Trouble

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Trouble by VAMPS

Its awesome. So addictive. Yeah, it was by Shampoo I think. A British band. Made famous by being the theme song for Power Rangers. Us who belonged in the Power Rangers generation would know. I think I like Love Addict, Trouble and Time Goes By. I Gotta Kickstart Now is less... Infectious I would say. Lacks a certain something. I miss L'Arc-en~Ciel. Part of the Laruku feel is present in Trouble, but it seems almost repetitive. Like if you put all three songs into an album, you'd fall asleep all too soon. I honestly doubt its what hyde and KAZ are trying to do in VAMPS, so its kinda worrying. I'm a hardcore fan, but this is not enough. They can be much better. I believe in them. Anyway, hyde is so absolutely pretty in Trouble. I think he might even be prettier than the girl. Haha. Considering his age, gender, personality... I think he might find it an insult. Still, its the truth. He has the androgynous naughty schoolgirl look. The older he gets, the hotter he seems to become. Yes, I am not embarrassed of liking him.

Went for both NTU and SMU interview. I believe I shall hear from them in May. Not sure if either will accept me. NUS, as usual, is slow. Its making me worry that they have lost my application. Still... I know how NUS works. I just think its them being slow again. Sigh. Its bad for my nerves. HAHA. I make myself sound like some jittery school girl. Not exactly an accurate description of myself, no? Still, when its very future at stake, we are all entitled to hysterics and nervous ramble. Normal. Well, at least it was, the last time I checked.

There is this pervasive sense of emptiness. I'm not sure why. I thought I had resolved it by finding gainful employment, by engaging in my hobbies. I've been reading more books, doing more homework, resting more... Taking things at my pace. Yet, I have no inner peace to show for it. It is not that I lack material necessities. Maybe I need a religion. Maybe I need to find love. Maybe I need a new life. I think I need a new life. Something is definitely wrong with the way I do things now. I lack a greater purpose. Its not something that I can hide under rock music and cosplay. Its something that bleeds out and corrupts. I need to exterminate this discontentment. Urgently. I need to improve myself.

"忘れなくないの一瞬に。。。”