Irritant

I detest Project Work. Completely. Utterly. From the bottom of my heart. Oh, I know. Dad told me that to be good at presentations, you have to actually like what you are presenting, otherwise your anger and lack of regard will spill through to the audience. Effectively rendering your presentation a failure. Dad should know, I mean, he isn't where he is today because he is lacking in brain cells and experience. Yet, I can't help but feel that he doesn't know how well I'm able to lie. Sometimes, I lie so well that I actually manage to convince myself as well. Amazing ability I picked up in the rough and tumble world I think I wasn't suppose to be exposed to. Oh well, like I told Vivien today, nothing that makes you a more capable person can be truly evil or bad. Back to the point, I somehow manage to trick myself into loving Project Work when I'm doing a presentation. However, the moment I go back to my seat, the hatred, disgust and unease sweeps over me again. Urgh. Project Work is simply the bane of JC1 existence. I heard that there are actually people who choose to go to a polytechnic because they refuse to be subject to the torment of Project Work. I'm jealous. Okay, just this teeny bit.

To the topic of Vivien, I guess, I'll just say one thing. It will all work out in the end. I mean, if it doesn't work out, you'd be dead, which makes it a sort of resolution as well, so... Everything will be okay. Human existence is but a measly 100 years (if you get lucky, oh, wait, or is it unlucky?), yet we make such a big fuss over such little inconsequential things. I mean, one day we will all be no more, and that special one day isn't too long away either. So no point squeaking and squealing, worrying and fretting, everything will untangle by itself. It has to, because none of us can exist forever. Uh-oh. I gave a decidedly morose and macabre take to something quite simple and... enjoyable? Oh well.

I'd thought of a Road fanfic/ doujin idea and told Kaen already, yet she has yet to start drawing. I asked Kaen for her favourite Kanda X ? pair yet she refuses to tell me. HELLO? I thought you were the one who wanted me to come up with the story for you to draw? Well, I'm doing my job, yet you're not... So buck up! I want to read the doujin! Hmm. You have also yet to think of a suitable name... Sorry. I'm pissed, so I'm halfway flaming you. So sorry. Wait. I'm not that sorry. Just a little bit. Nagging you seems to be part of my job as a friend. Oh wait. Did someone say that I'm a old mother hen before? I think so, but I really can't remember. The word just popped into my head, and I can't remove the picture. Sheesh. Do I seriously sound that old? Or am I truly such a nag?

I hate Project Work. I bet Hyoutei has no such rubbish. I can't even try to picture Atobe and the rest of the regulars doing some stupid research on some Groundbreaker in order to propose an imaginary event. Although I suppose some of the fangirls, or even Atobe himself, will consider him a groundbreaker. Oh, and rightfully so. Who else exemplifies the idea of a hard-working diva other than Atobe Keigo? He's smart, brilliant, but not a genius, a freak. He's talented, gifted, but he works out at his family gym and trains despite his obvious athletic superiority. In other words, my ultimate idol! Hahahaha. Okay. See? Too much project work is bad for health, mental health especially. Shall leave now.




"The long, forlorn, relentless trend / From larger day to huger night."