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Cage by Dir En Grey

The colours are all there. Yellow. Lots of blue. A few purples. Quite a lot of blue. Barely any green. Some grey. One orange. The rest is white. I assure you. I'm feeling blue at the sight of all the blue. Why can't I get more greens? Sheesh. Stop rejecting me! At this rate... I'll most probably be wasting my Saturday! Yes! On Saturday, I'll be meeting a whole bunch of babies. My whole morning is gone. Because of them. I could sleep in. Go out. Slack at home. Revise Japanese. Study for my final driving theory test... But no. I have to babysit and herd them around. Goodness gracious me. What a WONDERFUL way to spend my time. Ok. Maybe things could be worse. Maybe I would have to do this TWICE. Wait. I'm even missing part of my lunch to go through the details so that the event is perfect. Yo punks had better show up! Otherwise, I'll remember you name kill you when I see you walking around campus later this year!

Why is hyde so quiet this year... As in, there has been nothing from VAMPS, and on his own, for quite a while. Yes, I know creative juices are often very sluggish, but now with Laruku on hiatus, he should have less to do. I think. Unless he is still on tour somewhere in Japan? He does have his family to take care of... I wonder what his life is like. I always wonder how those in the entertainment industry live. No real privacy. Its a 24/7 job. There are expectations from everyone and anyone. You have to be careful of everything you ay and do... What a starnge life that must be. Or if you had famour parents. As weird, if not more so, as you never chose the attention. You were born with it... What does the world seem like to them I wonder.

I'm hungry. I'm often hungry at work especially. At 1130 AM. It lasts for about an hour, before my hunger pangs go away as my body numbs it. So if I miss a meal, I can still function, although I often complain so much that I'm fed. I can go on like that for up to 8 hours. If I don't eat anything for more than that, my hunger pangs are so bad I keel over in pain. I'm serious. It hurts and hurts. I can't stand up straight, and I just bunch into this little ball. Its not a throbbing pain, but a sharp pain that persists. Unbearable. So I need to be fed. I sound like some plant or animal that needs regular meals.

My SAT results will be out in the evening tomorrow. I feel like dropping by my tailor to alter the dress. Give myself something to do other than refreshing the College Board website to see if my results are out. In real life, my name is near the end of the alphabet, so I often have to wait ages before I get my result slip. The suspense is awful. Its so unfair that you see others screaming in joy, or crying, or even going crazy while you still wait in line. Terrible. Online is fair to everyone. Unless the server has a problem. Which I shall pray does not occur tomorrow. We should have instant marking. like in the driving theory test. A huge PASS or FAIL immedistely shows up upon submission of your answers. It can be crushing, but at least you do not have to wait in agony.

Still calling my babies...

"I realized the things I was praying for were transient... I cannot do anything for you..."