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Venom by Kato Kazuki

I was watching videos on Youtube. Like there is anything else we can do on Youtube. ANYWAY. I realised that my favourite band is L'Arc-en~Ciel while my favourite singer is Gackt. Yes. I ought to be stoned, thrown into a pit of venomous snakes and have my corpse desecrated upon. Yeah. How could I, a true blue Laruku fan actually say something so blasphemous?! Simple. Hyde is married. I really adore hyde. I have his face, as well as that of Laruku plastered all over my room. The first thing I see when I open my eyes first thing in the morning is hyde's face. Regardless, I'm not the type of girl who digs married men. Especially when they have a child. So yeah. Gackt it is.

I know hyde is an entertainer. Completely out of reach. I go completely berserk when I watch their lives. Yet, the moment I remember he is married, it feels as if a pail of cold water has just been emptied on me. All the enthusiasm just dies away. In real life, I have nothing against people who get divorced, fall in love outside marriage or fall in love with married people. I realise that love is fleeting, transient. Nevertheless, I instinctively shy away from people who are attached. Call it a leftover from the emotional disaster my parents showed me. I automatically avoid trying to create children like me. Not like I am likely to be the cause of any such household problem, but I just will NOT go there. Maybe it started in secondary school, where somewhere, somehow, I came across this idea that male friendships are much better than female friendships. From the perspective of someone who spent the first 10 years of her formal education in all girls' schools, it was absolutely absurd. All my good friends are female. My best friend is female. The guys outside my family are colleagues or classmates or acquaintances. None of them have made it into the good friend category. I decided to never do anything that would make my friends hate me. The cardinal girl rules:

1) Never date a guy prettier than you.

For the obvious reason of having less self-esteem problems. As well as less chances of him cheating on you.

2) Never date your friends' ex.

Personally, as one with a personality weird enough to have my family worried that I'll never ever date anyone, I do not think this is much of a concern. Yet,this is important. Yes, your friend will most probably tell you its ok. That the relationship is over anyway. That she doesn't like him anymore. Still, you never know how she really feels about the entire thing. Especially if their relationship was one which she felt did not work out due to a lack of communication. That there were things left unsaid. The worst possible scenario would be that she thinks you were the reason why the relationship did not work. Sticky things. I'd rather not be caught in all these.

Back to the topic of Youtube, I was most surprised to find out that Gackt shops at Maru Cho. I think thats how its spelled. The Singapore equivalent would be something like a One Dollar shop that sells produce as well. The astonishing thing is not how frugal he is. Its him spending 4 days to cook curry. I'm serious. He said so himself. Four days. One would think he had to hunt down the pig and slaughter it as well. Well, the video is here. Take a look. Laugh. Go watch more of Gackt's videos. They are hilarious. I think the Japanese are really hilarious on talk shows. They let themselves be themselves. Wish there were shows half as entertaining in Singapore. It might not be a good thing though. I was laughing so hard my brother said our neighbour would most probably call Woodbridge. I cant help it. It was superbly entertaining.

Have discovered another Visual Kei band, thanks to Queen. Its Deluhi. I have no idea what it represents, how many people there are... Think me and Vidoll at the beginning. Shall introduce them more if I have a sustained interest in their music. You know me. I'm picky. I'd rather not waste time researching about them if I'm only going to like them today. Also available on Youtube. Ah. The wonders of the Internet.

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