Turned Away

I went back to Cedar for Speech Day yesterday, and as I was walking along Wan Tho Avenue, I really couldn't help but feel that I simply no longer belonged there. The area rejected me, warning me away. Its pretty sad, because St. Margaret's never gave me this feeling... So I guess I'm no longer a true blue Cedarian. Sighx. Its super depressing to reach this conclusion. I mean I had a great time in the school, yet its now rejecting me... Am I now too world-weary to be welcomed back? I threw away the naivety, I threw away the carefree nature of a child, and the price is that Cedar is too ashamed of me to want me back... Growing up is a disease.

I am proud to say that I now have 28 songs by Atobe Keigo aka Suwabe Junichi in my music library. I still like his voice, although I realised that he sounds pretty different in some of the other songs... Although I suppose that only goes to show how versatile he is. Another thing is that no matter how... unconvential his songs are, they are all quite meaningful, and all of them reflect Atobe's character and personality excellently. Sighx. Atobe is just too amazing for mere words to describe him completely. Sighx. A great voice does wonders to my heartrate. Haha. I sound like an old lady... I guess I have an old soul.

I'm going for the Humanities Scholarship interview next Tuesday... Sighx. I'm pretty nervous. Argh. I'm no longer in the mood to blog. Just thought of how silly the juniors in Cedar are. Some silly girl thought the leader told her, during field cooking of OAC, to eat a worm. As in, " Cut the vegetable and eat it". Evidently, the leader wanted the girl to cut the part of the vegetable with the worm away, and cook the good part. Common kitchen practice. But the girl... sighx. What is the world coming to? I suppose the girl had never actually cooked anything... then how on earth did she get through Home Economics? Sighx.

Shall drown myself in the awesome voice of Suwabe-san. Ease the pain.