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One by D=Out

New single by D=Out after they went mainstream. The music has changed a little, but I think it is still decent listening. The PV was nice and funny, and the guys had a lot of fun in the filming so I guess they are still essentially the same band. As you can tell, I'm a fan of the band and more importantly, the music, so I can't be bothered if they do go mainstream or stay indie as long as they are still able to produce fabulous music. Some may say that the bands have betrayed their roots or whatever, but I subscribe to the believe that as fans, my role is to support the band as far as I can. If D=Out went pop I'd probably roll over and die and never listen to another song again but otherwise? I'm not particular at all.

This is the last week of formal classes in school. Time seriously flies, even when you're not having fun. I guess this semester has been like every other semester in this glass cage in the middle of town? Tiring, full of drama, alot of work, falling ill, presentations and more of the usual things that transpire in the everyday life of an active female university student. Gone to more classes than I care to count, did less work than I imagined, smoked and fluffed my way through my everyday, and met one guy that I'd really like to be in a relationship with.

Yeah, got you there didn't I? I've never ever talked about any flesh and blood, non-family non-idol male that i'd liek to have a romantic relationship with have I? Always been happy to just float around and do my own thing... Been contented and avoiding the jarring lack of male relationships. As in, yeah, I have guy friends and guy groupmates and classmates and all that jazz, but I've never ever wanted someone? I guess because I'm a lazy and selfish girl who just ignored everything. Turned people down, and always picked at faults but inside, I knew that if I tried, I think something could have worked out. Just that I didn't want it to work out as I'm too lazy to get out of my comfort zone and be nice to people I'm not familiar with for a change. Even with him, I was wishing he was attached so that I could just tell him I liked him and get rejected immediately. I just wanted to move on. But voila! Not attached. So what shall I do with these feelings?

I've given a lot of relationship advice from my common sense, and if I was to advise myself, I think I would have yelled at myself. HAHA. Went to text him and point blank asked if he was attached. Covered it up with professional reasons, but really, I wished I could have asked him for a one week trial. I don't know if it would work out, which is a first time for me (the not knowing the end result part!), so I want to see if its an exercise in futility or something possible. So many reasons NOT to ask, but the thing is, I hate the feeling of being in limbo. I'm not the kind of person to have a secret crush, because my crushes can never be secret. I don't like misunderstandings between people, so I tend to overcommunicate when I'm in a relationship to try reduce the miscommunications which are bound to occur. Its been alright so far, but I think some peopel would feel that I overshare. So what? I know I'm weird. Shoot me for being unable to be dull and boring and quiet.

Going to the hair salon on Friday. Like FINALLY after about a year. I know I should really take better care of my appearance, but I must admit that it is too time consuming to worry about it. And after I discovered make-up and dressing to take the focus away from my 'flaws', I've realised that I can get away with a lot of nonsense. Nonsense like eyebags, bad skin and messy hair. As long as it looked like it was done on purpose, the hair not the eyebags!, people wouldn't find it weird. Which is weird but never mind, I'm just glad I get to be lazy. Anyway, I have no idea what kind of hairstyle to get on Friday. Probably will just tell the guy not to cut my hair too short, and not to layer too much but yeah. Unless I see something awesome in a magazine, or if I were to have a brainwave from now to then... Thats about it. Hair can grow back which little difficulty, although being laughed at by my peers isn't a particularly stimulating nor positive experience.

Presentation in about 30minutes. Should I text him before I go in?

"All I want is the things I want."