Tenacity

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Leaving Singapore for Japan in about 2 months. More or less confirmed everything with my parents. Module mapping is still a mess because of school, and much of the administrative work is pending due to some reason or another. Administrative work is likely to require at least 3 months, easily stretching into my term in Japan. Which is not surprising because there is just so much of it, and most of it will need confirmation from the various government and organisational bodies. Most of it is unbearable tedious but I'm taking it as part of the process. If there is one thing I do not dislike, it is form filling, so I think I am in good stead?

Been a while since I blogged. Was previously very busy with studying for Japanese and trying to sort out my life, so I neglected here for a bit. My schedule for June was virtually like this: Wake up, work, run, dinner, shower, study Japanese and crash. Rinse and repeat. Sometimes, when my knee hurts and I arrange dinner with friends, it went something like this: Wake up, work, dinner with friends, shower, study Japanese and crash. Weekends were: Wake, run, breakfast, shower, study Japanese, lunch, nap, household chores, dinner, study Japanese, crash. Yes it was pretty much the life of an automaton. Barely any variations in my habits, superbly predictable timings, and I was just trudging along day by day. It was driving me crazy though. I like a wee bit of excitement and adventure in my life, and this type of regimented lifestyle is totally not for me. A week or two of this makes me feel as though a year has gone by with nothing to show for it. Once in a while is good, because it gives my body time to rest and adjust, but I'm the sort who believes that a bit of a shock now and then is always good for the system. Establishing better mental capabilities and all.

I never thought that I would say this, but I think I will come to miss wearing shorts and tank tops. Work has relegated my shorts and mini skirts to the dark dingy corner in my cupboard. My tanks are all lonely and waiting for me to pull them out during the weekend. And I am washing my work appropriate attire so many times that I fear they will soon discolour. Recycling the same few pieces over and over again. I think I will miss the warm-ish breeze we get in Singapore, but I look forward to moaning about how dreadfully cold it is in Japan in winter. Never been really cold before, and I think it is one of those things that everyone should experience. Its so sad to have never seen snow, and I have no intention to remain sad forever. Not eactly sure, but if the difficulty of classes in Japan are similar to that of Singapore, its bound to be difficult without any of my finance friends to rely on, but I guess its alright because its back to the old days of really studying on my own. Not impossible.

Also thinking of pursuing, if possible, an internship in Japan. Hopefully finance related because I really want to try out the finance side of things before I graduate. Before joining SMU, it never really occurred to me to intern and try out, but now that I'm three years in and one year to get out, I just feel like applying for an internship wherever to see if I am suited to the career. Reality and textbook scenarios are very different, and no matter how much you read or hear about something, nothing is as effective as experiencing it all first hand. Kinaesthetic memory.

Almost Olympic season! And there is nothing quite like watching the gymnasts. But with the pathetic amount of news and television exposure that I get every day, I have barely any idea of what is happening, who is qualifying and all. Distinctly different from the previous Olympics, where I was watching the qualifier rounds wee into the night due to the lousy timings of the broadcasts due to the free-to-air programming. Sad eh? The things that we so easily give up in order to cope with the other parts of our lives. Now why can't I seem to give up on the foods that I like so much but are so obviously bad for my weight?

No longer falling ill on a quarterly basis, and I'm beginning to understand how effective two days of a liquid diet is. Indeed, all I am doing is sleeping in bed and resting, but my basal metabolic rate burned away all the fats that were accumulating quite easily, and due to a reduced appetite from the starving, I need about a week to go back to prior consumption levels. Analysing it this way, its no wonder that I had no difficulty maintaining lithe. I was effective purging my system every two months! Not like I can go back to those days, because its ridiculous to force myself to fall ill in order to lose weight. Health is important, and I think I have resigned myself to the fact that I will need to run consistently for the rest of my life to enjoy a healthy body fat percentage. Gotta keep it up and ramp it up. Sure, my runs have significantly increased my basal metabolic rate, but with my dreadfully sedentary lifestyle, its unlikely that I will see a significant improvement anytime soon. Oh well.

July is almost at an end, and it will definitely end with a ton of events at my internship. Its the slight lull before the storm now, as one of the main events has just ended. Need to see how things go, but I will be looking for a part time job in August to supplement my lifestyle. I would probably die from boredom if I didn't do anything work related during the month? And now that I have stopped going for training, there really is not much that I can do if I do not work. There are only so many hours in a day that I can spend on course mapping! Research is fun, but after a while... I will admit that I need a break. Doing mindless physical tasks sounds like the break my heart needs to clear up.

"Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand... Just like the river twisting over the dusty land..."