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Lollipop by 2NE1 ft. BIG BANG

Suddenly on a Korean song craze. Not sure why, but I think that interceding Japanese and Korean songs makes for great listening. I think its because of the difference in the structure of the songs and language. Its amusing how 2 languages that started from Chinese could have evolved to be so different, yet still so beautiful. I guess I like Asian languages best. Nothing too guttural and sharp. Nice and fluid~

I'm pretty tired these few days. Dog tired. Exhausted. I think most of it is from the CIP camp that I just returned from, but I guess I'm also sick of my life. Not that I'm suicidal, more of sick of my lifestyle. I feel that there is a lack of meaning, and I'm not really able to connect with anyone. Everyone seems so busy, or so afflicted with their own demons to help you slay yours. Even if there were no evils to be conquered, I think as a social animal, I need constant interaction with others to keep going. I'm half introverted and half extroverted, so while I hate huge parties, being a solitary creature for an extended period of time is detrimental to my health too. By extended period I mean something like a WEEK. I can survive on acquaintances for about 2 weeks, but after the first week, I start to exhibit signs of stress. I guess I'm high maintenance in this way? HAHA.

We've all wondered if there are things we do that are worth it. And sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and really wonder if everything that I'm doing is nothing more than an exercise in futility. (I need to thank Whitby for teaching me this.) Especially when I wake up with aching muscles, walk over to the bathroom and see the cuts and bruises... I wonder if I'm doing something that is worth all these. Come on, I think there's something wrong if I'm using knee guards and wrist guards every waking moment. And I'm taking so much Vitamin C that its s good thing that you can't overdose on it. If I was more self-concious about my body, I think all the bruises will freak me out, after all at last count, I have 10.

"Searching for that something extra..."