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思春の痕 ～love me, hug me～ by Vidoll

It seems like it was just a while ago that I was whining on and on about not having time to do all the things that I want to do. Now its the holidays, and much awaited at that. I've been pretty busy since my exams ended, mainly playing catch up my friends whom I've not seen since the middle of term. Cheerleading practices are on the cards, as well as a short trip overseas for a change in scenery. I'm not going to work this holidays, mainly because of the relatively short nature of this break. I'm not crazy enough to try and drive myself into my grave when I've only barely survived my first semester. Work will most probably feature during summer break, when I think I ought to have more time. JLPT also ended recently. The exam wasn't as horrible as I made it out to be. Its just that I don't want to be overconfident, as there is a definite possiblity of failing. And failing badly at that. Sigh.

So why do I sound so listless? It might be because there have been costume and wig problems. It might be because the people that are important to me have been hurting me, and not realising that they have. It might be because I have gone crashing into walls erected where I thought none stood. It might be because my results will be out in a few days as well. Sighs. Life is not a bed of roses even after exams.

Nevertheless, I feel kind of happy. There is no better feeling that that of someone being upset for your sake. Its a really complex emotion, because on one hand, you are superbly pissed off by what others have said, and on the other hand, you are really ecstatic that there is someone out there who is willing to stand up for you, and that person is your friend. I'm serious. The feeling is great. I've never thought much about standing up for my friends. Not that I don't do it! Oh no, its just a reflex to get upset at things that hurt them. As I'm usually the one doing the defending, I've never really been on the receiving end of such staunch support. Its gratifying to know that someone cares. That someone loves you. That wherever you are, there's someone who will defend you. Sigh. Even if the defense is seriously lacking... I guess its the thought, and the act that counts. I'm happy.

Ok, I have a few great ideas for photoshoots. All I need is the people to make it happen. I promise you, my ideas are great. I may not be the most creative person around, but I am superb at representing concepts. I have no idea, but I just happen to be good at themes. Not GREAT. But good., There is a significant difference. i'm not sure of the significance level, and I can't tell you the confidence interval, but trust me. Since when have I ever really let you down?

I should really join FedEx. Those who get the joke should applaud themselves. Its boring being witty when people don't appreciate the humour nyan~

"I accumulate happiness today so that I can deal with the shit people give me for the rest of the week."