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twinkle, twinkle by L'Arc~en~Ciel

I don't believe it. I'm still awake. I'm so going to be killed by Dad. He's coming back on the 7AM flight. How in the world am I going to clean the house? How in the world am I in the world going to do laundry without Sir Super Slack finding out about the jeans? What will I say when my mom asks me about all the clothes? I'm so dead. Dead I tell you. My alimentary canal hurts. Insufficient carbohydrates. Yeah. I'm at the photo shoot chalet now. Finished bathing. Wore a wig for more than 10 hours. Make up for as long. Nowaki. Kusou Nowaki from JunJou Romantica. I have no idea if I look alright. Cause everything that I see in the mirror is my own perspective. From a slightly different angle, I might look absolutely Nowaki, and from yet another... Fail. Still, I've yet to be told that I look awful. So I assume its ok. Not erroneously, I hope. I'll link to the site when its done. So far has a few. Here is a video, and here are some photos. I'm not direct linking, so you'll have to scroll down a bit on the thread. Yup. My team. I'm hardly ever posting as there are some problems with my home's connection. Still, it does not mean that I'm not active!

The photos were taken with Kaen. We were absolutely in character. Without trying to be. It was an unconscious thing. The reactions were all natural. The expressions were not very difficult. If a photographer was following us the entire time, its scary how you need people to stalk you at certain points, and if we had a imaginative helper... The sky was likely to be the limit. I'm serious. I'm not saying Melo is a poor helper! Absolutely not! She's super cute and great... But she had to leave early... Not her fault! Oh well.

I think it was thanks to the 7 years. The similar interests. It made shooting pretty easy. Nothing felt unnatural. Quite comfortable with her. Like duh. When she shoved me away, I was really hurt. Not acting. Its that you don't expect someone you know so well to push you away. You're thrown off guard by the force, the intent, the person... Everything. I think if Hiroki pushed Nowaki away, I'd cry if I were him. I was really hurt... When I was lying down, the smug satisfaction was for real, as I was so tired that lying down felt so good. Really good. Come on. Everyone doing everything for you... And all you need to do is lie there and look happy. Duh you'll look happy!

I don't want to go back to work. I'm in the mood to laze. Yes. I'll go sleep when my hair dries. I do need to go back to reality. I need sleep. Will continue when I have time...

"I do not need an eternity. I only need an eternal moment."