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So many things happened today. The most startling was the fact that I have gained 5 kilograms. Yes. 5 freaking kilograms. As if I am not fat enough. I am definitely going to do something about my weight. Nothing to drastic like eating one piece of bread per day? Nevertheless I will work out much more. Need to ensure my figure is good enough to cosplay? And I need to keep light for cheer. Otherwise the poor guys who have to carry me will die from my weight. Yeah I can joke and say that it is good training for them but I would be lying to say that it doesn't bother me? Weight is something that has constantly been bothering me since I was in JC. I don't ask to be less than 50kg, but I really do not need to be heavier than 55kg. I am already constantly teethering at the edge of HEAVY. I need to lose the flab.

Anyway, handed in my reflections and had my first speech in Japanese. Not scary because I have made soooo many presentations in school, but I could tell that it was barely decent. Was mostly staring at my script after the middle as my brain went blank. Terrible presentation. I think the content was insufficient? My presenatation was relatively short compared to that of my other classmates. Oh well. I am not going to extend it because I have no confidence... And I am likely to make another 300 mistakes if I were to continue on my own. Ridiculous, but I know my standard isn't there yet. A lot more work required before I can do things on my own.

Oh, we watched a Rakugo in the centre today... Was rather amusing at forst, but it quickly got very tiring. The jokes we all pretty crass and there are some things that differ across cultures so a few things weren't funny. Exaggerated slurping is only funny the first 10 seconds. When it extends to the 4th minute of slurping, it just becomes very tiring and boring. There were a few jokes that I had heard before, and I must admit that I'm not a fan of jokes that includes sabotage? Which makes it hard for me to like jokes in general but yeah. It was always people trying to cheat other people or people being mistreated. Not funny after the first 15minutes. It was a new experience, and the fact that part of it is in English helped me understand more, but seriously? Nothing as impressive as my Kabuki experience back home. Maybe I should go watch a kabuki performance in Kyoto? Not sure if I will udnerstand it without the subtitles, but it might be interesting? And I sort of want to go watch something artsy? So weird to go to the cultural hub of a country and not do anything remotely cultural? And I am superbly annoyed with people who only want to go shopping. Seriously can't we walk around and see the various sights? So many things to do and all you want to do is go back to sleep in the hostel? Ridiculous.

Ok maybe I am being bitchy, but I think I am entitled to do so. Cannot tolerate people who want to do nothing but sit around all day. Not like they are studying, but they want to watch television shows and sleep. All the missed opportunities! OMG just thinking about it makes me want to throw something at them. I need to be more positive. Too much negative energy in me recently. I think after exploring the States and Taiwan, along with my prior trips to Malaysia and Hong Kong, I've sort of become less tolerant of open-minded people, which is such an oxymoron. I'm being stupid about this. Sigh, I ought to be reprimanded.

Not really sure what I want to do so far, but I think I shall plan my way around? Stupid school has yet to tell me anything about where I am going to stay and everything. So hard to arrange... Maybe I should just head to Wakayama for a day trip instead? And use my long weekend to travel... OH YEAH. That might be a good idea HAHA. Sick and tired of constantly wondering why I'm indoors when there are so many cool things to do nearby? Sighs. I shall do my homework and decide on something soonish...

Strangely quiet day for now...

"Is this the place we used to love? / Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?"