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Let's Go Party by 2NE1

Despite the rather 'happening' song title, it's a slow song that is suitable for listening when you're semi awake and unbearably tired. Which is how I feel like now after standing at Botanic Gardens MRT for the past hour as I wait for a friend. You wouldn't want to know how many times I've checked Twitter and FaceBook. It's gotten so bad, there are no seats so I can snooze, that I've resorted to writing about it on my blog. Thank goodness for blog apps. Life would be endless stoning and meditation and temper tantrums if it weren't for technology. People really need to learn to be punctual. Not asking for you to be early, which I usually am, but at the very least, get your butt to the meeting place on time. 5minutes late would still be acceptable, what with the relatively unreliable bus system. Even 15minutes is fine. But an hour is too much. Bordering on waiting for me to bitch slap you before doing a diva hair toss. Yes, I get annoyed when people reduce my sleeping hours. Not like they are in excess to begin with, so its precious!

Just in case, I'm not really angry mad. Annoyed but that is about it. After all, its the holidays and time should be frivolously spent on doing things that do not require me to rush around like a semi possessed person. Rest and relaxation is always appreciated.

I really miss dance. Watching the Korean pop acts and their dances makes my shoulders and legs start moving on their own. Possessed by the music. Not likely to join the dance clubs in school, cliques and politics are too much for my third year school fried brain, so I'm thinking of joining an external group. Not Studio Wu, because I think its overpriced. If I could I'd go back to HHK, but I need to audition and commit to performances, which is a problem. Not sure how to get around this, and I doubt there is going to be a simple solution. Cost is an issue, dance style is yet another issue and my schedule is already packed with school, cca, work and Japanese classes. Sigh. Seems like the probability that I'll overwork myself next semester is pretty high.

Another thing is that I was offered a fashion internship. The problem is that its 10months, and I'll probably need to take a Leave of Absence if I commit to       this. Awfully attracted to doing this, because I think it would be a good opportunity to explore potential strengths and weaknesses of myself. And I do need to clear my internship component if I want to graduate. Thing is, should I be doing this? I'd be making myself work far harder than expected. I could always pick something simpler and shorter and so called more related to my course. Easier way out of the situation. But life would be so boring if I always chose the easier way to go things. Not in me. Somehow I think I must be slightly suicidal to keep aiming to outfit myself over and about. As if I fear mediocrity and consistency. I might, in a subconscious way. After all, its been a while since I chose the more challenging option in my life.The question that makes me hesitate is the opportunity cost. There is always an opportunity cost, its just whether what you carve out from yourself is worth what you're adding to yourself. Which is why I am still considering.

Red moon hanging in the sky. Reminds me of Zone 00, where its the night of the siege, the fateful night where all the demons that have been haunting you attack at the same time. Night of reckoning per se? Scary thoughts. I think I'm reading too much manga. Comparing the real world to Zone is silly, but the overarching themes are very real? About how the things you do have consequences, even if you feel the backlash 500 years later. How we give in to temptation, how we all make mistakes, how we all have fears that we hide because bringing it to the surface will completely paralyse you. And how we all have a past that often comes up to bite us in the ass. Very real. Very scary in many ways to see the hidden things in you reflected in the book you're reading. Very addictive too!

"Together, we can burn brighter than the sun."