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ALARM by Namie Amuro

I am so glad I do not torture my friends by making them read teensy weeny fonts. I am referring to SOME people who seem to be writing for ants to read. HELLO? This auntie has bad eyesight. Can enlarge it? Its not that I don't care about you, its that I don't care to worsen my myopic degree. Please? I promise I'll read your blog whenever I can.

The past two days were... Let us just say that it was marked by me being reprimanded. On Saturday, I woke up all bright and early at 630am to go to work. An event where I needed to prepare stuff. Music. Attendance taking. Reminds me of AVA. Bad. Boring. Anyhow, I soon left to look for my tailor, located all the way at Boon Lay. I've been to her place 3 days in a row. First day was Thursday to pass her my costume to alter. Next day was Friday, where I realised it was a disaster after alteration as she cut off too much cloth. So I had to go find her, again on Saturday. I was in a bad mood on Saturday. Not only do I have to work, which means I have to wake up early, it was also boring. I missed my secondary school fiesta because of work. Had wanted to go to the NTU talk. Not allowed to on the grounds that I was hardly at home as it was already. It was Valentine's Day and no one even wished me. Best part? I waited near 45 minutes for the tailor. I was not happy. And then... I saw Kaen. More later. So I went home. Studied Japanese. Napped. Went to Pek Kio CC. Oh yeah, I'm signing up for a Sally Hansen nail care course. Anyone interested to join me? Sunday... The ususal. Wake up. Breakfast with family. House cleaning. I went out with Hifi and Vivi in the afternoon. Suntec. Again. We had Crystal Jade Ramen and Xiaolongbao. It was NICE. Maybe its as I miss eating Chinese cuisine. I have been eating random bits of food. I have yet to have a proper sit down meal since... A while. I'm often eating leftovers or hawker food. Meals at my grandma's place are also hurried affairs. Sigh. Time is so limited. I had Marvelous Cream again after lunch with them. This time it was strawberry. I'll upload the pics soon. Maybe end of the week. Ok. Its not that sson. Or maybe only when I go there for my shoot. I'm lazy. And lacking a laptop. Disgruntled people can sponsor a lappie or donate to my lappie fund. And bam! Monday at work. Again.


Kaen's my best friend. Something I just realised... About half a year ago. Previously, I was one of those who felt that best friends existed in cheesy books and movies and were there to delude the human race. I mean, I have good friends but best friends? How could a person have a best friend? What criteria does he/she need to meet to be best? Turns out that its not the amazing ability to understand the other person. Believe me, she lacks that. Its not having similar tastes and interests, because we differ. I mean you can say we both like anime and manga and seiyuus... But thats like saying two people like fruits. Person A may HATE durian while Person B is a durian connoisseur. I suppose its the fact that you can forgive the other person. You can accept the other person, regardless of how silly, rude, blunt, whiney, volatile, violent, fickle-minded... You know what to say, and what not to say, and what has to be said. Importantly, you know what does not need to be said. The phrase best friend was something we never used to refer to each other... Until that day.

The first phrase was : Our friendship pales in comparison to our ez-link cards. (Ok. Not exactly what she said, but... Yeah. The essence.)

Next was: I cant believe my best friend says I'm not allowed into her house as she doesnt want me to take away the posters that I GAVE HER. (I laughed, although I was stunned by the best friend comment.)

It really made me start thinking, and I guess my subconcious was aware of her new status way before I was concious of it as three weeks later, it was my turn to rant...

"I cant believe my best friend told me not to call her if I'm drunk as she says I'm freaky enough when I'm normal!"

And thus. It stuck. I mean, we should have been aware of the signs. Like, the looong phone calls. Constant sms-es to each other. Going to the same events. Dragging each other in and out of teams. Listening to virtually everything recommended by the other person. Not being able to be really upset with each other. Meeting up at least once a week. Brothers with the same name. Posts and notes online that refer to each other. Too many insider secrets. Cosplaying a yaoi couple with no difficulty working with each other. The list extends... I can't hold on to my grouchiness when I see her. Especially when she comes with three balloons. On Valentines Day. One from Melo. One with Kurei's name on it *internal fangirl scream*. And one with the JunJou Egoist pairing on it. I could feel my mouth curving up. She looked at me and didn't ask me what was wrong. Just went straight to cheering me up by telling me happy stuff. I think she did not even know what she's doing. Whacked me with the balloon. And I just grinned in happiness. Somehow, it seems as if we now use 'seme' and 'uke' as a not-accurate Japanese replacement of the word 'best friend'. Think "How can I abandon my seme?" or " I know because its my uke." Conveniently swop the words and VOILA. There you have it.

To those who think I'm lesbian.... Hurhurhur. You do not know me at all. Not that its any skin off my back *shrugs*

"No matter how much we hurt each other... If it's you I'm okay"

Ok. This sounds seriously wrong. Hey, its from Gackt. I didnt think of it on my own...