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I Was Deceived By You - Brown Eyed Girls

School is going to start! HOMG. I am not prepared for the term to start. Not at all. I'm too used to waking up and sleeping at any weird time I fancy. I'm too used to going over to my grandparents' home for my meals. I'm too used to doing whatever I want at whatever time I want. I'm too used to the holidays. Sigh.

I used to find holidays a bore. There was always not enough things to do for the whole month that I got. I was always secretly wishing that school would start soon, never saying it aloud as I was afraid that others would hate me for being a spoilsport. I love school, you see, no matter what I was forced to do. School was where the library was. School was where there were fun new things to do everyday. School was where all my friends were. School was fun. Of course, when you're in university, things are less... Enjoyable. The library is full of references and and research papers that you're too lazy to read. The new things that you do are usually not fun at all. Your friends, if they're still your friends, have no time for you anymore, running after deadlines, boyfriends and CCA commitments. School is far from fun now.

Its not like I HATE school. Its just that I would have really appreciated a longer holiday. I need to recharge a bit more. Then again, I doubt that the holiday will ever be long enough to recharge for the ultra-competitive and super-mugger environment that is my school. Maybe the summer holiday may be enough. I won't know sure until the summer break is here, which is a very distant 5 months away. Yeah, what is 5 months in the decades that are our lives? Nevertheless, the human mind is not capable of emotionally anticipating the far-off past and future. Which is good, because all the pain and sorrow of the past is buried in memory. Similarly, the happiness that we had is drowned in the noise of all our experiences. Double-edged, but I'm not really complaining. After all, sometimes, the happiness you had is what makes your pain even greater. I shall not continue. I want to start this year on a positive note.

There are so many things to do this year. Really a lot. Leftovers from my cosplay ideas. New plans before I quit. Need to improve my GPA. New CCA. Need to start planning for my future. Need to think about CIP for school. Need to think about exchange and interships. I need to grow up.

Asked Boonie to help me calculate my horoscope chart. I'm Sun Sagittarius, Moon Aquarius and Ascendent Gemini. HAHA. Its only a small section of the entire natal chart, which is currently beyond my understanding though I'm actively engaging Boonie to try to correct this. You can obtain your chart here. Yup. You should try yours too! We can check our compatibility~

"On and on and on... Round and round and round in circles..."