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Agoraphobia by Vidoll

It is exceedingly infuriating. I hate it when people do things like that to me. I do my best to be nice, but sometimes, I'd gladly clobber them to death. Common sense is not common, and rational people are endangered. I try not to be violent. And rude. Although I really think I should snap at those fools. Not like it would change anything. Stupidity cannot be cured just like that. Brain transplants are neccesary to rehash everything. However, who is going to provide the brain? Thus, idiocity lives on. May the Force be with us. I shall hope that there is nothingness after death. Imagine the torment of spending eternity with fools. Yeah. God loves everyone. So the rest of us who are not so loving, as we are not God, will just have to bear with their foolishness for an eternity? No thank you. Please. One lifetime is more than enough. Do not subject me to such torment forever.

Locking my blog gives me a delicious sense of self-satisfaction. The idea that it is off-limits to individuals NOT in my list makes me happy in a vindictive way. Yeah. I never said I was a nice person. No seme is nice. HAHA. I know full well that I can be bitchy, inconsiderate and just a general pain, but society demands otherwise. Now I get a slight respite. Not only do I keep details about my friends away from random individuals, I can insert snarky comments without worrying too much about my societal image. Yes. Say I'm a poser. Whatever. I think I'm less pretentious than most people I know. I won't be nice to you while backstabbing you. I'll just skip the nice part and go straight to hurting people. Requires less energy. So in a way, I'm an open threat. See? I respect my enemies too.

I'm low on funds. Simple reason. Or reasons. Driving. One lesson is around thirty dollars. My wallet screams in agony. Japanese. The first level is ending mid-March and I need to pay for the next. Cruise. Poof! There goes three-hundred dollars. My paycheck for the previous month gone. Sigh. Thats why I have to work. No work, no money, lower standard of living. I WANT MY RESULTS. This is not random. Thinking of standards of living led me to think about Human Geography and Economics. Both of which are subjects I take. A Level H2 subjects pending results. Goodness gracious me. Why is it taking so long? The wait is sufficient to kill you. Ok. I shall not die until I see my reults. Death shall be withheld. HAHA. Who am I to try to determine the will of the heavens? Just a lone voice crying out in the great vast space of the universe. I am nothing. I exist in the flash of the present. And yet, I seek to control the forces far greater than I. HAHA. I am of humankind. Infinitely minute, yet so self-centered as to believe that I can be a force that surpasses the heavens. I laugh.

" My face is a mask. My eyes are glazed. My smile is frozen. My laugh is a farce. This is me."