Distraction

I'm in love with brownies. The really chocolate-y ones, with walnuts too, that are high on the sin-o-meter... Someone give me one. I like the wetter, more sponge textured ones instead of the dry version. I guess the moist nature reminds me of eating pure, melted chocolate. Yummy. If there's something I can't resist, its really good food, whatever it is (as long as it doesn't have chilli). Chocolate cake, brownies, coffee cake, tiramisu, pandan cake, banana cake, chocolate chip cookies, almond cookies, butter cookies, no-bake and baked chesese cake... its no wonder I learnt to bake before I learnt to cook. Then there's steamed salmon, cauliflower, roast chicken rice, lemon chicken rice, Shaghainese dumplings, har kow, siew mai, peanut soup, Campbell soup, scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes, chicken nuggets, cheese, ebiko, tobiko, chawanmushi, red bean pau, char siew, pork stewed with chestnuts, drunken prawns, beancurd, crabmeat with prawns, tomatoes, chicken drumstick and wings... Wow, I just realised I like to eat loads of stuff. And I have yet to even start on dessert and beverages. So now you know why I can't lose weight. Ho-hum.

Food is something like the ultimate form of temptation to me. I use it to reward myself, to console myself, and to help me pass time when I'm bored or stuck in an awkward situation. Food is essential to keep me functioning, and I can't help but enjoy the experience of eating. I mean, I actually like the taste of white rice. Honest. Rice sold in Singapore is of a certain standard, and this coupled with the fact that my family buys above average rice... rice really is good. I mean, just eat about one or two spoonfuls of plain, freshly steamed white rice. It smells good, its a slightly sweet, goes well with anything that you can possibly put on your plate, every mouthful taste slightly different, and best of all, its cheap. I mean, its like the perfect eating accessory sort of thing. I know of diets which tell you to cut down on carbohydrates by eating lesser rice, and replacing it with proteins like meat, but seriously, won't you ever get tired of the taste of meat? I know I do. On some rare days, I'm all for fruits and vegetables, and I avoid all red meat, only with a little bit of fish to sort of balance up my meal.

On an average school day, starting at 6am in the morning, breakfst consists of three slices of plain white Gardenia bread , usually spread with kaya, peanut butter and chocolate, one flavour per bread. Then I would have yong tau foo or a snack at about 10am, depending on how much time I have before my next class. Lunch at 1pm tend to be either noodles or rice, depending on the length of the queue for the particular store. If I have dance after that, I'll most probably buy a heavier snack when class ends, it would usually around 3pm, one portion to eat before it starts and one at about 8pm when it ends, on my way home to have dinner at about 9pm. Otherwise, a light snack woul tide me over until I get home to have my dinner at about 7pm.

Talking about dance, I wonder what we are going to do after school starts. Sighx. I feel unfit. Hmm. Maybe I shall go run a bit. Urgh. Enough.

"Darkling I listen: and, for many a time I have been half in love with easeful Death, Call'd him soft names in many a mused rhyme" Keats, "Ode to a Nightingale"