Clogwheel

Damn! I missed Tezuka's birthday! So sorry! So sorry! Was at Sheryan's trying to rescue the stupid Written Report, was simply exhausted, mentally from the awful touching up, physically from the extremely long bus ride home on service 64, so I was in no mood to blog, much less remember Tezuka's birthday. So sorry! Will think of you more often this week! So sorry!... Why am I apologising in my blog to a fictional character? Hmm...

Man is L'Arc-en~ciel plague by problems. I went online to check out their history, and was stunned when I learned that they had an entire host of problems when they were starting out, and even when they started to peak. Sad. Such talent, wasted because of superficial things. If not for Kaen and her obsession with Ryoma from Prince Of Tennis, which led to her craze over Kanata Hongo, which brought me to Moon Child and Hyde and L'Arc-en~ciel, I suppose I would most probably had never had an ounce of interest in the band. Which is really, really upsetting. Shocking. Hyde! Oh! Oh! I found out that Fourth Avenue Cafe, from Ruroni Kenshin, is actually one of their songs! I mean, I listened to it a long long time ago and really loved it, but that was in the days before I learnt how to read the credits. Oh gosh. I want that song... Someone send me Fourth Avenue Cafe? Pretty please?

Project Work is in the final phase, YES! I'm so happy I can go to Orchard singing Atobe's Charm Point all the way. Honest. We have submitted the improved Written Report, I hope its considered much improved, finished the skeleton of our Oral Presentation, as well as designed both the bras! Yippy! Haha. Three consecutive days of Project Work has surely paid off! Yay! Now all's that left is to wait for comments from our tutor... Argh.

I'm scared. Serious. Afraid I can't keep my combination. Afraid the cosplay outing flops and dies. Afraid I'll never be able to really have fun again... Boundless fear. Is life always to dismal? Always to worry, to plan and anticipate all these negative things? Sighx. I stilll stick to my conviction that human existence is a HUGE joke. Never satisfied, always wanting the new while refusing to change, to give up the old. Contrdiction in the greatest degree, of the most prominent extent. Humans are fools. Yet... As Tyki has so aptly phrased it, having both sides is what make things interesting. Dang. The never-ending cycle.




"For good or ill, let the wheel turn... For ill or good, let the wheel turn..."