Dehydrated

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La Verite Fermee by Lacroix Desperes

I'm so tired. I'm dehydrated too. Had a photoshoot on Sunday. Not a smart thing to do in the middle of term. Not that I seem to have learnt my lesson, going by how I just agreed to another 3 photoshoots, all within term time. These are for another place and time, but just to let you know, I'm not really complaining, in case I seem like I am. I'm just a bit tired, so all my sentences are structured in a more weary manner. I'm actually pretty excited to be working with my favourite photographer again. Yes, my favourite. If she ever sees this, I think she'll be pretty happy. No names; not the right place, but yes. Photoshoots are a delicate balance of relationships. Between the helper and the cosplayer. Between the cosplayer and the photographer. And between the photographer and the helper. There needs to be mutual trust and understanding in order to achieve something decent. You need a special spark in order to achieve something awesome. I'm not sure if I can say that there is that special spark between my photgrapher and I, but I do know that its not nothing, at the very least. Which is, for me, something in itself and something that I am proud of.

Sighs. I have no idea what to say here without coming across as an angsty teenager. First and foremost, I am no longer precisely a teenager. Secondly, I do not have much angst left. After I decided on my New Year's resolution, I have been working hard to keep to it. However, there are many who feel that I seem to be kinda angry at times? Not really. Today was tiring, but fun. Laughed non-stop during my group meeting. Its fun when everyone tries to play their part. And when people say really retarded things and can laugh at themselves.

Sometimes, I wonder if the things I gave up to make others happy were really worth the sacrifice. I wonder if they even know what I did for them. I guess not, because I don't even know that I did it for them until the time for decisions is long past. Its not a really concious effort to do something. More like, an instictive decision. Sigh. I guess I did whatever I felt was right at that point in time, and I should content myself with the knowledge that I have done whatever necessary that could have possibly be given during those circumstances. After all, we can only do what is right for that point in time. We can hardly be expected to do what is right for all time all the time. Oh well, at least all of us save those in politics. YAYness. We should be glad that we are not at the tender mercies of the American general public, going by how the media paints the task awaiting Obama. Good luck nyan~

"I plucked a star from the sky, and buried it in the greasy darkness of the Earth."