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truth by Arashi

Ah. I just realised that the amount that I study is indirectly proportional to the number of posts that I have in a month. Going by this reasoning... I think its quite evident that I'll need a minor miracle in order to ace my A Levels. This is as major miracles are stuff like getting rid of all the excess carbon dioxide and other greenhouse emissions in the atmosphere. Haha. This is so not funny. Not hilarious. Not at all.

I guess the reason why I am not able to study properly is that the environment is not suitable. Its too hot. Lighting isn't enough. My parents keep bugging me at the wrong times. Serious. I mean, how do you expect me to be able to get any work done if you keep telling me to do household chores? Wash the grapes. Fold the clothes. Prepare dinner. Do the laundry. Pack the house... You say its a 'simple task' that 'would not take more then a few minutes'. Tell you what. You go do it. Its so simple after all. Breaking my concentration at my working peak. Wow. Thanks.

Furthermore, you claim you had a lousy environment, so you were not able to study properly in the past. Hello? You're not giving me a good environment here either? Buzz off. I don't want to be a failure. Like you. Go away. Stop bothering me. Stop lecturing me. Stop trying to make me into what you could not be. Honestly, I couldn't care less. So what if you rip each other's throats off? So what if you want to break up? I DON'T CARE. As long as you don't yell at each other in the middle of the night and disturb my sleep, fight on. As long as you don't hurt me in your fights, battle on. As long as my standard of living, and I mean both in quality and quantity, is affected, I don't give a damn about what you do. I used to care. Oh, I truly was worried. Afraid for your sakes. Wanting to make a difference. To restore things to the way they were in the past. Now, however, its clear that it doesn't mean a thing to me. So what? My life goes on. I still have to take my A level exams. I still need to go to school. I still need food, water and rest. Don't quote what you said to me? Hah. I learnt all these from you. What you see is a reflection of my environment, which you decided, which you created. Regretting it? Too bad. It is, after all, all YOUR fault.

This is me. You made me, gave me life, taught me. Everything that I am is because of you. Everything that I am now. That is all. The past is yours. The present is nearly all yours. But the future... The future is all mine.

"Eat my dust..."