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Been a pretty busy few days. Had a presentation this morning and a speech draft due at 8pm. This is on top of assignments and classes so I did not ahve much time to type out a blog post. Gettting swept up by things is, after, all, my favourite way to kill time. Anyway, this is to show that I'm very much still alive and suffering. My days have fallen into some sort of pattern. I wake at 745am every morning to the blaring alarm I have. Shower, change, pack my stuff and head for breakfast by 815am. I eat, talk a bit and head to class by 9am. Class is until lunch, where I devour food from the canteen while trying to discuss stuff with people over lunch. After that I head to my room at around 1pm for a nap before my class starts at 120pm. This goes on until around 4pm plus in the afternoon, where classes end for the day. Normally I'd go back and sort my things before heading for a run, but as there was work today, I started on my essay. No matter what, I usually head to the cafeteria for dinner at around 615pm, and finish my food around 7pm. Sometimes there are meetings, sometimes I go for karaoke, and sometimes I rush homework. Yeah. I return to my room by midnight and shower before I sleep at around 130am. So yeah, I get only about 6 hours of sleep everyday. I need more sleep, but... Yeah. Hard to get much sleep with so much prepatory work. And there are soooo many things that I want to do and need to do, like laundry and trash sorting.

Yeah, life here is not as fun as whatever you may think, as I've already said previously. I have a script to memorise, homework to do, and I need to plan my weekends. I think it would be an utter waste if I spent my weekends in my room lazing around. Travelled all the way to Japan and all I do is enjoy the airconditioning in my room. SIGH. I plan to head to a hundred and one places... The problem would be arranging housing and applying to stay out. Most of my daylight hours are spent in class, and at night, its tough to work on other things. Sigh. It doesn't help that I am easily distracted here. Alone and left to my own devices, I think I become a semi-hermit, staying in my room reading manga. In a way, this is kind of a good lifestyle? Studying, doing things at my own pace, exploring... For once I actually feel good? Yeah, sucky stuff happens, like the fact that I lost all the photos in my camera due to an accident. So no more Taiwan pictures. And I admit I need people to help me with my work. But this solo lifestyle? Tiring in certain ways, but really comfortable too. 

Rather bored recently. I think it is because Japan isn't what I had expected in many ways. And perhaps I am feeling resigned about the fact that my Japanese is wholly insufficient to survive in Japan. Sure I can order food and ask for simple directions, but I cannot have meaningful conversations with them? Which is a huge pain. Not that I have much to ask, but I feel annoyed. Too used to being able to understand everyone and being able to control how much people know of me. It kind of makes me want to speak even more Japanese and work harder to improve? Seeing how good everyone else is makes me want to grow more and develop more. Unequal starting points but its ok? I want to see myself improve. I want to be able to easily read the Katakana on the karaoke screen. I want to be able to confidently speak in Japanese. Its so annoying to have so many ideas in your head and no way to express it all. 

Met a lot of nice people here. The Singaporeans are a fun loving and superbly noisy bunch. We get along fine, although we are not the best of friends. I'm pretty much a solo person, as in I go to class on my own, I go for meals on my own and all. Yeah I do join the others for activities and all, but only if they invite me? I'd never self invite to their table and gatherings. I feel weird imposing on others, and I think people have this impression that I'm this quiet girl. I think I'd rather people think I'm crazy, but I guess this is all I can do given how terrible my language skills are? I shall work harder!

The teachers here are really nice people? They do try very hard to let us speak Japanese, and they give advice and guidance in many matters. The programme is really good? The concept is decent, and the fact that Japan has enough domestic variety to support this programme is part of the reason why this is so enjoyable. Osaka was fun. I think Kobe will be fun as well as I'm going to head to Himenoji Castle? If possible I'd like to spend the night in Kobe and see how things are. I should probably go with someone though? So I shall do my best to psycho people to join me... 

I should go to bed. Long day tomorrow. And I still need to work on my script for the speech. Super a lot of work that needs to be done. Oh well. I can do this! Its already been a week since I came anyway, and I believe I can do this?

And if my cheerleaders don't shape up soon, I will really scream.

"I'm not a rubbish bin; I don't eat shit."