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Flower by Gackt

I want you to be happy, not because I have this belief that everyone has to be happy, but because I like your smile. I like it when you smile at the silly things I say on purpose, and when you laugh at the things that always unluckily happen to me. I like the way we share inside jokes about people we know and don't know, and how we understand how the other person thinks and functions. I like the sense of comfort and security, and the sense that everytime we're together will be another adventure. It doesn't matter if your family isn't well-to-do, it doesn't matter if you're not the smartest nor the brightest nor the most fantastic. To me, I'm happy to be with you every opportunity I get. So let's stay together forever alright? Let's not allow environmental circumstances dictate the way we interact. Let's not allow the people around us to decide if what we have is 'real'. Let's not allow our doubts cloud our belief of each other. And most of all, let's not start wondering why we're in this sort of relationship in the first place. Okay?

I think I'm not a person who is easy to get along with. I say sharp things bluntly (though some will say blunt is an understatement), and I have a low tolerance level for pretentious people and stupidity. I get bored easily, and I will demand what I want from others. I can be very aggressive, and I refuse to compromise on my values and beliefs. I have high standards, and I expect them to be met. I'm stubborn, hard-headed, rude, blunt... And I have no compassion for other people. Charity? Love? I am indifferent to the suffering of people outside my immediate sphere. I'm considerate, because I don't like dirty and messy things. I don't like to waste resources, and I hate pollutants. People who drink and smoke are tolerated because they help to shoulder my taxes, and I absolutely despise people who do nothing but try to fade into the wallpaper. Hit me, and I'll bite back. Steal things from me, and I'll tear your head off. I won't allow myself to be bullied or overlooked, and will gladly stand my ground to tough it out. In short? I'm prickly, and most people won't want to even WANT to get along with me after the initial 30 minutes, if they can even last that long.

But to my friends, I'm mad loyal. To the people I love, I'd brave hell, high water (though I'd probably drown) and whatever nonsense you throw at me to give them what they want and need and expect. I'd stand by you no matter what happens, and I'd be there should you need a hand. I'd forgive mistakes and errors because I love you, and an apology will usually get you further than you expect. I'll be your everything, if you give me a chance to be...

I just realised I typed all that without pause. Reads like a freaking CONFESSION. Oh well. Isn't every relationship a confession of sorts? An admittance that you want the presence of a certain person? A declaration that that person is on the same side as you? A hope that others will acknowledge the bond and link between the both of you? Even the people who are best friends with their own selves are using this concept. At the end of it all, we need understanding, and the acceptance that comes with knowing that even if you think you're weird and everyone thinks that you're weird... You're still accepted, and more importantly, loved.

WOW. This actually seems to make sense? HAHA.

"Alive, not mortal overmuch... Dying, not vital overmuch..."