Brother

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Love Love Love by Epik High

This is a very strange coincidence. The song actually matches what I'm writing about. Its rarely the case nyah. My playlist is left on shuffle, so it really is random. WOW. A one out of 600 chance. Shows the amazing power of loving your brother.

In case I freak anyone out, I think I should quantify this. I love my brother as my brother. I've loved him from the moment my parents brought him home 16 years ago from the hospital. At that time he was just a little thing swaddled up and placed in the cot that I could barely peek into. Until today, where he's taller and heavier, and so very picky about the things that he wears. I love my brother, always have, always will, no matter what I may seem to say or do.

I've been plenty pissed at him. For ruining my toys. For messing up my fun. For kicking me in his sleep. For leaving his dirty clothes strewn around the house. For yelling at me when I refuse to give in to him. I know I've not always been the best sister around, but I do try. Why? I know he's an amazing person! What would I do without that boy who will long-windedly tell me about how his teacher is a dolt? What will I do without the boy who cleans the study room, stairs and kitchen every Sunday afternoon? What will I do without that boy who shakes his head at the crazy antics of his elder sister? What will I do without that boy who steals my chocolates and cookies and still dares to grin at me while strutting past me? I really love him.

In this life, I'll only have this one brother. We have different blood types, he's an A while I'm B. He can't even touch his toes while I'm a Chinese dancer. But all the same, he's the only person I'd ever poke and hug with absolutely no reservations. He can steal my cake and apple juice and I'd let him get away with it. I can take his stationary and he'd let me get away with it. We get along with each other, because somewhere in my head and heart, he's been there from the day he appeared wrapped like a present to a very bored 4 year old girl. 

There have been many things that I've been through because of him. Nursery school, grandparents, parents, cousins, many things changed because of him. When I was younger, I was disgruntled, and would sometimes take it out on him. But I guess I never meant any ill intent, because I remember that I'd go to sleep next to him because he said he was scared. I remember being irritated that I had to wake him up every morning, but I did so every day. I still do so, especially if he oversleeps his alarm. I'd make breakfast for him everyday when I was in primary school and lower secondary school until he was old enough to do so on his own. I remember washing his school shoes, complaining that his shoes were more black than white. I remember this distant sense of pride when I watched him on stage, really glad that my brother was so awesome. 

Yeah, I love my Smacky. He's stinky, messy, vain, cowardly, irritating and downright rude at times. At the same time, he's the cutest, sweetest, funniest and most understanding brother I could ask for. This big sister hasn't always been there, has she? I haven't been the kindest or most considerate sister, have I? I've said hurtful things, and done selfish things. I've been a pain and I've been inconsiderate. So even if you hate me, I'd still love you.

Of course, I don't think you hate me~ I know you love me too~ Although with your pride as a young and 'cool' 16 year old male, I sincerely doubt you'd ever say anyhting like that. You'd just go " Yeah lah, yeah lah, whatever." or " You siao ah!". But thank you for never saying "No". So don't worry, I'll still scold you and make you do your Mathematics homework. And please stop hiding your Literature textbook. I promise I won't EAT it, no matter how much I love books. So yeah, hand it over.

"I think I'm falling in love..."