Birthday

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I'm really sleepy, but I wanted to post, so after this, I'm heading straight to nap.

After today, I'm officially 19.

A strange age that is neither here nor there. Its a prime number. And it means that I am no longer a minor. Yet, I'm not an adult either. I can't enjoy the 'kid' benefits anymore, but I don't have the spending power to fit into the 'adult' category. Its a weird phase, and the feeling is compounded by my exhaustion.

Financial accounting exam was tough. I think I flunked. Talking to Darren and Zen after the paper just made me feel worse. In a way, I shall me honest and say I hate them for making me feel so stressed. Yeah. If you guys see this, which you won't since I don't think you guys bother with such 'trivialities', don't say I'm a bitch. I did make noise, and you guys HAPPILY ignored me, so I get to complain. Yupps. Shall work on Business Government and Society after I nap. Too sleepy for information to permeate my thick skull. I think my grades are going to be atrocious. Sigh. I'm just not smart nor hard working enough for university life. Sigh.

Oh. Dad got me a nice present. Kel gave me a Ty Beanie Bear. Jie gave me a cake. Hejin a card. Kaen a blog post. HAHA. And I got many well-wishes from my friends. Its good to be loved, but its stressful when you realise that you aren't living up to expectations. Cue imposing music when thinking about exams anyone? Still, I'm grateful. Thank you for remembering amidst all your hectic schedules, exams, meetings and what not. I know its just another day, but on this day 19 years ago, I was born. So yes. In a way, it is an important day to me. I'll thank everyone properly in the next post. I'll have to constantly update if I want to really thank everyone now, and I'm too lazy to want to do that, so I shan't. HAHA. I hope this sentence isn't too unclear for you to understand. :D

Growing up is only fun when you know you'll be successful when you grow up. Otherwise, its like jumping into the deep end of the pool without learning how to swim. I drown. Yeah. Simply because I can't swim. Sigh. This is becoming increasingly depressing. Once again, I shall attribute this to my relative sleepiness and leftover stress from my paper this morning and nervousness about the next three papers. Yup.

Shall go for my run later. I need to sweat and lose weight. yeah. I need to lose fats.

"Birthdays are days where you try hard to forget that you're one year nearer to never celebrating it again."