Sad

Okie. First and foremost, Stella, you are definitely an Ah Po... Who else can be my Ah Po? Haha. Next, thank you bemygodday for leaving a comment which stirs up such complex feelings, I knew Hyde was working on some new project called Vamps but... I mean, thanks for the offer of songs, I'm gonna keep you to it *grins*. Yet... Why are they going to go on hiatus?! I'm going to cry. Serious. WHY?! They are making such amazing music, I knew I should have skipped school to go to their concert in Hong Kong. I could have, but my morals reined me in. Sheesh. Now I'm going to regret it until I'm 2011, which means I'll be an adult officially. Hey, maybe its a good thing. After all, I'll be able to follow them to the ends of the earth at that point of time with no parental consideration. Haha. I'm so depressed I'm trying to forrce something positive out of this cause for grief. At least I still have Gackt. Like its any consideration. I love Larcon! They are my favourite! How can one Gackt substitute all of four members of Larcon? How...

My exams are all over. I've been to Malaysia, Kuantan and Kuala Lumpur, for my scholl's Geography and back. Aristal 2008 is over and done with. My life in JC is, at this moment, seventy-five percent over. I shall freely admit it. I cried when the curtain went down after the finale of Aristal. It was a curtain call for more than my time as a dance; it was the end of carefree youthfulness as well. Why do I say this? I have to really get down to studying for my 'A' Levels. I have to concentrate on what I want to do in the near future. I need to source for possible options. I need to decide on my stand on anime, manga and cosplay. All these seems inconsequential, like little bits. Yet, altogether, they define who I am and what I'm going to be, what I'm going to do. How can I ignore all these parts that make up me? Sighx. Its like how music is a part of me, how dance is another part of me, studying makes up anothe section... Argh. Now there's pressure to perform in all these areas, it really tires me out. I do have a limit, and its a very really real limit. Mayhap I consider it a transfered epithet that Larcon is going on hiatus. After all, I mean, I'm in need of a mental vacation.

This song, Orenji no Taiyo, from Moon Child, is an absolute complement to my current mood. Sung and written by both Hyde and Gackt, the song is from Gackt's album Crescent, and is a song I really want. Its so sad, and so sweet, and the movie was heart-wrenching. Ahh. I'm going to cry already, due to both the news and the song. Argh! Shan't care already!

Sayonara...

" Shall I give up? Shall I cry? Shall I despair?"