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What Can I Do by SeungRi

Heading to Kyoto and Nara for a total of a four days and three nights? Mainly staying in this business hotel super near Kyoto Station, which I don't think has WiFi so I will probably disappear for a while, before heading to a minshoku in Nara. Its not a full fledged ryokan I think? I shall check it out and get back to you when I return on Saturday. Anyway I am pretty excited about this, because Kyoto is one of those places that I have been dreaming of since I could remember. All the old streets and sweets... I know people say that its a city that is cold to outsiders, but I think I could fall in love with the place and the architecture. The weather forecast warns of rain and thunderstorms, so I shall hope that it stays dry when I am outdoors? Where is my teru teru bouzo when I need it...

Arranged the extension in Nara on my own. And I did my own research on the places that I want to go and the things that I want to to do in Kyoto. Quite annoying to have to keep chasing people left right and centre only for them to enjoy the benefits of your labour. Oh well. I shall do my best to enjoy the experience. I think Nara would be something like a temple hopping trip. Will walk and eat and snap photos. I don't care if they think it is rude in Japan, I shall flaunt my gaijin status and enjoy the city the way I feel it should be enjoyed. As long as it doesn't rain...

Getting quite annoyed with this girl in the course. I know, I'm not an easy person to get along with but I know I'm not the only one who finds her a pain. Serious! I mean, she likes to butt into conversations between other people to inject her two cents worth? And its not like what she says is correct? And she likes to insist that she is right and everyone else is wrong. Shameless. Not like we are from the same clique? I hang out with the other students from SG, the noisy bunch, and I'm okay with some of the gals from Kedah. I'm alright with most of the others, its just mainly her? Trying so hard to be popular. Trying so hard to be liked. I know we all want attention, to a certain degree, but she's awful. Horrible. Made me roll my eyes twice today. Huge accomplishment given how much little I roll my eyes at people. Used to think that it was horribly rude but I can start to understand why people would do such an action. Well, she should get the hostile body language and stay away from me. Otherwise I might shoot her down to gloat. Not a good thing if I have to see her for another four weeks...

I think I am getting slightly better at my script? I sort of gave up on trying to memorise it, it takes far too much effort... Instead I prepared some really pretty slides of SG to show. I think after one hour of speeches, the students would be curling up in agony at us mauling their language, so the least I could to is to improve the visuals and hope for the best. I think it is more natural, but I know I will need to refer to my script. Perhaps I could look up more and establish more eye contact, but... Yeah. The good thing is that it is not graded? Feels a bit weird to work on things that are not graded? But I think there might actually be more pressure this way? Because its all qualitative, and if there is one thing that school has taught me, it is that the qualitative things are the HARDEST to measure. Common sense nyah~

Finishing the apple that I bought from AEON now. Totally forgot about it and I think the apple, no matter how fresh and delicious, would taste awful if I were to leave it in my fridge for a week. Really good and very sweet and crunchy. If I could, I would buy one home to let my family try. Then again, there are so many things that I want my family to try that is only possible if they were to tag along? I shall hope that my parents could come with me. I know my brother would? I would bring my grandparents too... In many ways, Japan is an awesome country to travel to. Although things are expensive, quality is usually decent and the people do try to help you around. I must admit that I realised how little Japanese I know somewhere like the third day of the programme, but I'm trying? Really trying... Hopefully by the end of this I would have reached a level that was impossible previously. I was in a bit of a inertia before this trip and now... Its sort of going away? Seeing so many new things, learning so many new things and being pushed to work more and harder and faster...Its good for me HAHA.

I think I might want to stay alone after I graduate from school. It might be nice to leave my parents and do the things I should be doing on my own? And after hanging out with people who have graduated from university, I think the difference between us would be the approach and values we have? Not that its a good or bad thing, but I think the path opens up on its own. You reap what you sow, and I think I need to sow a LOT more seeds into the ground. Or I might just starve in winter. Sigh. I need to think of an internship. Might have found one, but I'm not sure. Let's see how things go?

See you in a few days! I'll try everything I can, and see everything possible with the limited budget I have~

"Its gonna be better for you to move on..."