for comments from our tutor... Argh.

I'm scared. Serious. Afraid I can't keep my combination. Afraid the cosplay outing flops and dies. Afraid I'll never be able to really have fun again... Boundless fear. Is life always to dismal? Always to worry, to plan and anticipate all these negative things? Sighx. I stilll stick to my conviction that human existence is a HUGE joke. Never satisfied, always wanting the new while refusing to change, to give up the old. Contrdiction in the greatest degree, of the most prominent extent. Humans are fools. Yet... As Tyki has so aptly phrased it, having both sides is what make things interesting. Dang. The never-ending cycle.




"For good or ill, let the wheel turn... For ill or good, let the wheel turn..."

Cake

Happy Birthday Atobe! Haha. Been watching Prince Of Tennis on Veoh and reading fanfiction the entire morning. Haha. Atobe is amazing. He was supposed to serve first in his match against Ryoma in the summer camp, but he didn't want to go first, so he just casually told Ryoma to serve. Obviously, Oishi, who was the empire, was all I-thought-the-rule-was-that-Hyotei-would-serve-first... Only to have Atobe tell him " Kankenei. Ore-wa no rule". OMG. That is so Atobe. And his servants are like... Do they follow him everywhere? They open the tennis court doors for him, bring portable table, chairs, umbrellas, orange juice, they take off his jacket when he wants to play... Although I seriously wouldn't mind being one of them. To be next to his glorious presence the entire day would be damn cool, I envy the Hyotei regulars... Hmm. I wonder if any of them are in the same class as him? Or are they in the tutorial system? Hmm.

Will be watching Lee Ang's Lust, Caution later with Huifang and Clare... Oh man, I hope its good. I'm quite broke, and I hav e to buy Cosplay stuff as well as new clothes, so I don't want to waste money. Sighx. I wish I had more money, so I wouldn't have to scrimp and save and think of ways to save money... Too bad I'm not rich like Atobe. Although it seems as if even if I was, I would have no real life to speak of. I mean, who plays tennis everyday? As in every single day? And they are not doing it for a living... That simply reeks of a lack of pursuits. Okay, you can say that the characters are really determined, really focused, yadda yadda yadda, but come on, admit it, they are portrayed to be obssessed with the sport. The saving grace happens to be that I enjoy watching Atobe, regardless of what he is doing, be it in lounging in his chair, singing Tezuka's welcome song or playing tennis. All hot. Haha.

Okay, I shall go back to my TV watching. Ja ne...



" The burying party, picks and shovels in shaking grasp, / Pause over half-known faces. All their eyes are Ice, / But nothing happens."

Celebrate

My Promotional Exams Are Over! Haha. Currently celebrating... by reading the manga until the Doubles 2 match of Rikkaidai versus Seigaku in the National Finals, by watching Atobe's match against Echizen in Nationals, Atobe - Sanada pair against the American team again... The music is amazing... JunJun's voice is simply AMAZING! The texture is unbelievable! Its so... hot. Yummy, delicious, gorgeous. Yup. Thats what it feels like. And when Atobe and Sanada glared at the American Team when they couldn't return the ball... That pissed look of Atobe is so hot! And when he goes all " Ore-sama no bigi ni yoi ya!". I totally adore his Tannhauser Serve. Its so absolutely... Atobe. Sighx. I love Atobe... But... HE PILOTS A HELICOPTER! I mean, isn't he supposed to be what? 15? You can't even register to learn to DRIVE if you are under 18... Yet... Sighx. Rich people. Get his pilot license before driving license. God. I'm completely taken by his amazing prowess, attitude... again. Oh, and Atobe's English is good. Well, better than Sanada's. And he understands everything that Echizen spouts. So lets see, English, Japanese, German, Greek... Umm. The first word that came to mind was "high-class", after all, most people do not have this combination of language proficiency. Ahh... Atobe-sama.



In the Prince Of Tennis world, I noticed quite a few relatives, but it seems they are all in different schools. There's Fuji Syusuke and Fuji Yuuta, the most famous brothers in Prince Of Tennis, from Seigaku and St. Rudolph, then there are the Ishida brothers, both Hardorkyu specialists, one from Fudomine and the other in Shitenhouji, the Kisarazu twins who both play doubles, one from St. Rudolph and the other in Rokkakchu, and finally the Oshitari cousins, Oshitari Yuushi in Hyotei and Oshitari Kenji in Shitenhouji. What I don't understand is how the Ishida brothers are separated, one in Kantou and the other from... Kyuushu. At least the Oshitari-s are cousins, so maybe they moved away from Kansai and relocated all over. Hmm. Not sure. I would love to have a school with both brothers in one team, regardless of what type of player they are. It would be really awesome. Oh. Then both Chitose and Tachibana have younger sisters who play tennis as well, although I assume that Chitose's sister is younger than Tachibana Ann.

Yukimura Seiichi's seiyuu, Nagai Sachiko, gives him a distinctly feminine voice, this together with his quiet, smiling demeanor, coupled with the mystery of his play-style, makes him seem like smiling death. To be captain of a tennis club of freaks, at last count, there was a Spartan vice-captain, a demonish first-year, a 'gentleman' who plays tennis like golf, a bubblegum addict and his bald doubles partner, a 'wiseman', a trickster who thinks nothing of identity fraud..., who slap each other for losing tennis matches, I suppose you have to be pretty... Umm... Amazing? Haha. that is something of an understatement. Sighx. All Pisces people are freakyand effeminate, with Fuji and Yukimura really good examples. Then all the Libra regulars are all pretty cool, namely Tezuka, Atobe, Oshitari, Shishido, Saeki, Kurobane, Kirihara, Yayuu... Wow. From this site, found that most of the characters are all born the second half of the year. Wow. 9 in November. My birthday month.



Sighx. I simply love Atobe and the other adorable Prince Of Tennis characters. Oops, just realised that since all of them are under sixteen... I'm essentially a ... Pedophile! Oh. Ok. So? Haha. Wowie...



" The difference between the both of us is that I am simply more perfect than you will ever dream of being..."