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This post is going to be a rant. Simply because I am extremely annoyed by certain things. I am tired, a little hungry and supremely cranky now, so I'm not going to play nice. This is a warning for those who wish to live in the illusion that I am a 'nice' girl. I'm socially gracious. Not your girl-next-door 'nice'. After all, I'm from 10 years of girls' school. I have a younger brother. I'm my father's daughter. I think the last is the most important factor. You have been warned.







I am sick and tired of people making assumptions about me. NO. I DO NOT GO OUT AND PLAY EVERYDAY. I have a DAY JOB. ADMIN. MY OFFICIAL HOURS ARE FROM 9AM TO 6PM MONDAYS TO THURSDAYS AND 9AM TO 5.30PM ON FRIDAYS. CALL ME AT WORK IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME. I DO WORK AT WORK. I"M NOT PERPETUALLY ON FACEBOOK. I am not gallivanting around the streets of Orchard Road. I HAVE JAPANESE LESSONS ON MONDAYS AND WEDNESDAYS. 8PM TO 10PM. I AM NOT CLUBBING, PUBBING NOR MAKING OUT WITH MEN/WOMEN AFTER WORK. I go straight home after my lessons. My lessons are at KOVAN. I take the NEL MRT line to Boon Keng. I HAVE DRIVING LESSONS ON SUNDAYS, USUALLY IN THE MORNING. After that, I clean the house in the afternoon. Sometimes, I head to the library after my driving lesson. I TUTOR MY BROTHER ON THURSDAYS AND FRIDAYS IN THE EVENING, 8PM TO 9PM. On certain Saturdays, my family has family dinners, so I effectively only have Tuesday evenings and Saturday morning to myself. I have to study for SATs as well as complete my Japanese homework. DOES MY LIFE SOUND LIKE A WALK IN THE PARK TO YOU???? Its slowed down now, but previously, I had to study for my Japanese test, Advanced Theory Test and fill up my university applications too. Think its easy? TRY IT!



I have had enough of assholes who think that I lead a charmed life. Yeah. I'm not poor, disabled, stupid nor fucking ugly. Nevertheless, it does not mean my life is all roses and pansies descending from the sky. HELLO??? Been reading too many fairytale stories? I have my problems. I have my difficulties. Just because I smile and behave graciously, you think I'm HAPPY? DAMN YOU. Which bloody planet are you from? There is something known as a social self. A public self. What you see IS NOT WHAT I AM. Have I lost you? Can't process anything more than the usual frivolity I blog about? Yeah. I blog about school, how tired I am, Visual Kei, my shrine, Laruku, Gackt, yadda yadda yadda. DO YOU THINK THIS IS ALL THERE IS TO MY LIFE? HELL NO. Common sense would tell you that there is more. WAIT. I forgot. YOU LACK COMMON SENSE. Go and drown yourself in some far off and obscure body of salt water. Human garbage. Your existence is a blight upon this beautiful world.

I am disgusted by how pathetic people like you are. Parasites who live off squashing others. BASTARD. BITCH. I honestly think you are a freak of nature. Preaching to me? What nonsense. For your information, I am NOT AN IDIOT. I have a brain. I happen to use it. I LIKE USING MY BRAIN. To think. Process information. The usual. Oh, I'm sorry. You wouldn't understand, would you? Stop judging me based on your warped moral values. I am who I am. I'm not going to become someone you think is 'good' simply because of your criticism. This is my life. You're not the one who is going to wake up and see me in the mirror everyday. So fuck off. Stop interfering. Say what you will, but the truth is, you don't matter enough for me to do anything more than blog about your narcissm, foolishness, uselessness and lack of judgement. Unfortunate, but that is all there is to me. You are just the trigger. I had a barrage of complaints compounding within me. Just the combination of stupidity, stress, displeasure and hunger. Don't worry. Its not you. Its me. Don't kid yourself into believing that I actually care that much.

Ah. Shall continue my Deluhi spree~

"I purr not because I like you, but because I'm hungry..."